I'M AT THE TOP OF THE WORLD!

after so long..

2008-09-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

hi peepz.. hope u all doing good ya.. :) i just recover from my sick.. i got high fever, sore throat, flu, cough.. :S.. now feeling betterr.. but not 100% totally recover yet.. :S so sorry that i didn;t blog..

okie.. now i'm back.. for the passs few days.. i didn;t do anything much.. u noe la.. sick ma.. how to do things rite? but i did meet up with char.. :) hehehe.. besides that.. naa.. nothing d... so bored rite?? but i sms la.. :) thanks for smsing with me..

so this few day.. i've think properly... it's been sometime that u didn't reply me.... i'm so childish.. i'm 23 and i'm still doing such childish things like.. everynite i cannot sleep.. it's awful.. everynite i've been like a fool waiting for the phone to ring.. every nite i visit your blog and hope to get reply from u... everytime i go and see u.. i'm so stupid.. i've done alot alot for u.. alot more that i did to any other girl.. can't this show how much u mean to me?? :(

noww!!!!!!!!!!!.. now that i am clueless wat to do.. now that i am feeling weird.. i dun dare to go see u... i dun dare to talk to u.. i dun even dare to pass by in front of u... i dunno how to face u anymore.. well... i've think properly this few nitez.. i will stop sms u tonight.. tonight is my last sms to u.. ok.. i promise i won't be here to disturb u anymore.. anymore.. not even once u will get my sms.. i'll let u be happy as usual. as long as u are happy with it.. the moments i have spend in u.. i will never forget.. i've done too much things that u dunno.. i've done alot and sacrifies alot on u.. but u still dunno.. am i dumb?? or am i stupid?? or this is wat we call LOVE??? i really dunno..

u wanna noe how much i've sacrifies?? actually.. i've sacrifies everything for u including my pride.. u won't noe.. nvm la.. other than that, i've folded something everynite.. i'll give it to u ONE DAY!!!.. i really hope u will have a great time and enjoy yourself.. i'll be here waiting and waiting for u, for u to open your heart...

it started since the year i fetch u to asia cafe.. and the first present that really comes from my own blood and sweat is the valentines gift.. well.. it's long long time ago.. maybe u have forget... well.. i just hope u can be as happy as possible.. take good care okie??? must study hard..

who ever read this, some might noe who i'm talking about some might not noe.. and someone will noe who is the one i'm talking about... i'm sorry for not being the guy that u love.. i'm sorry for not being the perfect guy.... last but not least.. i'm really sorry for not be able to provide u love and happiness that any other guy can give u... sorry...

okie.. i gtg sleep d.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep titeee.. sleep well ya... have a nice day tomorrow.. linda.. someone.. sleep properly.. have a nice day.. take good carezz..

think about love
think about the goodness
how could i forget the love we had?
how could i forget the little things that you had
that makes me tickle?
these little things that i love so much?
how could i ever forget?
and when i feel like giving up
your love sought me out and found me
cause when someones occupies a space in my heart
that space is forever yours
never forget that
it is always yours
with your name on it
reserved just for you

UNCERTAINTY!!.. U changed!!

2008-09-04T01:36:00.002+08:00

hey... not in the mood la.. i feel that u change.. u noe who i am talking about.. i feel so urrrgghhh!!! dunno wat kinda feeling.. but i gues now the best word is uncertainty!!! :S

well.. nite nite... sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well ya.. have a great day tomorrow... dun get cold.. take cares.. linda.. someone.. have a wonderful day tomorrow ya.. sleep properly.. TAKE GOOD CAREZ!!!

my heart is wavering more than ever
i dont know how much longer i can take
or rather how much more we can take
exactly how many obstacles must we subdue
how much blow must we withstand
before it can all be laid to rest
in the grave
to rest in peace forever?
it is now
more than ever
i realised that forever is not easy at all
the fairytale ending of lasting till the end of time
is not as sweet as it seems
it is not as smooth sailing as it seems
it is not as easy to achieve as it seems
i have given too much expectations to us
to that fairytale ending
i expected things to be hard
or at least peaceful
but its not
things are harder than expected
it has never been peaceful
we have been constantly been put to the test
so vigorously
so harshly
so bluntly
that we have sustained bruises along the way
i may not say it
you may not say it
but we both know
how much we lost
or have to lose
before things will be back to normal
perhaps not back to normal
because things can never be back to normal
after all the happenings
but at least
we can stop losing things we love
stop creating all the problems
we can stop it all
once and for all
is it right or wrong?
this decision i am going to make
or have made
i dont know
i dont know if i will regret it more
than what i will gain
in the future
or whether
i will regret less than what i am going to lose
if i chose the other path
frankly speaking
i dont know
i dont even know how i feel about you now
and its blurrier than ever before
the line is blurred
do i love you
or do i hate you?
sometimes
its both
sometimes
it is at the extremes
how can that be possible?
i cant hate and love you at the same time
how can anyone have this kind of mixed feelings
at the same time?
ironically
i do
and its times like this
that makes me doubt us more than ever
that makes me feel as though no one
not even you
understands me
i dont even understand myself
let alone you
and for that
it only makes me hate myself more
for i only love to complicate things further
as though things are not complicated now
and there are times
when i dont even know
if i understand you
i dont even know if i understand you
because sometimes
we seem so far apart
so far apart
in our hearts
to go beyond the surface
and reach into your soul
i dont know if i have already done so
but i know you have
and for that
i thank you
to know that
someone will always be there for me
regardless of rain or shine
regardless of where we may be
regardless of what stands in our way
brings comfort
solace
it makes me feel
as though
i will never be forsaken
even if the whole world
has forsaken me
but then there are times
when i feel that the world has not forsaken me
but you have forsaken me instead
without even you knowing
have you realised?
and thats when i start
to doubt my value in your life
what am i to you?
i think i know the answer
but then
on the other hand
i may not know the answer
after all
so exactly
where are we heading to?
doom?
or forever?
i think we will never know
till time proves itself in the long run
i dont know what i expect of you
or perhaps i dont have any expectations of you
because you are you
you are who you are
and i love you for who you are
no matter what obstacles come our way
so exactly
what do i want
when i start to doubt us?
i dont know
i dont have the answer now
it could just be me
my little horrid mood swings
but now i know
at least that
these mood swings arose
because i felt that we are so far in our hearts
so far
as though we are strangers
as though neither of us existed
as though we never had any importance in our lives
and i dont like this feeling
in times of storm
i need security to know that we will pull through
together as one
and the feeling of us being far apart in our hearts
gives no security at all
do you have faith in us pulling through?
do you have the confidence that we will make it through?
do you have trust in us?
whats your answer?
dont go too far from my heart
i want to keep you as close as i can
to spend each moment i have with you
as though it may be our last
because life is so unpredictable
each moment is cherished
and i dont want it to go to waste
let each moment be the best
and dont let me walk away
with this kind of feeling again
i hate it
i hate it when i start to doubt about us
because once we start to doubt
there will be no ending to it
we will only head for our doom
something that i never want to happen
and despite it all
i know
deep inside
your name is written on my heart
craved on my heart
and it can never be erased
the name rings in my ears
surfaces in my mind
thought of in my heart
everyday
every hour
every minute
every second
and its this unexplained link felt in the heart
that this love is not demanding
cause my heart told me so
it told me to love you with all i have
everyday
all the time
to give you nothing less than what you are worthy of
love
more love
tons of love
how could anyone give you anything less than love?
how could anyone give you sadness?
how could anyone give you pain?
how could anyone give you tears?
how could anyone give you hurt?
how could anyone do that?
and i am more than willing to endure
your sadness
your pain
for you
when you cry
i will be the first to run to your side
and cry with you
because it hurts to know you hurt
it hurts to know that you are upset
and then i will wipe away your tears for you
and bring you nothing less
than love and joy
though i know the pain can not be wiped away so easily
but then at least i know i can lessen it for you
your smile keeps me going
your touch reminds me that love like this still exists
in such a cruel and brutal world
i cant see your love
but i feel it
and its my sun
it warms me from deep within
it enriches my soul
nobody can ever love me the way you do

PROMISE!!!!

2008-09-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

harloo... how's today?? hehehaha.. tiring?? lolz.. my day was okie.. went to college around 11am.. to enrol for my next semester.. :) hmm.. guess how long it took me... hmm.. it took me 5 hours.. cause there were many ppl enrolling.. 5 hours also lucky i noe someone there...

if not.. guess i won't be able to enrol... hahaha.. after that.. went to eat lunch with my teacher.. then chit chat awhile.. then i go meet malvin and frens at srikl... lepak awhile.. then around 4pm.. i went to pyramid..

reach pyramid.. then play bowling la.. play play play.. around 6pm.. finish d.. cause it's puasa time.. so many malays going back early.. so i go to popular with my frens.. then hang around at the alley till 7pm.. then i go home

reach home. shower... then watch tv.. :) watch oprah winfrey.. hehehhe.. :) nice show.... then after the show i go eat my dinner.. after dinner i go sit in front of the tv and watch again.. hahaha.. nothing today. then i sms someone.. after that.. i online.. lolz.. now i am blogging.. hahahha

lazy la.. wanna go sleep sooon.. listen to music and been chatting with linda.. :) hehehe.. gtg d la.. nite nite peepzz.. sweet dreamss. sleeep tite.. tata.. linda.. someone.. sleep properly ya.. sleep tite.. HAVE A NICE DAY TOMORROW!!!! TAKE CAREZZ!!!

who can always make me smile?
you
(i like to poke you especially cause your expression is so adorable)
who can always make me giggle like mad even in public?
you
who can always make us look so silly
but we are having tons of fun?
you
who can always go to retarded mode when i request for it?
you
who can always go the distance for me?
you
who can always do the silly things with me?
you
who can always make me feel loved?
you
who can always be my pokemon?
you
who can always make me feel as though
time is so short?
you
who can always be there for me
rain or shine?
you
who can always make me feel that
10th is the nicest number?
you
who can always crack my knuckles
like as though its a fetish?
you
who always make me feel smarter?
you
who always have the silly grin
or "smart" smile?
you
who always wants to break the rules?
you
who can hug me tight and make me feel loved?
you
who do i have so much memories with?
you
who do i have a dream with?
you
who do i want to see everyday?
you
who knows my favourite drink
from coffee bean
and from the bubble tea shop?
you
who do i share codes with?
you
who does the strangest things with me?
you
who will always go places with me?
you
and for all these
for all that we have shared
there will be more to come
and even if the future hasnt come
all that we had previously
is enough for me
let alone
what will happen in the future
cause i am on a permanent love high
because of you
and i am taking each day at a time
hoping to spend each day with you
and if i am with you
i cherish every single moment
this permanent love high
i will always be in
as long as you are here with me
by my side
thats enough for me
you are always here with me
cause of this unexplained link felt in the heart
and this link is here to stay
a link from me to you
from you to me :)

badly Hurt!!!!

2008-09-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how is today?? good?? wat did u all do? haha.. oh well.. me fine.. no mood.. so ya.. today woke up at 9.50am.. then came downstairs.. drink tea.. and then sleep again.. haih.. dunno why cannot sleep properly.. :S

after that.. grandma wanted to go KL.. she wanted to sit LRT.. so me accompany her.. my mom and i went with her... reach there.. then started to walk.. walk around and see whether got things to buy or not.. after that.. went to eat lunch... i ate chicken rice.. :) after that.. walk back to petaling street.. waaa lau.. so hot.. :S but nvm la.. grandma ask ma.. so accompany her lorr... after few hours.. we all plan to go back home.. around 3 something.. go back home.. reach home then watch tv.. while waiting for the rain to stop.. then go to pyramid...

reach there.. walk around awhile with mummy and grandma.. then my brother wannaa buy bag.. so acccompany him lorr.. then after that.. went to meet my dad to have dinner.. then after that go home

reach home.. watch tv.. then fall asleep awhile.. around 10.30.. woke up.. play with my dog awhile.. then i go online.. listen to music and now blogging.. that's wat happen la.. :S tomorrow must go college d.. start class d.. haih.. okie la.. wanna sleep d... nite nite.. sweet dreams... sleep tite ya.. have a nice day tomorrow.. tata... take carezz..

linda.. someone.. have a nice day tomorrow ya.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. take good carez....

the hugs
the whispers in my ear
the touch of your finger on my skin
the feeling of your hand around mine
the sweetness of your lips
the honeyed words you said to me
the smell of your skin
the gaze in your eyes
the outline of your face
i am missing all of them now
do you know this?
its my dirty little secret
cause as long as its about you
it will be missed
and i will say this again
and while the others set me thinking
i know we could be more than amazing
you have showed me that this love we have
is worth defending
is worth fighting for
as long as we stand firm together
we will make it through the rain
and perhaps we may sustain bruises along the way
but then
i know
these bruises will make us stronger only
cause we are soldiers
you are my soldier
who taught me to be strong
and to not fear obstacles if they come
you are my soldier
who protects me

something's MISSING...

2008-09-01T01:57:00.002+08:00

hey... today is merdeka.. so HAPPY MERDEKA.. well.. i did nothing the whole day except watching tv.. from 12pm till 6pm.. then come back.. from 11pm till 2pm.. no mood la.. so i try to watch tv to make myself busy so i won't think so much.. :) so ya.. that's wat i do today.. :S haih... erm.. i am now going to sleep d..

nite nite everyone.. sweet dreamss... have a great day tomorrow ya...

linda... someone.. may u have sweeet sweeet dreamss tonight.. sleep tite.. GOD BLESS u.. and have a wonderful day tomorrow.. TAKE CAREZZZ.. :)

i dont know how to describe this feeling
something's missing despite perfection
is it just me?
or is there no connection nowadays?
what are we looking for?
what are we searching for in each other?
life is great
better than ever
but then
something's missing
the sparks that flew
the moment we met
the connection we felt in the heart
that special tingling
sensation
that sensation that once made me
feel as though only the 2 of us existed
the sensation of contentment
its that sensation thats missing
perhaps i am really scared of losing you
losing you is something i never want to experience
i dont know why
but sometimes
i feel as though i am going to lose you any moment
call it insecurity
call it paranoid
but then
i feel this way
because of this special thing called love
i just want you to be happy
is that right or wrong?
is this love or spoiling you?
the line is so blurred
and its all about balance
and i hope i balance it well
i dont want to hold you too tight
but then i dont want to hold you too loosely too
its hard
love is not a easy feat
but then
i hope
we can find this delicate balance
that our love for each other
is not a burden
is not a crime
i hope
my love for you is not a burden
we have changed
you have changed
i have changed
for one another unknowingly
that
i only realised today
and for that
thank you
i am taking each day with love
i am taking each day with gratitude
that you are here with me
the day is approaching
how many more can we share?
you are the best that i can ever ask for
and you have showed me things i never knew
you have taught me to be strong
taught me lessons in life
you gave rainbows to my life
and you are the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
thank you
take my hand
trust in me
trust in us
that we will make it through

meERDEKA??? oh wel....

2008-08-31T02:41:00.001+08:00

hi people.. hope u all having a great time... :S i am okie.. but no mood.. just dun feel like blogging today.. i'm sorry about today people.. so sorry.. i will blog tomorrow if i am okie.. sorry ya.. :S

nite nite people.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. DUN LET BED BUGS BITE!!!!.. have a nice day tomorrow..

someone.. have a good sleep ya.. may u be happy always... guess i really not gonna get to board the bus anymore.. :S *sigh*...

linda.. nite.. sweet dreams.. tata... take good carezz....

and who is there to remind me the things we shared?
the dreams we used to talk so often about?
the lives we always wanted to share
the memories
and most importantly of all
the love we had?
its almost like we have never loved at all
its as though
there seems to be no traces of our love at all
it has been wiped clean
and it is not seen or felt
our love has left no trace
none at all
after it all
and even after so much
our love has no trace at all
its as though it has gone with the wind
and it can never be called back
cause the love we had
has died
fizzled out
burned us
to the ashes

u are so cruel to me...!!

2008-08-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

hey.. how's everyone..?? hmm.. today pmr trials last day.. so everyone happy?? hahah.. college no class.. so everyone at hometown i guess.. hahhah.. so this morning woke up at 10.. then watch tv awhile.. then shower and go to srikl..

i reach there then i walk in.. hahaha.. i notice many ppl looking at me.. :s cause the shirt i wore.. my fren gave me for birthday... nice.. and i am proud to wear it.. thanks again ya.. SHER-MAINE and JOANNE!!!!!.. :) took pictures with them.. then chit chat awhile.. then i saw pretty and frens at the canteen.. dun dare to talk to pretty.. :S haih.. so sat pai man.. :(

after that.. malvin they all went to pyramid with me.. we went and play bowling.. at first.. we wanted to bowl.. but no lanes.. so we walk around at pyramid.. then around 5pm.. we went back to the alley to play bowling.. we bet for mineral water.. malvin and i 1 team, syok and kean yong one team.. hahhaa.. kean yong's team was kinda scary at first.. but after that.. haha.. they tired and slowly slowly not scary d.. :) so.. after that.. went to play DOTA with them.. hahaha.. play and then around 7.30pm.. we all go home.. :)

i go home.. reach home around 8pm.. then i shower and get ready to go out for dinner.. aroudn 8.30.. sms people while waiting for food to be serve.. then around 9.30.. finish dinner.. then go home.. reach home.. online and download music.. hehehhe...

so now i am here.. and i am bored again.. :S haih.. so sien man.. i am not in the mood la.. since that day you went AWAY!!! weell.. got to sleep la.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss ya.. sleep tite.. have a great day tomorrow.. tata..

linda.. someone.. have a good day tomorrow ya.. sleep tite.. TAKE GOOD CAREZZ!!!

at this moment in time
it felt so familiar
i realised that i missed you
it reminded us of our love
i know being loved is a privilege
i tried changing for you
but i can not change what rumours did to us
closing my eyes
i could still see
too bad it wasnt you
who held my hand to the end
we walked together
but then
we got lost at the junction
but still
thank you for holding my hand once
thank you for being that one
i can still feel the gentleness
i hope we can return to yesterday
but yesterday seems so far away

I LOVE IT!!!!

2008-08-29T01:18:00.003+08:00

hey ya.. today is okie.. went to pyramid at 12 to meet with twins.. my fren la.. not the hong kong singer.. meet with them cause one of them say their phone spoil.. so i help them fix lu.. helping them fix while walking.. chun leh?? hahha.. then we walk to jusco.. they wanna buy house holds.. so i teman them.. waaa.. they buy rice and all.. hehe.. so good la.. i also wanna learn.. then hold things for them then carry.. then walk them to the parking and i go back to srikl..

after that.. walk to my college and take my results.. :( bad la.. so sad.. haih.. so after that.. went to eat something cause i;m hungry.. then i go back to srikl.. haha.. gave back malvin his 2 phone that cannot repair.. hhahhaa.. sorry man.. i try my best d.. then saw huixin.. she ask me whether get the present or not.. i told her not yet.. then i go to the secondary canteen to get my present.. wahhhh.. so nice oh.. THANK U VERY MUCH HUIXIN!!!!!!!... THANKS!!!.....

after that.. i went to pyramid.. go there play bowling la.. as usual rite? sien rite? so sad.. :S after that.. i go to my shop.. hahahhaa.. need to be carefull cause now KASTAM come and confiscate phones.. so i am worried.. :S haih..

then after that go home around 8 something.. shower and then eat dinner.. watch show awhile and now i online.. ahaha.. downloading songs.. and listening to music.. :) tomorrow is PMR triaals last day.. HAPPY or not?? :)

okie la.. wanna sleep d.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleeep welll.. have a nice day tomorrow.. GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST YA!!! take carezz..

linda.. someone.. have a nice day tomorrow k? nite nite.. sweet sweet dreamss arr.. tata.. take care!!!

we are not even worthy to care or cry for one another
because i am nothing to you
and so
just stop saying you miss me
these words are only wavering my heart
and i know
you will never regret for leaving me
and so stop making me suffer
let me truly understand
how a permanent goodbye is supposed to feel like
and regardless of whether
you are ready or not
we are ready or not
i am ready or not
its time to say goodbye
the time has come
the times when we comforted each other
gone
the times when we thought that
we were all that mattered
gone
the times that we used to share
gone
the times of silly laughters
gone
the times of honeyed words
gone
the times of that love we used to have
gone
forever
and we can never get it back
whether we accept it or not

thank u frens.. :)

2008-08-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

hey. . yesterday was my birthday.. so ya.. erm.. i get many wishes from frens... :) from yesterday nite till just now.. :) many wishes.. :) they are..

1) Huixin ( srikl )
2) Esther Cheah ( bowling TEAM MALAYSIA )
3) Pauline ( smksj volleyball)
4) Zandra Aziela ( bowling TEAM MALAYSIA )
5) Alex Liew (bowling TEAM MALAYSIA )
6) Wendy Chai (bowling TEAM MALAYSIA )
7) Pearly Goh ( srikl)
8) Malvin Yam ( srikl )
9) Samantha Koay ( srikl )
10) Tee Joann ( srikl )
11) Daddy
12) Siew Hock ( srikl )
13) Aunty May ( aunty )
14) Joanne Chee ( srikl )
15) Ivy ( ex )
16) Wei Mei ( INTI COLLEGE )
17) Sharon ( My cousin )
18) Sharyn ( srikl )
19) Mummy
20) Aaron Kong , Zulmazran, Christyn Chew, Sin li jane, ( bowling TEAM MALAYSIA)
21) Amanda Ng, Bernice Lim, Steffi Tham, Edlyn Kwok, Jazreel Tan ( bowling TEAM SINGAPORE)
22) Sharon Koh ( team MALAYSIA )
23) Kar Yen ( team MALAYSIA )

hehe.. enuf la.. i 23 years old.. so i put top 23 la.. hahahha.. so ya.. today i'm happy.. and a girls name is not on the list cause i dun wanna put her name in the list.. she's special.. here.. her name will be here... LIEW SHER-MAINE!!!!! :) thank u so much... u make my day.. and i loveeeee the present... and thanks for being so caring and making me feel like not left out.. u are the most wonderful fren i ever know.. thank u VERY VERY MUCH.... *hugS*

hmm.. basically today is good.. i am happy.. and i waiting for more presentss. hahahha.. so now i wanna go sleep d la.. so happy till cannot sleep.. but i will still try la..heheh.. okiee.. nite nite people.. sweet dreamss. sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a nice day tomorrow.. GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST!!! take carezz..

linda.. someone.. have a great day tomorrow.. sleep tite ya.. TAKE GOOD CARE!!.. :)

you took my hand
you showed me how
you promised me you will be around
i took your words
and i believed it
if someone told me you will be long gone
years from now
they are all wrong
i know better
cause you said forever and ever
and i try to remember those special moments
but times make it harder
i will be with you wherever you go
through the eyes of a fly on the wall
i am sorry that i cant tell you this anymore
cause this time
i am letting go of your hand
of us
but our memories
those moments we once thought
we were the only ones existing
will be kept close
goodbye to us
goodbye to what we once had
that we will never have again
goodbye to you
who was once my baby love
this is it
this is the end of our road
the end

THANK U!!! everyone....

2008-08-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

harlo... how's today?? heehehe.. okie?? me okie la.. didn't do anything beside bowling.. i did badly tho... haih.. need to chage style la.. damn.. damn hard man.. haih... anyway.. how's trials?? hard?? easy.. oh well..

so ya.. today raining very long.. so i went to srikl and look for indra... she say she haven claim for me.. damn la.. i no more money la.. need to go philiphine for bowling la.. no money = no go.. :S haih... so after that.. went and park my car.. then while i was walking back.. i saw malvin they all.. then they ask me to go makan.. when i saw a girl... she hate me... so i dun feel like going.. but then..... for my frens.. i have to go... so walk to asia.. order our indo mee.. hahah.. and then start to chit chat... eating and then we play.. hahah.. malvin will noe wat we play.. at first... me and ken seng put lime on malvin's soup. hahaha.. damn funny.. okie.. then after that dunno wat happen.. i start to spray water that is on the table.. OOPSS!!! i kena her.. sorry.. i dun mean it..

after that.. walk back to srikl.. then i go for bowling.. hehehe.. i went and then i bowl.. my coach is there.. omg.. he keep changing my style.. until i go crazy.. so now i am noob in bowling.. :S haih...

after that.. went home.. shower and listen to music.. eat dinner and now i am online... listening to music and singing.. :)

okie la.. going to sleep d.. tomorrow i will put down a list of ppl who wish me.. :) wat position u get huh?? lolz.. okie.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. GOOD LUCK ya.. all the best.. take caresz..

linda.. someone.. sleep tite.. nite nite.. sweeeet dreaaammss... take good carezz..

and if you looked inside my eyes
would you care?
love is setting someone free
but when you love someone
you will want to be surrounded
by that special someone
all the time

no one could ever replace U!!!!

2008-08-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

hey ya... how's everyone? how's today?? hehehe.. hmm.. how's trials ar?? i heard many ppl say very hard oh.. really?? heheh.. okie.. hope it's good la.. so i did nothing besides listening to music.. i just wake up and start to blast the speaker till 1pm..

then drove to find indra and get my salary.. but she not there.. =.='.. after that.. go eat my lunch and then lepak at college.. no one there.. so quiet.. omg.. like being haunted.. hahah.. anyway... after that went to srikl to lepak.. then meet with ppl.. and i see some ppl.. and the most important thing is i saw her... i saw pretty.... i saw my idol.. :) hehe.. okiee..

after that, went to pyramid and bowl.. bowl like shit.. dunno why.. then then i go lepak at the ice skating ring.. saw the srikl girl there.. dunno wat is her name.. long hair.. straight hair.. then walk to my shop and saw the same srikl girl buying hp... :) guess she buy expensive d.. :S after that.. i went home.. reach home at 7.30pm.. then shower and.. there i go.. music again.. mad d la.. always music and music.. hahaha..

after that.. i sms some people.. then i eat my dinner at 8.45pm.. after that.. walk around let the food digest.. then i go online.. download the song name 'when i see you smile'.... nice.. suits me.. :) heheh.. okie.. then around 11.. i sms people..

okie.. now i am here.. blogging.. and music.. :) hehehe.. so.. hmm.. gtg d.. nite nite ppl.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep welll.. have a nice day tommoorrow.. :) GOOD LUCK to PMR and IGCSE trails people... tata...

linda.. someone.. glad that u doing good.. happy that u are happy... although i might not see it.. but i will always pray for god to give u happiness.. nite.. sleep tite.. may u have sweetest dream... have a great day ya.. TAKE GOOD CAREZZ...

and i am taking a day at a time
a step at a time
i am in no rush at all
i am just moving at my own pace
i will be okay
i will be fine
cause those who stood by me
is here to help me make it through
it may just take a while
and yes
that is it
i am no longer waiting for anything
i am no longer hoping for anything
i just want to be away
from you
away from all these that will remind me
of all those things
those things that i used to think
that i once belonged to
that it once belonged to me

mood swings... but still need U badly..

2008-08-25T01:19:00.002+08:00

hi... how are u people doing with studies?? sure not good.. hmm.. hope it's great ya... oh ya.. to certain ppl.. i'm sorry to sms u so late at nite.. u people must be sleeping d.. but hahha.. just remembered u peeps got trials.. so ya..

today went to summit to see wushu competition.. held by my association.. i didn't compete cause i got no HQ and dun represent anyone.. i represent myself.. WILD CARD i mean.. means that me alone.. hahaha.. in other words.. i amm too powerfull gua.. :P

okie.. so went there.. look at my frens compete.. then some of them did mistake.. then they came out i told them the mistakes and they start to scared and worried.. then i saw my ex there.. omg... she act so cool in front of me.. dunno why.. but.. fine.. so ya.. see her.. she busy with other guys la as usual.. then after lunch.. she like very close to me.. like u noe.. wan me to care?? lolz.. dun care.. her competition lost to my closest fren.. which i always hang out with.. omg.. she lose and she cried.. everyone ask me to go in and comfort her.. but u guess wat i did?? hahaha.. i sit down and continue looking at ppl perform.. hehehe.. i dunneed to cheer her la.. cause not that i give up on her. is she.. oh well.. dun care...

after that.. went back home and sleep awhile.. and then i went online to look for songs.. then around 8pm.. went out for dinner with mummy.. her birthday today.. oh.. this morning... went to her room and gave her the present.. hug her and wish her happy birthday.. then she was so shocked and i gave her suprise.. :) glad that she's happy.. heheh... skip skip..

wat else.. hmm.. oh ya.... wushu mate all hate the fat fat guy.. secret la.. so ya.. some guys are irritating.. hehehhe.. i noe i aam... rite????

oh well.... gtg d.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss. sleep tite.. GOOD LUCK AGAIN!!! ALL THE BEST YA!!!! TAKE CAREZZXX.... linda.. someone.. sleep properly.. hope u get good good dreamss.. TAKE GOOD CAREZZ..................

u noe how much i need u girl??
if my heart has to bleed just to let you know
how much i need u and
i wont let go forever..
will u believe me??

my 'world' is U!!!!

2008-08-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

hey.. hope u guys doing great.. i am okie.. not fine.. moody... as usual.. :( okie.. so i did nothing except listening to music... so ya.. whole day with music..

sms few people.. then continue with my music.. :S so ya.. basically.. i am not here... lost without u!!! my world.. is not complete.. so i'm sorry for being not in the mood to write..

nite nite everyone.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. linda.. someone.. nitezz.. sleep properly ya.. have a nice day tomorrow.. take good carezz...

everything is nothing
without you
and with everything
i just want you to know
i wont let go
this are my words and soul
and i will stay to see you smile
because thats what is true

when i lost U!!

2008-08-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

hey.. how's everyone? good? hope it's good.. i am not good.. as usual.. no mood la... i did sales today.. dunno why.. now i just dun feel like doing work.. oh well..

the bus i waited.. really didn't come.. guess the bus really change the journey of the day.. :S i'm gonna miss the bus that bring me to everywhere in the world.. :S

i'm sorry.. hope u guys doing good.. have a great day tomorrow.. take good care ya.. linda.. someone.. sleep properly.. have a nice day.. sleep tite.. Nite.. TAKE CAREZZ!!!!

and your memories stays in my heart
just like a tattoo
i tried to draw a picture of love
and i realised that i really miss you so much
maybe we have held on too hard
maybe we are torn apart
empty is the word now
the side of the bed that you used to lie on
empty
the gaps between my fingers
empty
the photoframe that used to contain our smiling faces
empty
the warmth that my heart felt
empty
the sweetness i used to have
empty
the memories of us in the future
empty

u r the girl in my dreams...

2008-08-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

harlo.. how r u peeps?? good?? how's holidays?? shopping or studying??? well.. i guess some shopping.. and some are busy studying.. :) i'm okie... just still no mood... and dun feel like doing anything..

i guess, it's time for me to stop.. stop waiting for the bus.. waiting for the bus which will not ever come.. i guess the bus must have been misunderstand where i'm going.. and dun wanna pick me up.. so i have to just stay where i am and just continue wat i have or supposed to do.. sometimes.. i just wish i can tell someone abou tmy feelings.. the only one i can tell is to the bus.. but... i dunno wat happen to the bus.. it seems that.. the bus has change it's journey.. something is not right that make the bus change it's journey.. last time when i first board the bus.. i feel so comfortable.. cause i noe i can sit the bus and board the bus wherever i wanna go.. whatever the situations is.. i still can board the bus.. but now.. i am seriously not confortable cause i can never tell or board the bus that can bring me to my place.. to my happiness.. to my world..

well.. i really dunno why this will happen.. but i really hope the bus can come back to the journey that always i wanna go.. please.. u are the only bus i can board and bring me to the most happiest place in the world..

thanks people who ask me what happen and thanks for people who read my blog and noe i feel sad.. thank u people.. u noe who u are people... thank u very much..

okie.. i gtg.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. have a nice day tomorrow ya.. linda... someone.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep properly.. take good careszz ya!!!

i dont want this moment to ever end
i waited here forever
just to see you smile
cause its true
i am nothing without you
and through it all
i made my mistakes
i stumbled and fall
but i mean these words
those memories fell to the ground
all the streets
i walked alone
with nowhere to go
and when i dont even know what am i looking for
but i just have to look into your eyes
and i will find my way

drop on my knee!! i need u!!

2008-08-21T02:11:00.002+08:00

hi.. sorry for this few days.. no mood.. dunno why.. but hope i'll get over it.. have a wonderfulday people.. take good carezz... tata.. linda.. someone.. sleep properly ya.. take good care.. study smart.....

your slightest touch and i feel weak
let me long for your kiss
i cant deny this love and feeling
and if there is no tomorrow
and all we have is here and now
i am happy just to have you
you are all the love i need somehow
its like a dream
although i am not asleep
and i never want to wake up
and i dont want to love without you
i dont even want to try

i rather DIE!!!

2008-08-19T23:57:00.001+08:00

hi.. hope everyone is okie.. have a good holidays ya.. i am not okie.. no mood.. feeling like shit.. no mood at all.. see ya.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. take care.. L... S.... take care.. hope u have a great day today.. nite nite... sweet dreams.. take good carez..

I MISS MY RAINBOW!
and did i mention this?
i LOVE it too! :)
L-O-V-E
L-OV-E
L-O-V-E
and sometimes
i feel
love is an understatement :)

no mood... i'm gonna die..

2008-08-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

hi.. how's everyone?? hope it's goood.. i am fine.. but okie la.. no mood la.. woke up and then sms and then start to no mood until now.. so today i not gonna blog so much.. sorry....

no mood. no life.. no fun... sorry... bye bye.. nites everyone.. linda.. someone. good nite.. sweet sweet dreams.. take good carez....

i am already missing you
missing your voice
missing the touch of your hand
missing the warmth of your hug
missing the refreshing moments
missing all those silly moments
i can never get enough of you
i will be missing you without knowing
wherever you go
you will always be with me
never too far away from my heart
you filled the emptiness in my heart
you are the light of my life

i am lost.... when u dun care for me!!!

2008-08-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

harloo... how r u?? :) good?? heheheh.. wat did u all do today?? hmm.. me..?? i woke up.. then go downstairs for breakfast.. then sit in front of tv and watch tv for a while. then shower and get dress to my daddy's collegue's wedding lunch.. it's situated at RAWANG!!! my gawd.. sooo farrr...

after shower.. get dress and then off we go.. in the car.. i sms linda.. then waited.... waited... then in the car i listen to music and sing along.. after 45 minutes to 1 hour.. reach that place and then we go eat... i reach there i stretch my body.. ahhaha.. after that.. when we reach that house.. i took rice and mutton and then started to eat.. hungry la.. lunch ma.. heheh.. after that.. i go take drinks for my daddy.. then i ate.. :)

after eating we all go home cause it's hot and no space for us to stay there for long.. so we all go back home... in the car.. i sms linda again.. then chit chat awhile.. then i waiteddd again... waited. then when i reach home.. i listen to music and waited.. waited till i fall asleep.. then i woke up at 5pm.. then i go online to find music.. then listen but not nice.. so delete.. then i still waiting..

after that.. around 8.48pm.. get ready to watch our malaysia badminton player.. LEE CHONG WEI vs LIN DAN... expected lin dan to win la.. but i still support lee chong wei.. my gawd.. lin dan is crazy la.. today he play like full power.. not tired.. like eat steroids already.. :) mad.. nvm la.. chong wei lost.. anyway.. U R GREAT... u DID YOUR BEST D!! :) u r stilll my hero... :)

after that.. watch CSI!!!.. while waiting for the bus... waited and waited.. then now i am here online.. blogging.. and then blogging.. and then at the same time waiting.... dun u noe everytime i wait for u.. i am sad? dun u noe everytime u dun talk to me i will die? shit.. why is this happening to me?? do u think i am mad?? or gonna die?

oh well.. i am here.. been no mood for the pass few days.. dun u realise it?? dun u noe i am down?? :S okie la.. wanna try to sleep.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite k? linda.. someone... may u have sweet sweet dreamss tonights.. nitesz.. sleep properly.. smile always.. and TAKE GOOD CAREZZ.....

It's so unbelievable
And i don't want to let it go
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now
I'm in love with you complete me

now and forever, i love u... :)

2008-08-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. today is saturday!! :) wat did u all do?? hehe.. i woke up and then print paper to study but didn't cause got no ink liao.. so i just study abit thru computer.. and then i go to have lunch at ss14..

then i go to srikl.. to see volleyball competition.. i reach there.. i saw my frens.. then sit there and chit chat.. then watch them play one match.. and then i got to go for exam d.. i went to asia b4 exam to eat with malvin.. and then i go exam.. go in around 4.50pm.. :) nervous la.. and scared.. but someone wish me so i did my very best.. :) so after that.. i came out at 7pm and then go back srikl to get my car.. and then i went back home..

reach home. shower.. and then i go to my grandma's place to eat dinner.. eat d.. i sms linda.. sms her and chit chat.. then suddenly....!!! i'm waiting..........

after that.. i listen to music.. then when i reach home.. i just on the tv and watch a bit of chinese show.. and continue with my music.. and then i am still waiting... when i online.. i saw linda online.. then chat awhile.. then....... i waited.....

now i am here.. blogging.. wanna rest as soon as linda sleep.. so ya.. erm.. until here la.. no mood la.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite... linda.. someone.. have sweetest dreams ya.. sleep tite.. have a great day tomorrow.. take carez!!

and i am missing you all the time
hoping that you are here with me
to laugh with me
to complain with me
to have silly moments together
to just spend time together
life is so dull without my colours in my life
i am really missing you badly
and yes
i love you best my rainbow
not because you will appear after the rain
or you are multi-coloured
but because you are the one and only rainbow
that i can ever find or have
that can so easily bring me
love
laughter
happiness
in the simplest way possible
i love you so :)

baby why would u hurt me so long???

2008-08-16T00:17:00.001+08:00

hey ya.. how's today?? today is fine.. but.. haih.. wait.. start from beginning.. so ya.. woke up at 7am.. get ready and go to srikl.. prepare for japanese exchange.. so reach there.. then see ppl preparing.. kinda late.. then suddenly everyone not there.. all still in class... so... again late.. then must shout at them and ask them get ready... then after that.. waited for VIP for 20 minutes.. =.=' after that..

they came.. so we all start to welcome them and then walk back to the store and plan wat to do and chit chat.. then wait till time come and we perform the next show.. then we all perform.. i thought it would be a great show.. but oh well.. tess do the things he like.. malvin draw until cannot see.. so ya.. wasted.. all the stupid plan didn't work.. u wanna noe why?? is because all their mind is not here.. all dunno go where.. so.. like that la.. sad rite?? hmm nvm la.. i guess they dunno how i feel... one day when they are in this kinda position.. i hope they noe how i feel.. they never think.. never even try to understand me.. oh.. nvm la.. dun care.. they dun wan change.. no point shouting at them.. so like that la..

after that.. went out to eat with malvin they all.. huixin wanna come cause she say she no body teman.. so she came along.. okie.. we eat at little taiwan.. then wat and chit chat.. and then now went back to srikl.. i change and then i started studying.. study and study.. then around 4.30pm.. i sms someone.. chit chat awhile.. and someone wish me luck.. and then off i go to the war..

exam tie. 5pm to 7pm.. :S so enter the hall.. waaa.. damn nervous.. then start.. open question paper.. omg.. so hard.. :S then started doing.. do and do and do.. waaaa.. finally at 6.30pm.. finish 3 and a half questions.. :S not very good.. but better than 1 question la.. so.. after that.. went eat.. while eating.. waaaa.. badminton started.. lee chong wei and lee hyun il.. waaaaaa.. nice game man.. and lee chong wei won.. 21-18, 13-21,21-13.. chun man.. he damn smart.. he gonna get gold or silver.. :)

ok.. after that.. went home.. then shower.. and then listen to music and then came down and watch tv.. before that i sms linda.. wait and wait.. :S :(

then dinner ready.. eat abit.. cause dun feel like eating.. then after that.. watch tv.. and then sms someone.. then chit chat awhile.. and then suddenly... the engine that i waited didn;t manage to start.. haih.. and i continue trying my best to wait.. the pain i am having is worst than anything ever.. :S :( okie.. after that came online to listen to music.. and then now i am blogging.. got to go soon la.. need to study for tomorrow paper.. last exam and then i gonna be like a piece of shit again.. wait and wait and wait for the person... :(

ok la.. gtg d.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss. sleep tite... linda.. someone... sweet sweet dreamss ya.. sleep properly.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE GOOD CARE!!!!!

i never thought this day would come
i never hoped for anything
till i met you
i never dreamed of anything
till i knew you
i never wanted someone this badly
till i held you
i never loved someone this much
till i kissed you
you are all i could ever asked for
you are all that i ever wanted
loving you
until the end of time

I NEED U TONIGHT GIRL!!!

2008-08-14T22:50:00.006+08:00

harlo.. how are u people?? hehe.. i am good.. woke up at 9am.. went and buy everything.. and then i go to srikl.. reach there 10am.. then start training.. start to train.. then make scroll.. then order mc d.. then eat then continue training..

after training.. went to the canteen to buy drinks.. hheheh. then after that rest awhile and i sms linda.. then i went bowling awhile.. then go home.. then i sms linda again.. then reach home. i shower.. and then i listen to music and fall asleep.. then woke up and study abit.. and then around7.45pm.. went to buy fruits with mummy.. that time i sms someone.. sms and chit chat awhile.. then until 8.50pm.. i waited and waited.. then i reach grandma's place and i eat.. ate ice cream oh.. hehhehe.. 2 bowls.. fat lor.. fat lorr.. cham cham...

after that... i reach home.. now i listening to music and online.. hehehe.. so ya.. like i said yesterday.. i gonna post malvin's picture.. SRIKL SUPERMAN!!!

taddaaa!!! hehehe.. okiee.. so now i'm gonna study for tomorrow's exam and see u guys tomorrow.. wish me luck ya.. :) nite nite.. sweet dreamss.. tata..

linda... someone.. sleep properly.. sweet sweeet dreamss ya.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CAREZ!!!!

i am just happy
you are here to hold my hand
all i want to do is stand close to you
be by your side
all I want to do is make the world revolve
around you and i
you are everything
i've never had
and baby
i got it bad

ENDLESS LOVE TO U!

2008-08-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. everyone doing goood?? hhehehe.. hope it's good.. oh.. so ya. today woke up and study abit.. bit i think i master the whole chapter d.. but u noe.. my exam on friday.. which cover 6 chapters and i only master 1 chapter.. hmm.. u noe wat that means?? means i gonna die.. oops!!! how? not enuf time d la.. omg.. haiha......

okie.. after that.. send my car to wash.. then go srikl.. cause today at 2pm got CO CO practise.. hmm. friday got performance for the japanese exchange.. :) lol.. so ya.. went in and get ready everything.. then go and make then train.. talk with teacher.. chit chat with they all and plan wat to do for friday performance. haih... worried la.. worried they fall down from table or chair.. :S ok.. after that.. i plan with yidan they all to make to scroll.. haih.. srikl say wanna provide scrool but didn't make.. so we have to make ourself... :S

okiee.. so after training... school end then went and walk to the toilet.. meet with juniors and chit chat awhile.. then go find back ken seng and malvin then we all go eat.. we all walking and we all deciding wat to eat.. then we start to 'lat' see who win and go eat at the place.. :) so actually.. syok win.. so we all go subway.. but ken seng play cheat.. then all go asia cafe lor.. reach there.. i order my food.. and then i start to sms linda.. sms her.. then chit chat.. after that.. i finish eating still smsing her.. then then walk back to srikl..

walking back then chit chat awhile.. and then i fetch seng and syok to pyramid cause they wanna take taxi from there.. lolz. ken seng dun wan actually.. but syok wan.. so syok told him his plan then ken seng dun like.. hehe.. but in the end he follow la.. reach there he ask me go bowling.. he siao liao.. :) hehee.. then after that.. walk them to the main entrance.. then they go and then i go ice skating ring there to see my fren competition.. i was smsing with someone that time.. sms and then suddenly i waiting for her reply.. wait and wait.. then i went back to my shop.. lepak awhile.. and then i went home.. reach home, shower and sleep..

i sleep only for 10 minutes.. after that.. woke up and study awhile.. then suddenly mom call me and ask me get ready cause wan to go out and eat dinner.. then get ready and went out for dinner.. sms someone.. chit chat awhile.. then after dinner.. i reach home and watch tv.. but no show to watch.. so while waiting for someone to reply.. i study. study and study.. lol.. master part of the chapter.. so ya.. 1 and a half chapter.. haih.. so slow la.. :S nvm la.. then after that.. around 5 minutes to 11pm. i sms linda.. wish her good nite.. then i continue with my studies awhile..

and now i am here.. blogging and listening to music.. hehehe.. lolz.. tomorrow there's training from 10 to school ends.. hope tomorrow can finish all the training and friday showtime.. :) hehehe
ok la.. so till tomorrow.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. take carezz.. oh next time i upload malvin's picture.. actually i dun wan upload.. but he take my phone and delete the picture.. this is wat happen when u dun fullfill wat u say malvin.. SORRY!!! i need to do this.. hahaha.. too bad... :P

linda.. someone.. nite nite.. sweet sweet dreamss ya.. sleep properly.. tata.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CARE YA!! :)

and if no one understands you
no one believes you
no one cares
it doesnt matter
cause no matter what
i will always be by your side
to understand you with the best i can
believe you
and care for you with all my heart and soul
cause you are my precious girl
you are who you are
and i love you for who you are
no matter what people thinks or says
you will always be my brightest diamond
so extraordinary in your own ways
and i still cant believe i met you
to have you beside me
to share my life
to share your life
to share our lives
to share our dream
a dream of just
you and me

i don't wanna live without your LOVE!!

2008-08-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

harlo... today did nothing special la.. same same.. hahaha.. wan to print notes.. but no paper.. haihs... so i use recycle paper... and finally i print all.. u noe waT? i realize i print wrong chapter.. omg.. wasted all the recycle paper.. :S how's everyone today?? good? heheh.. hmm.. hope it's great..

so after that.. went to pyramid.. go play bowling.. then then around 2pm.. i reach srikl.. went had lunch.. then go and meet with frens.. yap liang and pearly.. hehehe.. chit chat.. then sms someone.. chit chat awhile.. and then i am suddenly waiting.. waiting and waiting.. waiting for............. and then lepak awhile until i pass the thing to ken seng.. then i go home.. :) hehehe

reach home.. shower and then get ready to go to the temple.. continue the ceremony.. and then now i am at home.. today there were less ppl.. so not so crowded and hot.. then i sms someone again.. then i waited... without fail, with my music and waited.................... sms skip skip.. after that.. i realise my good cousin didn't come.. always bully me wan.. :S she not here then i feel bored.. she here always bully me.. :S haihz.. then then i just listen to music the whole 4 hours.. nothing to do d ma.. yesterday fold all the things d.. then today just sit down lorr... then i sms someone..............................

so that's why now i am at home.. going shower soon.. hehe.. but i came online to blog first.. :) now i am listening to music.. going shower la.. hot and smelly.. lolz.. so see u all tomorrow.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite..

someone.. linda.. nite nite.. sweeeet sweeet dreamsss ya.. sleep well oh.. HAVE A NICE DAY TOMORROW... TAKE CARREZZZ..

and can you hear my whispers to you in the night?
those whispers of love
those whispers of me missing you
and it is with you
when i feel so at ease
so related
i can be myself
that silly boy
that smart boy
that boy who has a dream of YOU
and with you
i have my happiest memories
those moments that i want to freeze in time
those moments that i hope will never end
those silly moments that belonged to us
and i am contented
i cant ask for anything more
cause of you
i found my source of inner happiness
only you can make me smile the way i do
the brightest i can ever have
only you can make me so silly
only you can make me giggle so much
only you can make me love someone so much
only you can make me smart so smartly
only you
i love you

i wanna love you FOREVER!!!

2008-08-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

hi everyone.. how are u doing?? :) hjehehehe.. good?? how's school?? hahhaha.. me no class.. hehhhehe.. cause finals coming.. so no class lor.. study at homee.. study for 1 hour plus.. lucky got important points went into my head... :) after that.. went to srikl.. hehehe...

reach there.. meet two younger sisters of tee and chiew.. then chit chat awhile.. then go to secondary canteen to meet with malvin they all.. reach there.. nobody there.. only yap liang. then walk around and saw huixin with the guitar.. then went and ask her about her guitar that se selling.. then she ask me to play song.. i play a song.. but she couldn't hear wat song i play.. heheh.. nvm.. :) after that.. saw malvin's hand.. bleeding.. hahaha.. he crazy la.. so dun wan talk about him.. wanna show off i guess.. lolz.. after that.. we all went to asia cafe to eat.. while waiting for food..

i sms linda.. sms and chit chat.. then told linda i will give her my braveness.. so she won't so scared.. then suddenly...... i waiting for linda's reply.. wait and wait.. then i reach pyramid.. then i go to gym today.. went awhile.. then i got to go home.. need to be back home early cause i need to go to the cemetry cause my grandpa pass away.. :S i'm so sad.. but i haave to understand.. he's far from my eyes but near to my heart.. :S stay happy always grandpa.. i will always remember u.. :) i reach there.. then i started to fold the paper.. fold to like gold.. then burn for him.. i fold four bags.. four big bags.. until my finger blister.. but i still need to do la.. it's for him... when around 10.. i sms someone.. sms and chit chat awhile.. then someone wanna rest d.. so didn't disturb her.. :) then continue folding the paper...

after that.. fold and fold and fold.. then around 12am.. i came back home lorr.. shower again.. then now i online.. hehe.. blogging.. now i listening to music.. and gonna sleep d.. very tired... so till then.. see u tomorrow okie?? nite nite.. sweeet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well... linda.. someone.. have sweet sweet dreamss okiee? sleep properly ya.. :) have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CARE!!!! :)

and looking at my reflection
who is that girl i see?
am i really who i think i am?
or
am i being someone who i am not?
and for this
i have no absolute answer
all i know
is to remain true to myself
to stay true
before i lose myself in this mesh of insanity

i'm lost without YOU~!!!!!!!

2008-08-10T22:05:00.002+08:00

hey ya... everyone having fun?? :) hmmmm me okie.. hehehe.. woke up at 9am.. then went jogging.. came back around 11.20.. then go shower and then i sms linda... after that.. went downstairs and switch on the com to listen to music..

then online and look for music.. hehe.. couldn't find ler.. haih.. then ate 'wat tan hor' for lunch.. u all noe wat is that??:) then after that.. watch olympic.. volleyball men.. venezuela vs USA..... wow.. chun man.. hehehe.. they all so talll.. :) then forth set i sleep liao.. cause i tired after jogging.. :) then woke up at 4.30.. then go shower and go to pyramid to play bowling.. :) i was waiting for someone's sms... wait and wait.. then i when i reach pyramid, i told someone i going bowling first.. then later sms her.. then after bowling.. i sms someone.. chit chat.. then aroudn 8.30pm.. daddy come fetch me and go for dinner.. after dinner.. immediately go to hospital to visit my grandpa..

he's still in the same condition.. doctor say see tomorrow how he's doing.. see whether tomorrow he can breath without the machine help.. if cannot then see wat to do.. :S i really really sad.. i wish he's alive and everyday scold me also not like now.. just lie down there and do nothing.. :S i really rather he keep disturb me and make me angry also i dun wan like he got no reaction.. :S haih.. wat can i do?? :( please god..:S

then after that went back home.. cause my parents working tomorrow.. so went home early.. in the car i sms linda.. then chit chat.. waiting for he reply.. keep waiting... and still waiting.. then now i online and blog first. scared later i feel sleepy then i can straight go sleep.. now listening to music at the same time waiting for her.. and blogging...

so today this is wat happen lorr.. boring rite? i cannot go shopping and all.. :S so sad.. haih.. oh well.. that's all for now peepsz.. see u.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss. sleep tite.. linda.. someone.. have a great day tomorrow ya.. please stay happy and sleep properly... :) TAKE GOOD CAREZZ...

i wanna see the sun rise
on your face
i wanna see the sun set
with you
i wanna be with you
throughout the day
i wanna drift with you
into the night
if not i'll be lost :(

can u feel my heart??

2008-08-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

harlo... how is today?? hahaha.. nice or not yesterday the opening ceremony?? coold huh?? ok.. so woke up at 8 something today.. help mom abit.. then lie down on the sofa.. nothing to do.. listen to music and watching tv.. suddenly i fell asleep.. before that i was smsing someone.. :)

so after that around 5pm i woke up... then i shower and get ready to bowling.. after shower.. while waiting for my dad.. i sms someone again... chit chat awhile.. then i waited.. :( after that.. when i reach pyramid.. i went to bowl.. bowl 1 hour pluss.. then finish i sms linda.. then waited for her reply.. then i wait for daddy and come and pick me up.. then i go to eat dinner.. i am stil waiting.... waiting for reply.. :S but oh well..

then i went to the hospital again.. to see my grandpa.. he's okie... but same like yesterday la.. i talk to him he got no reaction.. not smiling at me or talk to me.. :S i miss those days when he smile and talk to me.. i talk to him and he talk to me.. i miss it.. i really miss it.. i wish i can change it.. i wish i can talk to him like last time.. i wanna talk to him as often as i can... i really feel so sad when i see him lying on the bed and all the tubes on him.. :S no matter how or wat happen. u are still my wonderful grandpa... YOU ARE THE BEST...

after awhile, we gotta go home.. so we all leave te hospital and when i'm in the car.. i sms someone.. then i listen to music.. hoping and waiting.. but....

now i am home.. online while listening to music.. online.. and wait.. while waiting i wrote something on paper.. then now i still waiting.. but i need to go off soon.. need to sleep.. so till then.. nite nite people.. sweet dreamss.. sleep tite.. take good care ya.. oh.. sorrry if my post is boring today!!!.. i'm so sorry... sorry cause i am emoing.. so sorry..

well.. okiee.. linda... someone.. have sweet sweet dreams tonight ya.. sleep tite.. sleep properly k? take good carezz....

and say it isnt so
tell me you are not leaving
that you have changed your mind now
and i am only dreaming
this is not goodbye
this is starting over
if you want to know
i dont want to let go
but what if i tell you now
that i am leaving?
you may think that i am not leaving
but in fact
i am slowly letting go
instead of moving forward with you
i am moving back step by step
and i am holding your hand
as tight as possible
or perhaps
tighter than i ever could
because i want to remember that special feeling
of holding your hand
when i am not by your side
and i am hugging you as often as i can
to remember the warmth of your body next to mine
and i am leaning on your chest for as long as possible
to remember the sound of your heartbeat
that beat at the same pace like mine
when we are together
and i am cherishing every single moment i get
to remember how it feels to be loving you
every single second
moment
of my life
a life that is so meaningful
because i met you

i love u... please open your heart..

2008-08-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how's everybody today?? got make wish?? got got??? i got.. hehehe.. secret.. cannot tell u.. :P hehehe.. my wish is about.. muahahhahaha.. cannot tell.. u wan to noe?? we exchange secret lor okie?? :P

hmm so wat u all did today?? me woke up at 10.. then study till 11.30.. well i studied and only 1 part of the chapter went into my brain.. and store it in the short term memory.. i guess tomorrow when i wake up i sure forget.. :S how how?? who can give me some study tactics?? oh no... well.. okie la.. forget it.. then i went to srikl meet with them and go for lunch.. after that.. i sms linda.. sms her and chit chat lorr.. after that we walk malvin to the bank to take money cause he owe us alot of money.. so after taking money.. walk back to srikl.. then malvin go to swimming.. and syok and me and kean lepak at the class.. nothing to do so we all listen to music and i continue sms linda.. but i think linda busy.. and maybe linda is not happy today.. :S

then after awhile my mom call me.. then ask me to go home earlier cause need to go to the hospitall... :( to see my grandpa.. he's very ill.. so after that.. around 5pm i reach home.. shower and rest awhile.. fall asleep.. and then suddenly i have to leave to house d.. so we leave the house at 6.40pm.. then straight to UH.. on the way there, i'm quiet.. cause i got no mood.. :S so when we reach there.. went to meet with my cousin then to see her dad which is my grandpa..

she look so down and pale.. cause 2 days didn't sleep and i guess she cried alot.. :S so reach there.. follow my dad go in to the room.. see my grandpa.. tears coming out from my eyes... i see him i dunno wat to say... normally i talk alot to himm... but today, tears came out and i dunno wat to say.. i just call his name.. and i see him struggling to breath.. then i see him so san fu.. talk to him he no reaction.. doctor said he's unofficially gone.. (passed away).. his heart beat is there but his lungs are not functioning.. means that he cannot breath anymore.. that time.. my heart just feel so pain.. tears came down abit and i try to tahan dun wan let it come out.. the grandpa who so sayang me.. the grandpa who always care for me.. the grandpa who always scold me.. the grandpa who is sometimes funny.. where is him??> i wan him back.. i wan him back.. just now when i talk to him.. he got no reaction.. i'm like talking to the wall.. :( i really wan him back.. u noe i see him not answering me.. i feel so sad.. first time in my life he doing this to me.. not answering me.. :S he's gone.. left his heart beat here.. i really regret wat i have done to him last time.. i shouted at him when he scolded me.. always.. now if i have another chance. i won't do that.. losing u is like losing my happy moments.. grandpa.. i noe i can never change this FATE.. maybe god want u to go... i cannot ask god to give u back to me.. it's not fair.. and i think u have suffer enuf b4 leaving me and us.. all i can do is i pray that u will be happy when u are not here.. happy when u are at 'there'.. and whatever u need.. just come to my dream and let me noe.. i'll safe money and buy for u and burn it to u.. anything i would do for u... i really glad that u are my grandpa.. the most wonderful grandpa i ever have.. thanks for being there for me.. and thanks for always care for me.. thanks for making me the perfect one... thank u so much grandpa.. I LOVE U grandpa... i will always remember u.. althought u are far far far away from us and me.. but your absense will always remain near my heart..

okie.... after that.. i sms someone.. chit chat awhile only.. then guess someone busy liao.. waited and waited and waited.. then around 10.30pm.. send good nite message.. then i online and listen to music and think back all the wonderful memories i have with my grandpa.. then now i blogg.. and i try to sleep tonight.. well.. nite nite everyone.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. have a nice day tomorrow..

linda.. someone... have the sweetest dream k?? sleep well.. and sleep properly ya.. TAKE GOOD CAREZZ ......

and i am haunted by the vastness of eternity
would i remember how bravely we fought
how fiercely we loved?
my heart is crippled by the vein that i tried to close
but you cut me open
and i keep bleeding love
i am trying hard not to hear
but their piercing sounds fill my ears
and they filled it with doubts

can u let me love u??

2008-08-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how r u people?? heheh.. good?? been waiting for the olimpic games?? lol... or no?? busy with own stuffs?huh?? lolz.. hmm.. me okie.. as i mention yesterday.. no class already cause it's nearing my finals.. :S haih.. haven been studying much.. i did try to study but cannot remember.. :S

okie skip skip.. tomorrow is 08/08/08.. it's a day that will happen once in your life.. so tomorrow when u guys watch olimpic opening ceremony or at 08/08/08 at 8:08:08pm.. make a wish okiee?? :) remember.. this day only come once in your life.. :) hehehe..

so today did nothing.. just stay at home study from 10am to 12pm.. then shower and everything.. then go to have lunch.. then waited in the car cause rain from 1 something till 4 something.. around 3.30pm.. i run down to srikl to meet with malvin and frens.. then they all wanna go out eat.. so today.. we did something extra b4 we eat.. we ran all the way to the restaurant.. the salmon steak.. so basically, we burn 200 to 500 calories.. and when we reach there, we ate.. u noe we ate 800 calories?? lolz.. we put on weight la.. :P but never mind.. after eating we ran back to srikl.. so we burn 200 to 500 calories again.. that's fair la.. so no gain weight.. hahaha..

after that.. malvin went and play volleyball.. u guys noe wat happen?? he play basketball until his pants 'pao thai' meaning got hole.. cause he try to dig... so he squad.. then his pants.. brackkk!!!! got big hole behind his ass.. lucky no ppl at that time.. if not malvin dunno wanna hide where.. lolz.. that time i went to pyramid d. got someone tell me la.. lolz.. then at pyramid.. went bowling awhile.. then went to gym.. my coach wan us go gym.. when i try to use the machine at the gym, i felt pain.. so i told my coach my muscle pain.. then he say okie.. u do arm training only.. :) that time i i sms linda.. sms and chit chat.. then suddenly no reply.. then i told linda i sms her later.. :)

after that.. around 7pm i reach home.. i go shower and pack my things for tomorrow.. then i went downstairs and listen to music.. then i sms someone.. sms and sms.. hehe.. then my dinner not ready.. so i continue with my music and sms.. then my dinner ready.. so i go eat.. after eating i still sms with someone la.. sms and sms until someone sleep.. then i sms linda to say good nite..

then now i still listening to music and now blogging.. hehee.. going off soon la.. feeling tired la.. :) well.. that's all that happen today.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. :)

someone.. linda... nite nite.. sweet dreams k? sleep properly ar.. hope u feel better tomorrow okie?? have a nice day tomorrow ya.. TAKE GOOD CARE.. may angels be with u tonight.. :)

when i am with you
i let everything slide
nothing else is on my mind
but that moment in time
that moment that belonged to us
and only us
it is that unexplained hunger and thirst
i'm missing u already...

feelings fading away!!!

2008-08-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

harloo.. everyone's fine?? hmm.. hope it's good. ehhehe.. today my day okie la.. no class today cause due to final exam.. so class all finish d.. so ya.. woke up at 9am.. then ate breakfast abit.. then started studying awhile.. study and study..

lol.. guess wat?? nothing went into my head.. study for 1 hour 30 minutes.. nothing went inside my head.. how?? haih.. then went to lunch at srikll.. eat some food then get ready for koko.. as usual la.. ko ko time teach lion dance.. then discuss wat to do on nukata.. then plan and everything.. lol..

then after ko ko.. we all walk to where kean yong and malvin sitting.. then out of sudden.. malvin SHOOT ME with the bottle.. crazy aR?? damn pain la.. and today.. malvin extremely high.. dunno why.. maybe sthephanie talk to him or something.. but basically.. he's hyper active today.. heheh.. after that.. walk with kean yong and syok to toilet.. cause they wanna 'shhh shhh'.. then walk to the new building toilet.. then syok and malvin and kean yong and another guy started to look at pretty girl.. got one girl that the guy like it seems.. then started la.. malvin wanna act tai ko.. go talk but dun dare.. then syok go wave at the girl.. the girl smile.. syok so happy..:(

wtf man.. syok.. haih.. nothing to say.. then we all went down and then get ready to go eat.. we all went subway againn.. hehehe. walk there and then when we reach there.... kean yong's brother came.. then kean yong didn't eat with us.. so 3 of us order food...

this is wat happen.. 3 of us laugh till stomach pain..

malvin syok and worker.....

is this beef??

ya it is..

oh shit.. i cannot eat beef..

owh.. then u have to change your order sir...

erm.. erm.. erm.. wat to eat??

follow me.. subway melt... easy.

ok ok.. subway melt.

subway melt is also beef sir..

harrr?? beeff???

laugh...

oh shit.. yesterday i eat.. no wonder got one time i bite the meat like cannot break la..

laugh laugh..

damn funny.. i tell u face to face better la i think.. hehehe.. then then waited there till syok go home.. then me and malvin walk back.. that time i sms linda.. then he ask me go where.. i say go pyramid.. then he say.. 'pyramid lei ge tou'. then i keep quiet.. then he explain.. pyra is a guys name.. mid = tear ( in cantonese).. lei ge tou is your head (in cantonese).. at first i was blurrr.. then only i understand wat he was saying.. then i started laughing.. stupid la.. malvin hyper active man. guess stephanie say i love u to him la.. :)

then i went to pyramid.. lepak at my shop awhile.. then go bowling.. after bowling i sms someone.. then chit chat with someone awhile. then someone wan to do homework d.. then i need to do some revision also.. told someone that i will sms her after my dinner.. then i study.. after dinner... i sms someone

chit chat and then sleeping time.. so let her sleep.. then told someone that my feeling is fading.. :s haih.. sad hor?? oh well..

then now i am here.. wanna sleep soon la.. tireeddd d.. wanna end my day la.. feel so san fu but have to face it la.. since she got no feelings for me.. i dun wanna waste my time liao.. :S oh well.. nvm la.. so erm.. i will listen to music and then sleep la.. ehehe.. so till then.. see u guys tomorrow ya.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a nice day tomorrow.. :)

someone... linda.... have a great day ya.. hehe.. have nice nice dreams oh!!! TAKE CAREZZ!!! :)

sensitivity is the starting point of worsening any relationship
the starting point
the end point
has it come for us?
cause sometimes
the truth is in front of us
but we dont see it thats all
we chose to be deluded
by what we perceive it to be
by what we choose to believe
darn the truth
darn it
cause the truth hurts at times
and we cant deal with it
we chose not to face the truth
its judgement day
bye bye love.. i am going away..!!

please give me your heart..!!

2008-08-05T21:30:00.002+08:00

harloo... how r u people..?? fine?? not fine?? sick?? hahhaha.. i'm fine.. hope u all are fine too.. :) so today woke up early.. send my mom to work cause my daddy's car still haven fix yet.. so i need to send lu... drove down to PJ.. then came back home.. :)

when i reach home.. i eat my bread and then watch tv.. nothing much on tv.. so just flipping thru the channel.. :) then then i go shower and get ready to go out.. go to college.. meeting with the sports department manager again.. she keep asking me to go.. lolz.. i dun wan la.. lazy la.. :P i told her that.. then around 1pm.. had lunch.. i eat chicken rice.. then around 3pm.. i reach srikl...

meet with ken seng and syok and malvin they all.. then syok say later go subway makan.. then right after school.. we all go subway.. :) i ate.. and thanks syok.. for spending me.. then then we see syok sister and syok's puppy.. shit zhu.. lolz.. so small.. :) then then we all walk back to srikl.. then they play basketball.. then i rest awhile and then i went to pyramid.. at that time i sms linda.. then waited for linda's sms.. reach pyramid.. i bowl.. then around 6pm, i finish bowling i sms someone.. then chit chat with someone.. then i reach home around 6.30pm.. then went shower and online to listen to music.. hehehe.. still smsing someone.. then around 8.30pm.. i ahd my dinner.. today dinner is rice, sotong, vege and mushroom.. heheh..

after dinner.. sit in front of tv.. wanna watch tong sum fung bou.. but daddy wanna watch other show.. so no chance lu.. :s so sad.. then i continue chatting with someone.. chat chat chat.. then now i nothing to do.. so i online and blog.. listen to music and blog.. :) heheh.. so that's what happen today la.. so boring rite?? :S hmm.. one of my fren ask me to buy her a handphone.. she pay me.. of course can la..

so okiee.. tomorrow or something i buy la.. :) if got stock.. if dun have must wait for the stock.. hhehe.. oh.. feeling sleepy d la.. wanna sleep soon.. well.. till then.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss ya.. sleep tite oh.. have a nice day tomorrow.. :) linda.. have a sweet dreams k? sleep well.. have a wonderful day tomorrow k?? take carezz :)

Don't let our last kiss be our last
Give me tonight, and I'll show you
I know everything changes
I don't care where it takes us
cause I know how I feel about you
Not a day passed me by
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on
'cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you
i am not missing you
who am i trying to bluff?
i miss you to the bits and the pieces
i love to have you as my planner
to have you to set me on track
when i go missing
or lose sight of my goals
i love it when you turn me back into a angel
when i feel devilish :)

guess i dun need u anymore.. i need HER.!!!

2008-08-04T23:10:00.002+08:00

hey peepsz.. how are u guys?? and girls.. :) hehehe.. how is today?? fun? boring? my day was okie.. nothing special la.. lol.. went to class.. heheh.. b4 class at 2.. went for meeting at 10am... the sports department manager wanna talk to me.. :S

so i reach at 10am.. she talk to me about sending me to beijing to watch.. hhahaha.. so ya.. i dun wanna go cause i dun wanna waste money la.. i noe it's not wasting money but i dun wan.. cause some people.. and someone.. :) so.. after that.. ahd lunch.. had bread for lunch.. ate slowly slowly.. hehhe. someone.. linda.. will noe why.. hehehe..:) then after that.. go for class.. then in class.. lecturer gave me tips for finals exam.. haha.. she's so nice.. but she didn;t give direct tips la.. just say where to study and all.. :S so bad huh?? so now.. is she bad or good?? oh well.. which ever it is.. hope she can help me after my finals.. that is when she mark my paper. lolz

after that.. went to srikl.. meet with malvin.. hahha.. then we go eat.. he owe me RM10... cause he got no money to eat.. then i sms linda.. then chit chat... hahhaa.. then then see malvin play football awhile.. he damn cacat la.. he play football like wrong way of balancing himself.. lolz.. then then he play volleyball.. hahha.. when playing volleyball.. his swimming coach came out.. he run an hide behind the treess.. lolz.. then someone not free.. so i told her to reply later.. he thought his coach cannot see.. but actually.. see him since he playing football.. damn funny.. he like playing hide and seek with his swimming coach.. hahaha.. and then i went to pyramid...

reach there.. walk to my shop to see how is it.. then walk to the gym cause today is gym day.. hahhaha.. no training but gym day training.. sad sad.. tiring.. after gym.. i sms someone.. then chit chat awhile.. then around 7pm.. i go home.. reach home, shower and then i watch tv.. while watching tv.. i fell asleep awhile.. from 7.45pm to 8.30pm.. hehe.. sorry la.. tired ma.. :) hehehe... then my dad came back and we went out to eat.. eat bak kut teh... then came home help my dad to pack things.. then i sms someone.. chit chat until she sleeps.. and now i am her online.. blogging lorr. hehehe..

going sleep d la.. linda ask me sleep early just now.. so i must listen.. :) okie la.. nite nite.. sweet dreams people.. sleep tite.. sleep well ok? hehehe.. tata.. linda.. someone.. may angels be with u to keep u warmth... heheh. TAKE CAREZZ!!!!

If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that its ok?
Would you stand by me
let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time?
If I feel good
would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care?
Would you die for me?
Would you run with me
And never look back?
Would you be there to love
to be with me?
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love
If I am away
would you still think of me
And wished that you could hold me now?
All the way?
Would you be there to love
to be with me?
to take my breath away?
To kiss my pain away?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there
To kiss my pain away?Would you be there
for me?

Will U tell ME that U LOVE ME too??

2008-08-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how's everyone today?... my day is bad.. :( woke up in the morning. then drank tea.. after that.. rest awhile while watching tv.. then around 11 something 12pm.. dad say wanna go his fren's house.. cause got wedding lunch.. so we all dress up and go.. while on the way there.. after the klang toll.. my dad's car break down.. we have to push it to the side..

then waited for 1 hour pluss for that tow truck to come and tow my dad's car to the workshop.. omg.. waited there and sweating cause it's so so so hot.. :s oh well.. never mind.. then after that.. call my cousin sister to come and pick us up.. in the end we didn't go for the wedding lunch cause we are very late.. so we went eat KFC.. :) u all noe wat is KFC?? hahah.. yes.. it's kentucky fried chicken.. u noe wat KFC serves?? hahhaa.. who can tell me??

lolz.. sure no one.. haha.. KFC serves kitchen fresh chicken.. KFC serves KFC.. hahahha.. funny huh?? so after that.. went home.. reach home i sleep awhile.. then 4pm wake up, shower and go pyramid.. heheh.. went bowling.. from 6 to 8pm.. today bowling training was tiring la :S after that.. i go to my shop.. then i sms linda.. then chit chat with someone awhile.. then i reach home and had dinner..

then i wash plates and then continue sms someone.. then chit chat.. linda ask me sleep early tonight.. so i must sleeep early.. :) still chit chat.. then now i am here online and listen to music..going sleep d.. that's why i blog so early today.. heheheh.. well.. that's all for today ya.. have a nice day tomorrow.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite..

someone.. linda... may u have sweetest dreams ya.. dun scared okie?? :) tata.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CAREZZZ!!! bb.. :)

cause i am loving you with a heart of fire red
cause i am missing you every second
cause i am thinking of you all the time
cause i am your one and only
cause i want to come back home
its killing me to be so far away
cause i am yours forever
i can sense longing in the air
i can sense love in the air
i can almost hear you calling out my name
i could run to your side now
run with all i have
just for a moment
to be with you
just a moment
will do
i will appreciate that
hug me tight today
it may be our last for all you know
kiss me lots today
for it will be some time
before i feel your lips on mine once more
i never knew i can be so contented
with just a hug from you
from a smile from you
to have you by my side
this is happiness
happiness in its simplest form
it came in the form of
YOU :)

forever i will love u!!!

2008-08-03T01:57:00.002+08:00

hey everyone.. everything's okie?? .. those who fall sick.. got feeling better?? huh?? got?? got?? hmm.. hope those who fall sick feel better.. :) okiee.. so today i woke up late.. around 10am.. hehehe.. late rite?? so i was awake by malvin's call.. he call me then ask me whether i'm free on next week or not.. i actually not free la.. cause finals coming up.. so can die.. :S haih.. well.. after that.. try to sleep again but i couldn't.. then i brush teeth and went downstairs.. had milo.. then sit on the sofa and listen to music... :)

after that.. around 11 something.. i get ready to go to pyramid.. when i was on the way there.. i sms linda. sms and chat chat.. then reach there had bowling awhile.. own training la.. after that sms penny cause she say she going pyramid.. :S she say she wan kill me if see me.. :S see.. so evil.. always kill kill.. no good.. no good.. but if u wan kill me then kill only lorr.. i won't stop u.. :)

after that.. go work awhile.. around 2pm.. i have lunch and then around 4 something i went home.. went home shower and then rest.. then about 6pm.. i go back to pyramid.. hehehe.. :) linda noe why i go there. :) sms linda and chit chat.. chit chat till 7pm.. linda got to go eat dinner.. so i dun disturb her.. then aroiund 8pm i went back home and lie on my bed and listen to music.. heheh.. and then around 8.45pm.. had my dinner.. it's fried mee hoon today.. ate and then i go online listen to music.. :) then sms someone.. sms and chit chat awhile.. then someone sleep d.. :)

after that.. i continue with my music.. so many emo songs suit me.. haih.. losing someone who u sacrifies alot for is the deepest cut.. yet i dunno how to be angry at her.. then i am now here.. blogging.. blog blog.. cause i'm sure got loyal fans who read it.. :) u noe who u are ya.. :;)

now i am going to sleep d... tomorrow see wat time i wake up.. oh ya.. b4 that.. malvin is currently in a very very happy mood and high mood.. just like after eating ecstacy pills.. and he nearly die from lost of bloood.. the amount of blood he lose due to looking at sexy girls at a prom today.. he hamsap.. :P hahaha.. just kidding.. he say his nose bleeding.. i mean almost bleed.. so hamsap or not?? u all say.. i dun wan say.. :) hahahhheheheh :) oh well.. okie people.. nite nite.. sweet dreamss.. sleep tite.. sleep well ya.. linda... someone... elmo.. sweeeett dreamssss... GET WELL SOON ya.. TAKE GOOD CAREE!!!!!!

you keep on running in and out of my mind
as the years roll by
SOMEONE
now I know why
and its not hard to know why
I keep coming back to you
you are the only one that knows me
love it when you hold me
never find a love like this
let me hear you say now
i will never be lonely
look at what you have shown me
never find a love like this
well this life tried to keep us apart
you keep calling me back to your heart
let me hear you say
are you not glad you found me
wrap you all around me
never find a love like this
you are the one who saved me
I feel like I owe you my life
and as strange as it may seem
i will go
if you take me home
i have been conditioned to not make mistakes
but i cant live that way
you are the best mistake i ever made
and i have no regrets
i am willing to be wrong all my life
because of a love like this
its the love like this
cause i know
how i feel about you now

can u please tell me u love me???

2008-08-02T02:07:00.002+08:00

harlo.. everyone doing good?? hmm.. heard that many ppl falling sick... :( haih.. i just recovered only.. :S so ya... today went to class then lepak around college and then went to srikl.. lolz..

went to srikl.. syok wanna talk to me... then when we settle down.. we talk.. really talk.. and i mean big talk.. and it's like everyone is watching... so ya.. big talk la.. not chat.. it's really talk.. some ppl who dunno might say it's argue.. oh ya.. so ya.. we talk everything out..

now u noe why i am doing that to u?? syok.. u need to think further la.. seriously.. i am not mad today okie?? i still treating u as my frens.. and i'm sorry for being so stupid.. i will try to find that bastard out.. the one who lie to me.. sorry.. i can only say sorry cause i'm also a victim.. cause of me that being so careless.. i forgot that bastard cheated me.. FUK HIM!!! sorry.. sorry everyone for the vulgar words.. okie.. so.. syok.. no heart feelings okie?? some problems i really cannot tell.. if i can tell.. i'll definately tell u with no doubt..

okie.. skip skip.. then we went to pyramid together.. reach there;.. they change and everything.. then went sushi king meet with kean yong and hong yi.. then chit chat a while.. then ken seng dun wanna watch movie.. he ask me accompany him play bowling.. actually i wan to watch la.. but then.. if i watch then ken seng will be alone.. so.. i just sacrifies la.. next time i watch with u all la.. :S haih.. so ya.. went bowling and we play.. when we started playing only.. ken seng injured his hand.. dunno why.. but i think is because he didn't warm up.. so like that lor.. hehh.. after that.. try to continue.. but he didn't play seriously la.. cause hadn injured ma.. after bowling went to walk around and wait for malvin they all to come out.. heheh.. they came out and we follow them behind cause they didn't see u.. so we suprise them.. nah.. kinda suprise them la..

then we all went back to bowling.. lolz.. this time ken seng cannot play.. so sad.. nvm la.. next time la okie??. then we all play la.. playing half way.. left syok, malvin, kean yong me and hong yi only.. so sad rite?? see la.. they dump us la.. dun fren them ok??? heheh.. after that we plan to go home.. but suddenly han yean and kar yee came.. is it how to spell her name.. then then she ask us go take picture.. oh my.. i am lost.. lost in front of the camera.. i dunno how to smile la.. :S haih.. then i sms someone... linda not free.. so i told her i sms her later.. :) then after that.. syok and malvin wanna go home.. so i acccompany them to the taxi stand and then i walk yidan back to where hong yi and kar yee is.. cause yi day accompany han yean to the entrance.. so meet her there.. then accompany yidan back to hong yi and kar yee there.. then i go home.. hehe

then then reach home shower and then watch tv.. suddenly my phone ring.. :) u noe who?? malvin la.. malvin call me.. ask me how much is the shirts at G2000.. waaa.. malvin wan go buy oh.. hehe.. sorry la malvin.. i really dunnol... :) so i just guess.. around rm400 gua.. not very sure.. sorry.. hehheheh.. after that.. continue watching tv.. watch the show.. dunno wat title.. but nice.. about this girl who dress like a guy to get to noe the leng zai.. hahaha.. funny.. but sad.. :S so.. after that.. went online and listen to music.. music music.. then had dinner.. then i continue with music.. and then i think about someone.. then i sms linda again.. chat a whie.. then then linda sleep d.. so.. wish her good nite lu.. then i listen to music and chatting. then i watch tv..

after that.. now i am here.. blogging.. hahahah.. so ya.. now i finish blogging d.. wanna sleep d.. lolz.. okiee.. so nite nite everyone.. sweet dreamss. sleep tite ya.. :) ahheheh.. oh.. linda, someone... have sweeet sweet dreams k? sleep tite.. :) TAKE GOOD CAREZ!!! :)

cause we have come to the end
there is nothing much to say
let me go
let me live alone
loosen your grip on my hand
the promises made then
dont ask for them anymore
previously
our loneliness has become
a fiery love
that burnt us to ashes
but now
silence above silence
is still silence between us
there is nothing much left
for us to be reluctant
its time to let go
there will be no ending
so what do we still continue giving in?
i am letting you go
to let you live once more
cause you know
the end has come for us

will u travel to road with me?? i wan u!!

2008-08-01T01:20:00.003+08:00

hey ya.. everyone okie?? lolz.. hmm.. guess shud be okie ba.. hehe.. so ya.. i wen to class today.. today did my marketing test.. test 2 btw.. so ya.. went in sit down.. wanna sleep but cannot cause test.. need to do revision.. 8am in the morning got test.. wat la.. so ya.. i did. and i score 17/20.. shit... stupid 3 mistake.. make me cannot get full mark.. haih.. anyway.. got the highest in class.. hahahha.. chun leh??

so ya.. after that.. went back home.. to boil leong sui.. :) hehehe.. then keep it in the fridge.. around 1pm bring to srikl and put it in their fridge.. after that around 3 something only take it out.. give to huixin.. she wanted it.. ok.. so after that.. went eat alone.. hahahha.. cause kean yong go home d.. so i went eat alone.. b4 i go eat.. i saw someone.. someone sitting in the canteen oh.. :)

after eating.. i came back.. saw malvin and ken seng playing basketball.. lolz.. after that.. ken seng go home.. say bye to him.. then see malvin play basketball.. so funny la.. but at least better than me.. i dunno how to play one.. sad hor?? who can teach me?? :) after that saw malvin's 'lou po', then i faster go away.. (malvin will noe who):P

after that.. went to pyramid.. play bowling and then go work.. after bowling linda sms me.. someone sms me.. then chit chat.. chat chat chat.. until 7 something.. i reach home.. then still chat chat chat.. then until i go downstairs eat dinner. still chat chat chat.. :) after that.. when i was listening to music.. no more chat chat. this time i sing sing..:) while waiting for linda to reply me.. :) around 10.30pm.. i think someone sleep d la.. so i send sms to someone.. :) then i go online listen to music again.. :)

after that kacau penny.. she swear at me.. :s she say DAMN YOU!!!! :S suddenly only.. so bad.. dun wan fren u!!! humpphhh!!!! :S after that.. i went online and look for lyrics.. then sing along., hahaha.. then now i am here.. online.. blogging.. dun wanna miss any day.. try to blog as much.. cause of my super duper loyal fan who always read my blog.. u noe who.. :) thanks ya!! :) hehehe

okie la.. wanna sleep d.. late.. nite nite people.. sweet dreams ya.. sleep tite.. have a nice day... :) linda ar.. sweet sweet dreams okie?? sleep tite.. have a wonderful day tomorrow.. :) TAKE CAREZZZ!! :)

anyone who can touch me
can hurt me or heal me
anyone who can reach me
can love me or leave me
so be gentle cause
i bruise easily
and i am learning how to fall
without a safety net
to cushion the fall
:(

have u ever been in love?

2008-07-31T01:28:00.002+08:00

harlo everyone.. how's your day?? good?? :) hmm.. hope it's good.. hhe.. my day is okie la.. nothing special lor.. went to class in the morning.. in class did exercises la.. so many many cause i dunno how to do.. :S then lecturer gave back test 1 and test 2 marks.. oh shit.. u noe how much i got???

test 1 = 11.6/20
test 2 = 16/20.
total = 27.6 over 40...

haih.. so stupid la me.. :s dunno how to do.. haih.. anyone can offer me help??? if u r kind enuf to do that.. oh well.. after that walk around concourse to look at those engineering student invented thier things.. wahh.. so many oh.. got one is where they invented this air ball shooter.. which not pump by machine.. which is pump by human using the pump.. my god.. they wanna demonstrate too so long time.. they pump pump pump.. but after finish pumping.. the guy accidentally put to hole facing down and the ball roll out.. lolz.. funny.. i like the one which is invented by marc kwang.. he did that machine just like house alarm.. chun.. and can listen to wat u say.. like u say u are hot.. then the fan which connected to the system switch on.. chun huh?? :)

so ya.. after that have lunch lor.. then rest awhile then go to srikl.. today got koko.. :) then reach there.. teach and teach.. and then plan for nukata.. :S so ya.. after that finish school i went to canteen to buy water.. then lepak at normal place awhile.. then i go out eat with kean yong and malvin and ken seng.. but suddenly ken seng cannot go cause mom came.. awww.. so sad.. so malvin and kean yong and me went asia.. lol.. eat and eat.. waaa.. malvin eat alot weih.. lol.. then i sms someone.. then chit chat awhile.. then told someone everything that happen.. hhehe.. then then after finish eating.. we all walk back to srikl.. then there we chat awhile.. then malvin say he wanna go training.. few seconds later.. he came back.. he say he lazy.. dun wan swim..

then 3 of us sitting on the floor like beggers.. hahaha.. then kean yong more keng.. he sleep on the floor.. really like beggers man.. hahah.. then after awhile kean yong go home.. i go pyramid.. play bowling..

after that.. reach home around 7.45.. then shower and pack my bag.. then after that online listen to music.. i sms linda.. then chit chat awhile.. :) hehehe.. then promise linda to listen to the songs linda like.. :) so after that.. went online.. search for those songs.. then linda need to sleep d.. so dun disturb her la.. :) hehe.. after that.. keep looking for new songs.. but cannot find. haih...

after that.. now i am here.. blogging.. :) can u hear this song GIRL!!!! our love will always last.. if u give me a chance to love u!!! :S well.. i going sleep soon.. nite nite everyone.. sleep tite ya.. sleep well.. dun get cold.. :) have a great day tomorrow k? hehhe.. someone.. may u have sweet sweet dreams tonight k? linda.. have a nice day tomorrow k? keep smiling and TAKE CAREZZ!! :)

cause you are what i go to trainings for
cause you are what i go out for
cause you are just the one
that i can do anything for
let alone today
how can i not love you?
the centre of my world
and its hard to believe
that i actually met you :)
that
sweet
lovable
awesome
irresistible
beautiful
wonderful
perfect
cute
YOU :)
*love*

promise me dun go away???

2008-07-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

harlooo!!! everyone doing good?? hope u all doing fine la.. :) me still same same.. emo.. sad.. no mood... so okie.. today no class.. slep at 5am and woke up at 9am.. :S couldn't sleep.. busy thinking.. :S ok.. so i woke up then went downstairs to drink milo only.. nothing else.. then sit in front of tv.. watch but i just flipping thru channel..:S

after that.. i go listen to music in my room.. emo.....!!!! then around 2 something i went to cut my hair.. then i go to school to have meeting.. bowling club got meeeting today. lucky today not i host the meeting.. if not sure gone.. anyway.. after that went to srikl.. look for samantha koay to pass her her present.. then i found her buying drinks with huixin.. i pass her the present.. she say thank u.. :) after that sit at the normal place i use to sit.. chit chat with people.. then teman malvin to canteen to eat.. then chit chat with pearly.. then she go home i go find malvin and ken seng.. after that.. chit chat with kean yong.. then around 5 something i went to pyramid.. then work awhile then go gym again..

after gym lepak at my shop.. no sales la.. no customer.. haih.. i no mood.. sales also dun have,, :S
after that i sms someone.. then chit chat... :) finally the bus i am waiting for finally came.. then then i chit chat and then i went home around 7 something.. shower.. then continue with my music.. :S emo and sad music.. :( then still chit chat with linda.. then i go for dinner around 9pm.. after that.. chit chat awhile and linda wanna sleep.. so i continue with my music and go online..

chat chat awhile.. but no one to chat.. u noe i everyday keep this in me.. i feel so heavy.. can u let me lean on u??? i seriously can't carry myself anymore.. i feel extremely heavy.. :S PLEASE LET ME LEAN ON U!!! can i??

oh well.. after that i am here.. blogging.. cause i dun wan to disappoint my loyal blog reader who always visit my blog.. :) so thank u very much for always visiting my blog.. ok la.. no thing to write la.. still not in very good mood.. cause linda noe why... :S feeling disappointed.. haih..

ok.. everyone.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. have a wonderful day tomorrow k?? take good care.... :) linda stay happy ya.. and promise u wat i promise u today.. take carezz.. :)

after it all
i found out that loving you is already my habit
i learnt to say the same lies as you
you were always beside me
telling me how happiness should be
but actually the heaven you gave me is nothing at all
if i had chosen to leave you earlier
then perhaps none of this will happen now
i want out now
lets end this early
there is no need for us to last till forever
and even if i am addicted to your hug
i just have to forget it
and things will be fine once more
just maybe
there is no need to force ourselves to last till forever
no need at all

emo.... can u give me a chance?

2008-07-29T01:38:00.002+08:00

hey ya. everyone good?? hope it is la.. well.. my day was okie.. nothing special again.. as usual la.. woke up then get ready to go college.. then went college today.. today got small test.. so.. erm.. i emo yesterday and a day b4 yesterday and a day before yesterday and on and on until u reach 18th JULY 2008.. that's the day when i started emo.. but not very emo.. started very emo and sad on 24th JULY 2008.. :S

okie.. so emo till now.. and gonna continue dunno tilll when.. so today's test is wat i can say. i screw it up.. dunno how to do.. dunno wat to do.. just lie down and sleep.. i dun care la.. nothing is more important than u.. that small little test? nah.. i dun give a damn.. losing u or losing part of me to someone else is the worst.. i maybe looking very happy, or very normal.. but can u see deep inside me?? guess u dun.. guess nobody noe deep inside me is bleeding.. deep inside me the heart is not beating.. deep inside me i am breaking. i look strong rite?? have u every ask me how am i?? or give me a shoulder to lean on when i am facing this?? where were u?? dunno wat is happening i guess.. have u ever open up your heart..?? open your heart, won't u give me a second chance? i'll be here foreveer.. open your heart, let me show u how much i care and i will make u understand.. please open your heart to love me.. :S

okie well cancel.. sorry.. too emo.. always bring me to somewhere else when i haven even finish my story.. so ya.. after class i quickly go to srikl.. wanted to pass SAMANTHA KOAY's present.. SHIT.. she's not there.. she gone home.. SORRY SAM!!! :S give u tomorrow.. okiee.. after that. i went to look for huixin's sister who is sitting with huixin.. then i went and pass her her long lost phone.. i was busy repairing it cause her phone went swimming.. yea.. so okie.. after that chit chat awhile then huixin borrow money from me for her frens.. erm.. dunno wan do wat.. buy ticket i think.. i think is football ticket gua.. chelsea vs malaysia ticket?? after that huixin gave me back cause dunno why change plan or something..

after that, went to eat with malvin and ken seng. then after eating came back and 'try to get on the bus but the bus didn't come. waited for the bus'.. and then i go to pyramid.. went pyramid.. work.. then go to gym.. after that go back to work.. wanna make myself busy so i dun think so much.. but it doesn't work... dunno why but yea.. dun work at all.. i guess i am thinking and thinking.. when i am doing nothing, i think, when i doing something, i also think.. the only time i dun think is when i am sleeping.. but before sleeping also i think..:S haih.. speechless.. dun care d.. let it be this way.. let it be forever.. never let it end..

after that, went home and shower and 'try to go up the bus and still the bus didn't come'.. then i online to listen to music.. listen to songs.. emo again and no mood.. then then after awhile i went downstairs for dinner.. ate dinner.. not much.. just little bit and i finsih it.. then i sit down and play with my guitar.. then emo again.. then watch tv.. 'still waiting for the bus. long time since the day the didn't come'... didn't really watch cause i busy thinking.. then i go online to finish up my assignment.. no mood again to do assignment.. so simply do.. after that.. i listen to music. and now i am here.. blogg.. blogging. letting go every single thing.. so that i won't feel so heavy.. u noe i need u by my side so i won't be alone? u noe i need u to help me to lighten up my life?? u noe i need u badly cause u mean the world to me? guess u dunno.. i won't blame u if u dunno.. i won't hate u if u dunno.. instead i'll still love u... many ppl ask me to give up.. shud i or shudn't i??

oh well.. nite nite people.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well ya.. have a wonderful day tomorrow.. take good carezz...

you came into my mind once i heard the song
but then i told myself
i will always remember you
even though
we will not last till forever
this is how this story will end
and its happening right now
i feel that it is so unfair
because i know we can last
i know we can last
but why cant others allow us to?
why?
does it mean that if others dont have it
means we cant have it too?
i thought it only concerned us
and only us
why should others care?
and why do we even care about others' opinions?
i just dont get it
but nevertheless
i will remember you

I LOVE YOU!!! i NEED U!!!

2008-07-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

hey.. today was okie.. nothing special la.. woke up at 10am.. went brush teeth and then i go back on my bed and listen to my ipod.. listen to music and then emo abit.. nah.. maybe alot la.. :S so ya.. 'tried to get on the bus.. waited and waited for the bus' oh well.. :S after that went downstairs and look for food...

search around and i found my food.. i ate while watching tv.. didn't finish it all...:( no appetite la.. so ya.. throw all away.. i noe it's wasting food.. but i'm sorry... so after that continue watching tv.. watching and wondering away and watching and 'waiting for the bus'.. after that.. nothing to do then i decided to go to pyramid.. get ready and went to pyramid.. walk around and then meet si ching and jin yang and kimberly there.. chit chat and then talk.. stil emoing abit...

then follow jinyang to redbox to celebrate his sister's birthday... then sit there and listen to them sing.. jin yang's sister's fren la.. :) then then i just listen and emo again.. :S been emoing 1 week lu... over one thing.. over love.. haih.. so ya.. after that i choose my song.. i choose 'nothing's gonna change my love for you' then i sang.. i was scared and nervous but i did la.. i sang in front of everyone.. then got ppl say i have nice voice.. dunno who. one of jin yang's sister's fren... nah.. dun care la.. no mood also.. not bother.. then then i drink water and emo again awhile then all wan go back.. so walk out.. then follow jin yang send kimberly to the car.. all of us went.. then me and jin yang and si ching meet up with yee sam...

walk to the bowling alley.. wanna play but sorry la guys.. no lane la.. :S so ya.. then we all plan to ta gei.. i promise her not to ta gei.. but haih.. i got no mood la.. so went and ta gei.. :S then finish d walk to pyramid and i seperate with them.. i went to bowling alley and lepak in the room.. nah.. not really lepak.. emoing and listening to music.,.. feel like crying.. but nah.. no tears.. the amount of sacrifies i did for her.. no one actually no... well.. it's okie.. i would do anything for her.. even if ppl and my frens think that i am a begger.. i dun mind.. being a begger.. being some useless person.. nothing is more important to make u happy.. guess u are happy now rite??

ya.. u happy then good la.. i am more than glad to see u in a happy mood.. so after that.. around 8 something came out from the room and go see wat to eat.. walk the whole pyramid.. and dun feel like eating.. then i walk back to the bowling alley and into the room and then i emo again.. dun feel hungry.. then around 11pm only i go home.. reach home.. shower and then i went online. again same thing.. listen to music and emo.. well.. told out my feelings.. haih.. but still feel the same la.. guess no one can mend this broken heart except HER.. nvm.. i dun expect or hope for it.. cause no one will ever noe wat i did, how much i sacrifies for her..

oh well.. then continue with my music.. listen and now i am here blogging... i couldn't sleep.. 'still waiting for the bus' but yea.. 'no sign of it':( so here.. i am.. blogging cause i promise someone i will keep updating.. and i blog cause i wanna make myself busy and i blog cause i wan to express how i feel.. okiee... i'm sorry for everything..

well.. nite nite people.. sweet sweeet dreams ya.. sleep tite k? sleep well.. have a nice day tomorrow.. god bless ya.. and take carezzz...... i'll try to sleep.. bye... :S

cause now
i am just trying to get a sense of my life
a sense of my life is
what i truly stand for
no doubt
its a age of self discovery
in search for our own identity
but then
along the way
i feel so lost at times
so lost of what i am searching for
what am i really searching for?
what do i really want?
i dont know
now i am feeling lost
perhaps its just mood swings
but then
i just cant shake off this feeling inside of me
is it emptiness?
or is it ignorance?
i guess
i am in search for an answer
how things that i normally look forward to
dont appeal to me anymore
they say
absence make the heart fonder
and indeed it is true
in the initial stages perhaps
but i dont know if it is just me or what
absence now
chills my heart
it makes me stop longing for you already
and that is when things start to change
perhaps not now
and it is not visible yet
but soon we will realise
things have changed
its been some time since i try to tell u you those words
have you wondered why?
well if you havent
its time to start wondering
because it means something

EMO!!!! SHIT!!! i dun wan this to happen.. :(

2008-07-26T23:40:00.007+08:00

hey.. how's today?? hahahhaah... GUESS WAT????
TODAY IS SOMEONE'S BIG DAY!!!!!!
YOU NOE WHO??? LET ME TELL U WHO!
IS

SAMANTHA KOAY SHU WERN!!!!

happy birthday to you!!! :) may all your dreams come true!!!

okie.. well.. my day is okie.. went pyramid and lepak around.. nothing to do.. tried to get board the bus but i couldn't the bas didn't come.. :S so waited and waited.. :S

then after that went to pyramid.. walk around and loning and emo.. :S cause the bus didn't come.. :S haih.. then continue walking.. saw many srikl ppl la.. so i just smile and say hi.. then continue walking.. then went to work awhile.. then continue walking.. :s then after that went to look for present..

walk and walk and walk.. waaaa.. dunno wat to get.. sms ppl to get ideas.. but in the end still no idea..:S well. continue walking and walking.. then went into this shop.. FIRST TO CAUGHT MY EYES!!! yea.. u are wat i looking for man.. :) u noe why?? u why today i went shoppping?? hahaha.. smart.. cause it's someone's big day!! :)

so ya.. after buying things.. then went to buy water and at the same time waited for the bus to come.. :( but still didn't come.. :S then i waited for my daddy to come pick me up and go to grandma's house to had dinner.. dunno wat big day today.. well.. nvm la.. then then after dinner listen to my ipod.. listen to songs.. and think.. think.. think.. so many to think!!! :S haih.. okiee.. after that.. now i am here..

online and blog.. gonna sleep soon.. but i guess i cannot sleep lorr.. u noe why? hmmm.. dun wan tell la.. okie la.. bye bye. nite nite people.. sorry... sleep tite ya.. HAVE A NICE DAY TOMORROW!!! take good CAREZZ

will there be a day when we have nothing more to hide
everything to say
with no reservations at all?
it may be hard at first
but lets give it a try
and i am willing to take the first step
cause its times like this
when we become strangers who knows each other best
back to strangers
whereby silence fills the gaps among us once more
back to square one
but things can never be the same as before
too much has changed
you have changed
i have changed
we have changed
can we walk away now?
can we just simply walk away?
can you?
can i?
after it all
all the obstacles and storms
can we still stand tall?
can we still stand strong?
can we make it through together?
or will we falter just like the rest of the people around us?
can we make it through?
TOGETHER?
that i keep questioning myself
i dont question us
but
i question myself
and in the midst of questioning myself
i may not be the perfect little girl
but then
will you understand that no one is perfect
no one including me?
will you be there to pull me through?
or will you turn your back against me
just like others before
in my times of imperfection?
I try to sleep
but the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
a thousand more regrets unraveling
forever seems so far for us now
but i know something for sure
i never wanted us to last till forever as badly as i do now
and perhaps i still dont believe in everlasting
but then
you can be the one to show me the existence of everlasting
its a dream that i never wanted it to end
i never wanted it to burst
but then
there is something
something that cant be seen
something that cant be explained
that holds us back
do you feel it too?
what is it?
is it the walls that we have erected around ourselves
after all these years
to protect ourselves
that
i have not been able to be upfront with my feelings and thoughts?
you have not been able to be upfront with your feelings and thoughts?
we have not been able to be upfront with our feelings and thoughts?
or else
what is it?
what is holding us back?
i guess
its time to search for some answers
some answers that we have left aside
answers that we chose not to find
and its time to decide
are we embarking on this quest for answers together?
or are we going to find our own answers on our own?
there is only one way to know
and its simple
a question for you and me
are we still worth fighting for?

please i need u badly girl...

2008-07-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

harlo... hahhaa.. i'm here again.. bored?? lolz.. nvm.. u can choose not to read la.. i dun force u la.. :) okie okie.. now.. today went to class early.. lol.. then lecturer was teaching break even points.. u noe?? accounts.. :S haih.. break even point.. need to find margin of safety.. lolz.. all that la.. :)

so after that.. went to take some stuff from pyramid and then went to srikl.. there i waited awhile and i chat with malvin and ken seng and tess.. u noe.. ya.. so.. after that.. suddenly ken seng call me.. say mrs indra wanna talk to me.. so.. i go look for her.. and she talk.. u noe wat she tallk?? she wanna cancel the lion dance performance.. she just wanna make it simple.. so.. sorry people.. no more lion jumping on pole.. so sorry.. :S okie.. anyway.. after that.. went to bank with malvin and then while walking back he say he wanna go class.. okie.. nvm.. teman him back to school then i alone in the canteen waiting.. okiee.. while waiting i eat something la.. bread at first.. then i sms linda... sms and chit chat.. then after that no reply d.. i waited.. :)

then i continue waiting.. 2.45pm.. i hungry d then i eat chicken rice.. :S after that huixin came.. pay me money.. then ask me fix her phone.. i sit near her and i fix.. she busy talking.. then after i did everything.. then she shouted.. YES!!!! then okie.. i go back where i was.. then i sit.. then suddenly.. huimin came.. chit chat.. then teerachel came.. then chit chat.. then after a while.. i plan to go pyramid.. so i went.. reach there.. went to bowling alley.. and u noe who i saw?? haha.. dun need me say la.. u all noe... u noe wat u did.. so ya.. then i walk to find food and then walk back to bowling alley to bowl.. hhee.. after that.. went to take phone that send to repair.. then i go back srikl.. go back there still saw teerachel there.. chat awhile.. then go look for tess

my gawd.. when i see tess.. he straight away come tell me.. 'ei, my teeth damn pain.. ppl elbow me then now my teeth went in and i just now make it straight back' then i was like so?? why u telling me?? wan me bring u go see doctor?? ai yo.. then he keep telling few times.. then sudddenly shi ying came.. haha.. shi ying came he still very steady one.. when shi ying talk to other guys.. he chung dong liao.. so kek dong man.. hehehe.. after awhile.. i drove back home.. then shower and then go lie down on my bed and listen to music.. :) then online awhile.. then watch tv.. then online see who online.. then watch tv.. :) then had dinner.. :) then after awhile i sms linda.. sms her.. then chit chat again.. :) yea.. linda.. u got sweet and gorgeous smile la.. i'm serious okie?? : okie.. then linda wanna sleep d.. so i also going to sleep.. but i cannot la.. so i online listen to music.. until now.. i guess i have to go.. :)

nite nite everyone.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. linda.. have sweet sweet dreams tonight okie?? :) take carezz.. hehhe.. see ya..

cause sometimes i feel that
we are strangers once more
strangers that know each other best
since when did that happen?
i am not missing you
missing you no more
i memorised your number
so why cant i make the call?
maybe because i know i will always be with you
in the impossibility
and now
i just want to run away from you
run to a place
where you can never find me
you can never reach me
you can never touch me
you can never hold me
you can never see me
a place so far
that i am running to with all my might now
so fast as my legs can carry me
away from you
you thought you had me back for good
but in actual fact
you have already lost me for good then
but you didnt realised it
thats all
it is intriguing
how i am no longer afraid to lose you
and instead
i want to be far far far away from you
a place so far
where i can find
clarity
peace
serenity
a place where you dont exist

you're not alone okie"???

2008-07-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

harlo.. today good?? everyone fine?? hmm.. okie.. glad to hear that.. lolz.. i noe i noe.. i didn't hear.. hahha.. yup yup.. so today i went to srikl early in the morning.. i need to repair huixin's phone.. then i was there quiet early.. so i waited near the locker.. heheh.. after that saw ken seng they all.. then chat awhile.. then they go to the futsal court.. then i saw linda.. heheh.. after that.. malvin was late.. then ask him pass something to someone who admire him.. lol.. malvin noe who is that..

after that.. walk to canteen with malvin then lepak a while.. and then i go for bowling training.. ai yo.. so early.. lazy la go training.. :S hehehe. but i did la.. after training i went to repair huixin's phone.. dunno wat she do until the phone kena locked.. need to unlocked it to call again.. so help me make lor.. OOPSS!!! SORRY HUIXIN!!! couldn't safe your pictures and contact.. I'M SO SO SORRY!!!!! then then i go back srikl to give back huixin her phone.. and i chat with malvin they all.. i saw titanic today.. with her ex.. :) then i sms linda la.. chit chat and chit chat.. then went to eat with seng chai.. then then we eat alot u noe.. hehehe... then seng chai mom came.. so he had to go home.. after that.. malvin came and chit chat awhile then i go back lorr.. hhehehh..

before going back.. while i in the car.. haha.. saw malvin with pink bag.. he so cute la.. ehhehe.. stephanie see sure like one.. heheh.. then then okie.. i went home lorr.. i still smsing linda la.. chit chat again.. then suddenly.. my phone stop ringing.. :S hmm.. sure linda not free.. nvm la.. i waited.. then waited till dinner.. hehhehe.. then i ate dinner.. then online and listen to music.. hehe.. then now i am blogging.. cannot sleep late d la.. linda ask me drink more water and sleep early... waaa.. i drink alot alot of water until i go toilet so so so so so many times.. heheheh.. :) thanks linda.. u are so kind... :) did anyone tell u, u got nice and gorgeous smile?? yea.. u have.. :) must be proud of that ya.. okie.. guess linda sleeping d.. hehe..

i also wanna sleep d.. :) okie everyone.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well ya... have a nice day tomorrow okie?? :) linda.. have sweet swwweeet dreams.. nitez.. TAAKEE CAARREEEZZ ya.. :)

this innocence is brillant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
but then
perfect moments dont last dont they?
it was so perfect then
that we thought we could last till forever
but who would have known
that it is nothing but an illusion in the end?
we are no longer worth fighting for
my heart that usually burns with a fire red
has turned blue
that fire that usually burns for you
has been diminished
there is no longer that special connection
and i dont know if we can reconnect again
whether we can find back our magic on each other or not
but for now
you have lost your magic on me
you have lost your only connection with me
but everything still seems so perfect to you isnt it?
well
ironic isnt it?
how can we reconnect again?
how can we relight that fire once more?
how can we restore the magic?
to me
once it is lost
nothing can bring it back
nothing
because something has changed between us
but it isnt us
we have never changed
it's U who changed
and when such situations happen
it only says one thing
our destiny in each other's lives has ended
we have ceased to be part of each other

can we be together forever??

2008-07-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

hey.. hmmm.. how's today?? how's everyone?? hahha.. lol.. okie.. today i did nothing but went to class for test.. OMG.. i dunno how to do.. ACCOUNTS!!!!! help me please.. hehehe.. :) help la.. who is good?? :( then after that went to college to lepak with frens.. chat and then do some work.. then lunch.. hahhaa.. had lunch.. then went to srikl and sleep in my car.. to tired la.. lolz..

then after that around 3.15pm woke up and go to buy water and waited.. while waiting.. some people came and talk to me.. lol.. dun think so far la.. not leng lui.. is mr chew.. hahhaa.. ask me about my studies and all.. lol.. hahha.. he is impresssedd :) so after that... skip skip.. then went and lepak near the canteen.. then we all went out to makan.. makan and makan.. lol.. ken seng makan 2 plate wei.. one is mee goreng and another one is indo me.. i order one.. hahhaa.. ken seng owe me RM 3.50.. hahaha.. nice leh?? :P okie.. then walk very fast back to school cause ken seng mom coming.. then i drove him to the post office.. waited there like 10 minutes.. he keep doing exercise in my car..

turning his body and look behind.. and turn back in front.. he did that almost 50 times.. he then tell me his waist pain.. hahahhah good exercise.. :) then i went to put petrol and then i went straight to pyramid.. that time i sms linda chung.. sms and sms.. then aroudn 6.30pm.. i went home.. that time i didn't sms linda.. cause she is busy.. then then i shower and do some homework.. then i eat dinner.. after dinner i sms linda.. see wat linda doing.. then chat awhile.. then linda need to do homework oh.. :) so let her do first.. :)

after that around 10 something.. sms linda see she sleep d or not.. linda not sleeping.. linda ask me sleep early.. so i promise her i will sleep after my blogg. so now.. i gonna blog.. guess this is the end.. hahah.. nothing special today. :) did anyone of u read THE STAR newpaper?? wat i wrote yesterday came out today.. scary la.. :S but some wrong la.. i thought is indian guy.. :) so noe u all noe.. actually.. that driver is a robber and many other bad things he do.. so u all dun follow him.. not good.. :) hehehehe.. okiee..

so.. i gonna sleep now.. nite nite people... sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a nice day tomoorow okie?? :) hehehe.. tata.. take carezz.. :) linda.. have nice nice sweet sweet dreams okie?? and have a great day too.. :) TAKE CAREZZ..

so this is how it feels like
how it feels like to be walking on the inside
cause we have got nothing to hide
nothing to lose
nothing to find
but you
cause i have trained to live for you
to breathe for you
for you and only you alone

please let me love u.. i need u..!!!

2008-07-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how is everyone?? hmm.. me not good.. me got flu and sore throat.. haih.. i take care of myself d.. :s but still like that.. :s okie okie.. so today i got no class.. so i lepak at home and listen to music till 12 and i watch tv.. watch the show title ' little manhanthan' it is nice.. heheh.. then around 1.45pm.. i was driving after eating.. u noe wat??

something bad happen.. i saw a crime scene.. the police and the thief.. and and.. the thief was trying to run away with the car NAZA RIA.. and then police try to stop the car.. so accident happen.. then the police try to ask the driver to come down.. which is the thief.. then the driver refuse.. and the police make 3 shots.. bang bang bang!!!! then everyone started to see wat happen.. then another police go near the car and open the door and pull the driver out and give him another shot.. and the thief or driver is DEAD!!! it's a indian guy.. quite big size.. after that.. the whole road is jam up.. my gawd.. 3 to 4 hours still jam.. dunno wat they doing..

oh well.. anyway.. went to srikl at 3pm.. then walking towards the basketball court.. then saw someone.. then i walk to look for malvin and ken seng.. hahah.. waaa.. i see kean yong doing corrections.. sejarah corrections.. hhehehe.. eh. i read his answer i laughing weih.. :) not bad huh?? i still remember some of the sejarah in form 3.. hahahha.. i can answer wei.. not bad.. then i sit and watch ppl play basketball.. watch and chat.. then suddenly.. when i turn i saw someone.. so i just smile..!!! :) hehe.. then then continue chatting.. when school ends.. i took the bootle and make it as a gun and try to shoot malvin.. OOPS!!!! wrong person.. the target went wrong way.. shot hong yi.. SORRY HONG YI!!!! then after that.. walk to syok's van to talk.. heheh.. that time ken send and malvin and me try to play with the bottle again.. try to shoot syok.. but we didn't then me and kenseng change mind.. we shoot malvin instead.. hahahhaha.. SORRY MALVIN.. hahah.. my bottle shot him on his stomach.. heheh.. then now got one red round shape there.. hahahha. SORRY...

then went back to the usual place.. then chit chat and then plan to eat.. so all go primary canteen to eat.. we all eat maggi mee.. haih.. my sore throat la.. :S then got flu some more.. :S need sleep early liao.. then that time i sms someone.. chit chat.. ask someone when someone cry.. then chat chat.. then then suddenly no reply.. :S i thought someone angry liao.. but then no la.. someone say not angry.. then then sms awhile.. then waited for someone to reply.. while waiting i play my guitar.. heheh.. :) then then at 9. something.. i sms someone.. no reply oh... then at 10 i sms someone again.. guess someone sleep d.. i feel no mood la.. cause of my sore throat and flu and something.. :S so just listen to music only lorr.. :S now i am here.. wanna sleep soon.. no mood.. nothing to do.. haih.. hope i get well soon.. must listen to someone.. someone ask me sleep early..

okie la.. guess that's all for today.. see u all tomorrow and someone nite.. sweeetest dream for tonight k?? have a nice day tomorrow.. tata.. take carezz..

where are we going to go from here?
where else can we go from here?
cause you just have to say
once in a while
that you miss me
or love me
and i feel so so loved
but have you realised
that i havent been saying these words to you?
cause i know
even if i say them to you
the situation that we are in
will not change
it will not change anything at all
and it will only bring us more misery
perhaps it will only be more misery for me
i know i am ready to let you go now
letting go is the best option
for you
for me
for us
lets give the best memories we had together
the best ending
let it not be tainted by anger
or resent
and instead
embrace the memories we had together
the present that we need to let go
and the future
that has neither of us in each other's lives
its the best ending we have
the best ending i think
we can have
if we just let go gracefully
i will let go of you gracefully
though there may be regrets
but life is full of regrets
you can be my biggest regret in my whole life
that i cant have you in my life forever
till the end

i need u now...!!! can i?

2008-07-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

hey ya.. how is everyone today?? hmm.. hope it's good.. hehe.. my day was okie.. nothing special la.. went to classes.. then class ended a lil earlier.. around 3.35pm.. then i walk to srikl.. then went in and look for syok.. but dunno where.. then went to look for malvin.. when i reach the normal place.. ken seng and malvin and kean yong there.. so we chit chat awhile. then we all go out makan..

while walking out.. we pass by primary canteen.. then at the door.. we saw stephanie.. malvin's lover.. :) wah lau.. i tell u.. malvin's face turn red.. damn red.. i got prove.. can ask ken seng or kean yong. see stephanie also can turn red d wei... chun or not?? after that we walk walk walk.. and i told them i wan to go to toilet.. so they waited awhile.. :) then we walk walk walk and walk till we reach salmon steak.. hmm.. we order burger la as usual.. then we sit down and order drinks.. at the same time i sms someone.. someone reply.. then we chit chat.. :) trying to make someone happy..

so i order the ice lemon tea and another one is erm.. wat is that call... erm.. PURPLE RAIN TEA?? something like this.. omg.. like drinking medicine that doctor gave.. :S then ken seng drink that one dunno wat is that.. he drink then his whole teeth all blue.. hahahha.. so funny.. then we all chat and eat.. ejek malvin and kean yong abit.. then we pay and walk back to srikl.. hahahahhaa... then then.. reach there.. drove my car in.. cause dun wan to leave it outside.. then waited with kean yong and kenseng at the canteen.. then after awhile.. kean yong sister came and fetch him.. then left me and ken seng. we play play.. chat.. and see his hp.. my gawd.. his hp so outdated.. cannot select different ring tones for different ppl.. outdate hor???

after that.. ken seng and i say kean yong's enemy.. :) heheheh.. then chit chat awhile.. then ken seng wan me to fetch him to post office.. so i fetch him there then i go home.. still smsing someone :) then when i reach home i shower and do my homework.. after that i listen to music while waiting for someone to reply.. then around 7 something i went downstairs and watch tv.. then then when mummy came back.. had dinner.. then continue watching tv.. wah.. the show nice la.. without a trace i think the title.. it's about this boy who is having auratic?? dunno how to spell that.. he's very high in IQ but when come to socializing.. he is like a deaf person... :S he was so scared of ppl yeelllling.. so when his father yell at him.. he ran off.. ran away and his brother tried to help him then accidentally cut his hand then he thought his brother dun wan him.. then he ran again.. waaa.. ppooooor thing la.. :s then finally the police do investigation and found him.. :)

after that.. online and try to find ringtones and themes for my phone.. found a few.. then then i go listen to music.... and and sms someone.. heheheh.. :) after that.. i complain to someone i getting flu and all.. someone ask me go sleep.. so that's why i here.. faster blog and sleep.. dun wan sleep at 1am liao.. sorry someone.. oh ya.. before i end this.. when u all view my blog.. does it has the picture and the purple background? or white color background and no picture? please let me noe okie?? :) thanks. okie la.. wanna go sleep d.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a great day tomorrow okie?? someone must have sweetest dreams ar.. tomorrow be happy and stay happy okie?? tata.. TAKE CAREZZZ....

cause its too late to apologise
too late for anything to salvage what we have
cause its just too late
when i give up
i surrender
i throw in the white flag
it really means my heart to keep us going is dead
we are no longer worth fighting for
previously
though there may be obstacles
it was a happy burden to carry
because we were still worth fighting for
at least i think so then
but now
it is no longer a happy burden
it is a burden
and i am tired already
my shoulders can no longer bear the weight of the load
the load keeps getting heavier and heavier
so heavy now
that i cant bear the weight anymore
enough is enough
when something starts
it has to end
and its time to end
and perhaps with this ending
we can stop experiencing disappointment
false hopes
and misery
its over
we never really had a closure
and i dont know where can we go from here
perhaps there is no road for us
so we might as well let it go..
GOOD BYE!!! :(

i need u now...!!! can i?

2008-07-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

moody day.. what's wrong??

2008-07-21T02:17:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. how are u?? good?? hmm.. everyone slept well?? hope u all did.. well i didn't sleep well la.. dunno what's bothering me.. oh well.. so today.. woke up at 10am.. then i look at my handphone and reply some sms.. my bowling mate ask me whether i going bowling today. i told her ya.. after that i went downstairs.. look for food.. and watch tv..

i didn't find any food.. so i just drink milo.. :) make myself a cup of milo then i drink.. then continue with my tv.. i sms someone.. but no reply.. :) nvm la.. no need sorry okie?? so i continue watching my tv.. watch CSI.. then then while watching i feel like playing the guitar.. so i went play play.. heheh.. then after 1 hour.. bored of it d.. i continue watching tv.. :) then when lunch time.. lazy go out to buy food.. so i call mc donald delivery.. :) i ate chicken mc deluxe and nuggets.. ehheheh.. hungry la.. cause breakfast i didn't eat.. :)

after that.. around 3 sometimes get ready to go pyramid for bowling.. while waiting for daddy to fetch.. watch the show call white chicks.. hahaha.. damn funny.. guys become girl.. hahahha.. so so funny.. :) then then daddy say ready.. so i have to go in the car and he send me to pyramid.. while on the way to pyramid.. i sms someone again.. someone reply.. then chat awhile only.. cause someone wanna watch tv.. and i gonna start bowling soon.. :) after training.. i waited for my daddy to come and fetch me..

while waiting i emo abit.. dunno why no mood since after lunch.. :S but mood came back b4 bowling training.. :) waaa.. my moood swings.. ups and downs.. sometimes happy.. sometimes moody... am i...???? am i having??? am i having some problems??? oh well.. i dunno.. i'll try to figure it out.. but currently i dunno.. :S so hmm.. reach home.. sms someone.. then chat with someone till i had dinner.. cause mummy say got left over food.. so i have to eat at home.. then then while chatting half way no more reply again.. :S nvm la.. maybe someone is busy.. then i online and listen to music.. and then EMO again.. start listening to music.. i emo again.. THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY.. :S HOW DO I LIVE WITHOUT YOU...:S RIGHT HERE WAITING... :( EVERYTHING I DO I DO IT FOR YOU.. :( WAIT FOR YOU.. :(haih.. this is my ipod.. these songs play randomly by my ipod.. and all so sad.. i feel like tears rollling out my eyes.. but.. i guess no tearss.. :S well.. then after that sms someone nite.. then i continue with my music.. this time... mandarin song... TONG CHE XIN FEI.... :( XIAN ZAI HEN XIANG JIAN NI... :( NI SHI WO JUI SHEN AI DE NU REN... :( waaaaaaaaaaaaa... haih.. guess it's a emo day for me.. hope this kinda feeeling will faster find it's way out so i won't be so moody.. :S

so after awhile.. then i try to sleep.. hmm.. then cannot sleep.. so i online lor.. then i blogg.. now now i here here bloggggginnng... :) trying to make myself busy.. :S i going finish blogging d.. now i wan to sleep liao.. feeling abit tired.. :S okiee.. nite nite everyone.. sweet dreamss.. someone must dream sweeetly tonight okie?? have a nice day tomorroww ya... TAKE CAREZZZZ :)

but i know how i feel about you now
despite it all
something has changed
we have become so far away
so far in the distance between hearts
that it seems that nothing can ever fill the gaps once more
what has changed?
you?
me?
us?
or it has never been us?
could it be others changing
that we are forced to change too?
that i dont know
can you tell me?
i dont know where we are heading to or for
i dont even know
if we can make it through tomorrow
let alone forever
i am so scared now
and it is an understatement
i need assurance
i need comfort
that things will be all right
will things ever be all right?
i am learning to fall
but this fall
i cant cushion the fall or the blow
cause i know
nothing can make me feel any better
knowing that i lost you
i know
i cant lose you
but then
sometimes
i feel i am losing you
not that i want to
but there are so much around us
that are driving me nuts
but i cant do anything at all
that i am forced to lose you
must i make a decision now??

guess i have to give up.. my feelings i changing.. :S

2008-07-20T01:56:00.003+08:00

harlo peooplee.. :) how's your day?? okie rite?? well.. exam over d.. so sure very happy rite? hhmmm... okiee.. so me today no class la.. but wake up to eat breakfast.. then hand around in the house awhile.. then go to srikl.. reach ther then chat and smile and play.. then laugh at some people.. hahahha.. after that we all go to pyramid.. they say wanna go pyramid have lunch.. lolz.. so ya.. went there.. hehehe

while in the car on the way there.. hahaha... malvin is playing hide and seek in my car.. he try to hide from his daddy so that his daddy cannot see him going pyramid.. hahah.. so he hide.. and at the same time.. u noe that siew hock also hide?? then after awhile he realise why is he hiding when he dun even need to hid.. e cause it's not his dadddy.. ahhaha.. funny la.. 3 of them really like the cartoon... MASTER Q.. ahhahaha.. so when reach there.. it's kinda full la.. the parking i mean.. not pyramid full.. lolz.. the parking is soooooo fulll.. took me 1 hour like that to get a car park.. ask them to get down and search for car park.. lol.. THANKS ya..:)

after that.. they went to toilet to change.. hehehe.. then we all were laughing while walking to pyramid there to put thier begs.. then meet kean yong and hong yi.. then we all decide where to eat.. lolz.. we ate at SHOGUN.. it's a japanese buffet restaurant.. hahaha.. u noe wat?? at first all also dunno wat to eat.. then when i start.. wah lau.. i tell u.. all of them loook like 10 years haven eat.. hahha.. all can eat weih.. dun play play.. nice ritE?? hahhahaha.. ken seng.. the dish i take nice leh?? hahhaha :) when eating we all play BLUETOOTH MESSENGER.. hahah .. play b4 or not?? lol... just on your bluetooth and then can chat like messenger d.. hahaha.. :P keng leh.. after a while we all full d.. then we all pay and left the place.. went walking awhile and then they wanna go home.. at the same time.. i was sms someone when we were going intO SHOGUN to eat.. heehe.. chat chat chat.. then thought i send the message.. but i didn't, so make someone waited so long.. i'm so sorry okie?? :( so sorry...

after that.. the MASTER Q went home left me and kean yong only.. we walk and chat and sms.. and i teach him ho w to use his new phone.. hahaha.. he not pro at the phone yet.. :) so yea.. me teach him la.. me pro at any phone.. heheheh... :P so after that.. i went home and shower and then went back to pyramid for bowling.. hahhaha.. when i went back to pyramid.. i meet kean yong again..:) he haven go home.. he bluff me.. i guess he is spying on kimberly la.. :P he say he wanna give up oh.. u believe or not?? :P sure i dun lor... i will listen first.. hehhee.. after that.. i sms someone.. u noe wat?? someone gonna eat dinner d.. then i go play my bowling la.. when finish i sms someone again,.., then someone reply then after that busy again i think.. :) then then waited and waited.. and someone no reply.. i think someone sleep liao lorr.. today sure very tiring day for someone lor.. if me also i think i wanna end my day fast la.. well.. i sms u tomorrow okie?? :)

oh well.. then i went to my grandma's house again.. then there i watch the chinese series.. dunno wat name.. but about this BOBBY AU YONG.. he is a crime investigator.. hehehe.. then got this madam ma.. (chermaine sheh).. pretty mou? no la.. i think LINDA CHUNG PRETTIER LORR!!! LINDA!!! PRETTY... :) watch till 12am then go home.. around 11 something i sms somone.. but someone really sleeping d.. :)

so now i am at home.. now.. just finish shower and watching tv.. now i here bloggging lorr. hheheh. :) hmm.. i wanna sleep d lorr.. u all sure sleeping like pig lorr.. hehehe.. someone not sleeping like pig.. someone is getting sweeeet sweeeettt dreamss la.. :) have sweeet sweeeet dreamsss okie?? nite nite people.. sweet dreamss.. sleep tite.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CARE!!!! smile always ya... tata.. :)

i hate that i love you
i hate that i love you so much
that i can never bear to let go
you make loving you so easy for me
no one in this world can treat me like you do
have i told you before?
you make every moment spent with you
better than the previous moment
and even though it is just moments spent with you
you made these moments perfect
the best of all
was it written in the stars?
that i will meet you?
i missed your caring all these times
but
its too late
its time for me to let go
and i will run
run to a place so far that you can never find me anymore....!!!

can this be true?? u all i wan??

2008-07-19T00:26:00.002+08:00

heyyyaa... how are u?? good?? hehhee.. today my day boring as usual la. nothing special.. went to college.. then study.. again is accounts.... haih.. who can help me in accounts?? teach me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please... :) after class.. i went meet my sports dapartment manager.. get my award.. hahahha... in front of everyone they announce the award.. waa.. i so proud.. ahahha.. and and.. mr. siva.. u owe me RM150 la.. :) hahahha :P

so so.. after that.. went to take pictures for sports magazine.. hahha,.. they wan me post with the stupid medal. my gawd.. they force me.. but in the end i take a picture that my face is covered.. hahahhaha.. too bad.. :) camera suxx.. so not my fault.. hahaha.. well.. after that.. had lunch with taylors bowling member.. hehehe.. cause they trying to brain wash me to go taylors and play for them.. ya.. soo.. i see how la okie?? :P taylorians i cannot give u answer now.. but i think about it.. heheheh.. :) so so.. after lunch.. i went to srikl.. meet with them.. then had lunch again., hahahahah eat alot hor?? but nvm.. my metabolism rate very very high.. :) hmm.. so i meet up and walk to salmon steak., walking half way... pearly call.. she say wanna join us all.. so i say okie.. we wait... while i was waiting.. suddenly everyone is missing.. u noe where they all go? continue walking without me.. sad.. all ditch me..!!! :S

nvm.. waited awhile and pearly haven come i follow up to them and order my food.. and then pearly call again and then i told her where and they came and eat with us.. after that.. waiting for my burger. and wait and wait.. my burger didn't come.. the lady forget to make my burger.. UURRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nvm nvm.. then then i went order again and then eat.. after eating then went back to srikl.. then chit chat and then sms someone.. :) someone watching tv oh.. someone gonna study soon.. :) heheh.. then sms awhile then suddenly someone no reply d.. guess someone watching tv and gonna study.. :S dun suddenly no reply me la.. i worried one leh.. :S okie??? promise me dun suddenly no reply okie?? wat u wanna do also tell me first can??

hmm.. then went home and shower.. and sleep for awhile.. heheh. then then i went online.. play abit game then chatting. then now i am here.. blogging la.. hahah.. form 3.. all happy lor tomorrow last day of exam oh.. hehehehe :) then tomorrow maybe we all going enjoy.. maybe going redbox.. dunno la.. maybe only.. :) heheh.. so ya.. now i am chatting and gonna sleep soon d.. so tired.. :) well.. i shud go la. :) hehe.. u all sleep tite ok?? nite nite.. sweet dreams.. have a nice day tomorrow okiee?? :) GOOD LUCK ya.. take care... someone dun scared ya.. do your best only.. u can one.. :) sweeeeetttttttttttttt dreamss arr.. TAKE CAREZZZ :)

i tried asking myself many times
why do i love you so much
but then i realised that love needs no reason
when you love someone
you will just simply love the person from the head to the toes
anything that the person does influences you
a smile from the person will make even the worst day the best
a tear from the person makes a sunny day gloomy
a touch from the person gives you the tingling feeling all the way to the toes
you want to see the person all the time
you want to be by the person's side all the time
you want to spend every waking moment with the person
but all these cant compare to one special feeling felt in the heart
it is hard to explain
there is this special kind of love
whereby you love the person so much
so much that you cant even imagine
so much that it overflows
and when
that loving the person is all you want to do for the rest of your life
that the person's happiness is the one that matters the most
and you wish for the person to be happier than anyone in this world
then maybe
persistence is uncalled for
it is time to let the person go
but letting the person go
doesnt mean you can no longer care for the person
it is just that
every night before you sleep
pray silently for the person
to be happy everyday
to smile brightly to face each day
and for every obstacle that stands in the person's way
the person will face it strongly and eventually
triumph over it
cause the love is so deep
that i chose to let you go

my love for you is going to end.. :S how???

2008-07-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. everyone doing okie?? heheh.. i'm fine.. nothing special.. today no class cause teacher not free so canceled.. then i stay at home till 2 and went straight to pyramid.. :) cause i still have competition there.. lolz.. so when i reach pyramid.. i see many other colleges people there.. they gonna compete with me.. :) hehehe.. so as usual i am nervous la.. :)

when they announce the lanes that we are located.. we all move to our respective lanes.. then they say 5 minutes warm up.. so we do as they ask to.. so i tak my bowling ball and started to do practise throw.. get the line and everything.. my gawd.. the lane is so dry.. oh well.. i have to keep adjusting till i get the line right.. :( ok.. 5 minutes end.. and and here we go.. start bowling.. hehehe.. 1st game.. i play 178... haih.. so sad rite?? my score?? hahaha.. second game i play 188.. haih.. improve abit only. :) and and last game.. hahahhahhaa.. i impressed everyone.. i play a 275.. hahaha.. high rite?? hahahha.. so ya.. when the competition end.. and they wanna select for master qualifiers.. means that the total pin fall of 3 events.. singles, double and team.. so ya.. guess wat?? i didn;t qualify.. hahaha.. sad rite?? :( oh well.. not really la.. kinda disappointed but okie.. nvm.. :) during masters roll off.. hahahah. i support my frens la.. ehhehe.. they did okie la.. :) not bad.. PROUD OF U.. didn't waste my effort clapping hands so so loud..

at the same time.. i sms someone.. :) chat chat chat.. then i haven eat dinner.. i waiting for someone to cook dinner for me.. but someone say dunno how to cook.. only noe how to cool mee soup.. :) hehhe.. nvm la.. can la.. can eat can d lorr.. :) hhhehe.. then someone say wanna start doing revision lor.. so i told someone that i go look for dinner and someone study first okie?? :) then i went look for dinner.,. ended up i eat nasi lemak.. hahaha.. but at that time i was hungry so the nasi lemak is delicious.. hehehhe.. :) after that.. went home.. shower and everything.. then online listening to music.. nothing else to do la,.. then now i am here blogging.. heheheh...

i going sleep soon la.. i guess someone sleeping d rite? :) hmm.. tomorrow i got class at 8am.. so early.. need to wake up early again.. :S oh well.. nvm la.. only morning got class. after that no class liao.. heheh.. then will have lunch with syok and kean yong i think... :?) well that's all for now la.. :) hehehe.. i wanna get ready to sleep.. hehhee... nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. have a nice day tomorrow ya.. :)

p.s. someone must have sweetest dreams okie?? :) nites.. sleepp tite.. have a nice day tomorroow :) GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST ya.. JIA YOU ar.. GAMBATE.. dun need scared one okie?? :) take carezzzz...

and i know how to love you without being told
and you put your arms around me and said
i think we are alone now
the beating of our hearts is the only sound
cause loving you is all i can do
is all i want to do
and u noe
what is home?
home is being in the arms of people you love..
i found my way home..

left or right?? who?? u?? or her??

2008-07-17T01:48:00.002+08:00

harlo peeps.. how's exam huh?? okie?? hahha.. my test at college today was okie.. just abit tough la.. but i think can do la.. hahahhaa.. well.. how about u all?? BM okie?? lolz.. hmm after test.. went to sports department to get my uniform and drinks that they sponsor for today's bowling competition.. so after getting everything.. went to sri kl to give maxter back his iphone.. i repair it d. so ya.. attention to all IPHONE user.. DO NOT UPDATE AUTOMATICALLY FROM THE COMPUTER.. TRUST ME!!!!.. hmm.. after that.. i went straight to pyramid.. get ready and then sharp 3.30pm.. bowling starts..

so play lor.. hahha.. didn't really concentrate la.. just play only.. play play.. so ended up i get 14 place.. hahaha.. damn char rite?? 14 out of 30 over people.. hahaaha.... dun care la.. lolz.. then after singles is doubles.. haha.. so ya.. i play like normal again. and u noe wat?? my team mate pull me down.. so ya.. we got 13th place.. chun or not?? hahahha.. well.. sorry la.. today i cannot play well cause something happen la.. haih.. damn no mood lorr.. :s well.. who wan noe can ask me.. someone wanna noe?? i tell u when u finish exam okie?? :S after that waited a while.. then dee ask me to go for dinner.. char also.. then ended up me and dee and char went dinner with her brother and frens.. so eat at kim gary.. then after finish eating.. they wanted to go home.. but her brother wanna stay and chat.. so they ask me teman them walk.. since i noe the whole pyramid.. so i be their tour guide la.. :) after walking for 1 hour plus.. they are tired so wanna go home.. bring them back to her brother there then meet up with them and go home..

so.. when i came home, i sms someone... someone just wake up.. :) so chat awhile.. then i guess someone is busy liao.. studying hard for tomorrow la.. :) so after that.. i dun disturb someone la.. then syok call me.. call me and talk talk about hahahhahaa.. :P then ask me help him.. i try la okie?? haha.. then after that.. suddenly syok noe i playing dota.. he ask me wat i do why DOMINATING wan.. hahaha.. i explain.. then okie.. end call.. then now i am here.. online and listening to music and blogging.. hehehhee.. so now i wanna sleep lor.. tomorrow last day competition.. haih.. see i got mood to play or not la.. :) hope got lor.. if not INTI lose one.. confirm.. :S

oh well.. nite nite people.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. have a great day tomorrow ok??

p.s. someone.. sweet sweet sweet dreams ya.. :) nite nite.. have a nice day tomorrow. GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST ar!!!! dun need scared science one la.. just do your best okie?? :) take carezz :)

cause it will be the last time
i whisper this in your ears
"i love you"
even the last moments
that we are going to spend together
i only want to leave the best memories behind
for you
and perhaps for me too
so when i miss you
when i feel that i am slipping away
i can reminisce
those moments
and i can find the strength to go on
those moments
when i felt i belonged to you
those moments
that belonged only to us
forgive me for my selfishness
but i love you so so much
i know even if i let go of you
my heart will always find its way back to you
my mind will wander back to you
my soul is screaming to return back to you
but
i still chose this cruel decision
i chose to let go
forgive me

happy whenever i hear your voice..

2008-07-16T00:59:00.002+08:00

harloo.. everyone doing good rite?? just that u all busy with exams.... college also got exam... sad sad.. :S haih.. so wat happen today?? hmm.. well.. woke up at 10.30.. cause got no class ma.. so wake up then cook breakfast.. then eat.. and then around 2 park my car at srikl and walk to college.. chit chat awhile.. everyone pressuring me la.. asking me to win tomorrow's competition.. haih.. i try my best okie?? i won't promise i'll win.. but i'll try my best ya.. :) so after that walk to srikl and then first person who came to me is yap liang.. he came.. and the first word is.. 'ta bo' hahaha.. play basketball he means.. not other meaning that u all think okie??

after that.. next person is maxter.. he pass me his iphone that has blocked by apple company.. so i have to repair it.. :) then went to eat with malvin and kean yong.. so we walk out la.. as usual walk pass primary canteen.. this time.. u noe wat?? very quickly malvin disappear.. u noe where?? he took one big round so that he won't meet stephanie.. see.. i told u he see stephanie he will melt.. so he's scared.. so ya.. after a while i pointed at him and stephanie saw.. hahha.. where u wanna hide la malvin.. stephanie saw.. she ask me why u so weird?? why see her like see ghost.. hahahahh.. then i told stephanie that malvin likes u.. :P sorry malvin.. i have to tell her the truth.. :) after that.. walk to salmon steak.. we all ordered burger.. suddenly.. malvin receive a call and he has to go home.. awww.. poor him cannot eat.. hahhaha.. :) nvm.. i still can eat with kean yong.. so while eating we chat la.. chat about dota and charity day.. then chat and chat.. kean yong say something secret.. guess someone already noe wat la.. :( so so .. after that.. i went to pyramid.. to play bowling.. after bowling i went and fix maxter's phone.. after that.. i go home.. while going home i sms someone.. but no reply..

so i went to shower and do some homework.. after that.. i sms someone again.. this time someone reply.. someone just finish dinner.. now wanna start studying wor.. hehe.. so hardworking.. keep it up okie?? just do your best.. :)after that.. dun disturb someone la.. let someone study.. then around 11pm.. waa.. i think someone sleep d lor.. hehehe.. sms someone.. then i online and look for songs.. heheh.... and downloaded it.. after that.. here i am.. blogging.. hehehe.. at the same time.. singing.. hahah.. so late i still sing.. oopss!!!.. sorry.. i think i cannot sing d.. hahaha.. okie la.. time to sleep d..... tomorrow i'll be having competition.. so i won't be at srikl la... hehehe.. ok.. so erm.. nitez everyone.. good luck to u... :)

someone.. must have SWWEEEETTTT DREAMSS YA!!!!.. sleep tite.. HAVE A NICE DAY TOMORROW k?? :) GOOD LUCK IN YOUR EXAMS... JUST DO YOUR VERY BEST YA!!!! :) hehehe.. take careszz..

it was never meant to feel like this
without you
i wasn't meant to love like this
not without you
its finally you and i
cause it is when i close my eyes
with the lips of an angel
it makes me weak
it is so earth-shattering
it is so unforgettable
that it takes my breath away
I NEED U...

my day is dead without your absence.. :(

2008-07-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. how is everyone today :?? great?? how's school?? hahahha.. feeling lazy leh?? first day of school.. hehehe.. same as me la.. first day of class... hahhaa.. lazy.. feel wanna sleep.. keep yawning in class.. and the lecturer goes...

lecturer: andrew!!! stop yawning and listen!!!!
me: i cannot control la miss.. is not that i wan to yawn ma...
lecturer: okie.. now pay attention
me: okie miss...

after 5 minutes.....

lecturer: aiyo andrew!!! wat did u do yesterday?? didnt sleep??
me: no.. i sleep.. but today first class ma.. wat u expect?? i can sit here for 1 hour without falling asleep is good d.. :P
lecturer: dun give me excuses la.. u always lazy...
me: miss.. i always lazy but i do well in test rite?? i answer watever u ask me.. :) see..
lecturer.. that's because u smart.. not in that sense u are bookwork.. smart as in u are good in thinking..
me: hehe :) okie okie.. continue your lecture... :)

so... this wat happen.. hahaha.. naughty ar?? or normall?? hehehe.. so after that.. went to srikl.. meet with malvin and went to eat.. lolz.. reach there i saw tess.. chit chat awhile with that fella.. he keep telling me crap which i dun wanna listen.. then finally malvin came.. so we decided to walk out.. :) then while walking pass the canteen.. i saw livia.. say hi to her and then continue walking.. guess wat?? while walking pass the primary porch.. we saw stephanie.. haha.. as usual malvin so scared of her.. i dunno why.. maybe stephanie is the sun and malvin is the chocolate.. so will melt whenever he sees her..:) hehe.. then continue our journey to salmon steak.. reach there.. order food and eat.. then it was drizzling.. so we walk abit faster back to school.. when we reach school.. whoa... no one at school.. amazing rite? lolz.. all go home study.. heeheh.. oh.. then i started sms someone.. but someone no reply me.. then i chit chat with malvin a while and i go home..

reach home and then quickly shower.. then when finish shower.. someone reply me.. :) then sms her.. and sms.. and sms.. and sms.. chat chat chat... and talk talk.. and and type type.. so yea.. after that.. someone is busy d.. so i dun wan disturb her lu.. told someone i reply someone later.. then after that i went for dinner.. and off i go to gym.. do work out there.. then came back at 9.50.. reach home.. shower again.. and now sms someone again.. someone wanna go to bed d... cause got class tomorrow.. so wish someone nite and sweet dreams.. then someone is off to bed.. then then i go online try to find info on my assignment.. but i dunno how to find,.. so ended up i listening to music.. so.. after awhile.. now i am here to blog.. blog again...

blog so that people noe wat i do.. so that someone can read and take someone's mind off from problems.. :S please stay happy okie?? :) i'll be right by your side for u.. i promise to make u happy.. whenever u feel like giving up.. please remember that i care.. okie?? dun ever make your day not happy... okie la.. so guess all for today.. :) nite nite people.. sweeet dreams. have a nice day tomorrow ya.. :)

p.s sweet sweet dreams k someone... dun think so much.. smile always... may god bless u abundantly... may angles keep u warm tonight.. take good care ya.. have fun tomorrow.. :) tata.....

cause sometimes i dont even know
whether i love you or not
cause sometimes i am so confused
that my mind hurts from all the thinking
cause sometimes i actually feel that
i have the courage to let you go
but there are times
when i think about us
i never fail to feel loved
i never fail to feel blessed
the times were so sweet
that as though it truly belonged to us
at that moment in time
from dont know when
dont know how
dont know why
i realised that i need your love
i want your love
if there is one thing i am addicted to
i am an addict for your love
hug me tight for life
because my body is aching for your touch
kiss me for eternity
because my lips are missing yours on mine
i cant shake that feeling off
i cant stand how much i need you

i need u badly.. can i have u??

2008-07-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. today is sunday.. hahah.. so wat u people did today?? studying hard?? hmm.. guess not rite?? playing?? no also?? hahah.. then wat?? sms?? lolz.. i noe.. shopping?? hmm.. haha.. everyone doing different thing la.. :) so this morning.. i woke up at 8.30.. then sleep again.. then wake up at 9.45.. went toilet and then go back to bed.. and i slept again.. woke up at 11.. then this time i force myself to wake up.. if not i'll feel tired the whole day.. :) so after that went down stairs and looki for food.. drank tea.. ate bread.. then online awhile.. around 12.30.. i went srikl... u noe why? play volleyball with yap liang.. haha.. so as plan.. go there clean up the basketball court cause it's after charity fiesta day yesterday.. so it is very very dirty..

so.. started of with sweepping the floor.. wah.. no joke man.. sweep the whole floor really tiring.. and after that.. carry those flower pots away and mop some sticky spots on the floor.. oopss!!! ya.. i break one flower pot.. shhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun telll people ok?? heheh..then after that.. the sky turn dark. so i guess some one is not as happy as yesterday.. rite someone??? then we pray that it won't rain.. hehehehe.. then after awhile sii nen came.. and he start to say why there got the rubbish bin not clean.. why the floor still got rubbish.. hahah.. and then we start to pick up the remaining rubbish and clear the dustbin.. hahah.. after awhile.. u noe wat?? sii nen ask use to help mr suma to clear the whole field.. the whole futsal court.. there.. great exercise.. sweeep the whole futsal court.. then throw rubbish and everything.. then when it is done.. mr suma gave us drink.. hahah.. not that bad after all..

so after that.. play volleyball awhile.. then suddenly it started to rain.. ai ya.. cannot play liao.. so we all keep things and waited for the rain to stop.. hahaha.. after awhile.. rain stop and we continue playing volleyball.. :) then i went home at 6pm.. then after that go to pyramid.. play bowling.. and eat dinner. after bowling.. i sms someone la.. someone no reply.. must be busy watching tv la.. if not sure not happy one.. cause the sky turn to black today.. so... hmmm.. nvm la.. i went walking around and try to look for food.. walk walk walk for 1 hour.. then finally decided to eat 3JC.. so went in and eat.. someone finally reply.. hehehe.. someone just finish dinner also.. someone gonna watch tv i think.. hehe... after few sms.. someone no reply d.. then then then i wait wait wait.. then then i think someone sleep d then i send one more last sms.. :) stay happy ok someone?? smile always.... :)

after that.. went home and then online.. waaa.. chat awhile then play games la.. so bored.. listen to music while playing games.. haha.. malvin.. sorry la.. u chat with me i dunno.. playing games ma.. gan jeong.. hehhehe.. so sorry.. :) next time call me only.. then i will chat with u online.. hehehe.. after that.. now i came online.. came to blog.. blog for someone to read.. heheh.. so ya.. that's why i am here.. well gtg soon la.. tomorrow monday.. need to go classes.. :) hmm okie la.. guess i shud sleep now..

nite nite people.. sweet dreams... sleep tite.. sleep well...

someone... sweeeeettt dreamss arr.... sleep tite.. rest well and keep smiling.. have a nice day tomorrow ok???? take care ya..:) may angels keep u warm tonight.. god bless ya.. :)

is it because we dont want to jeopardise
the situation that everything is okay
that we chose to ignore the cracks between us?
that we chose to carry on life as normal
as though nothing has happened?
or is it maybe i just simply cant be bothered
talking about those things anymore?
because it will be pointless anyway
somehow
along the way
something between us has changed
do you feel it?
something has changed
and it gives me this weird feeling
or it is just me again?
maybe it is just temporary
but this feeling is scaring me
because this feeling is telling me that
i am ready to let go
and i am not afraid of it

my heart bleeding like a running tap water...

2008-07-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

harloo.. how's everyone?? have fun today?? hmm well. srikl have charity fiesta today.. heheh.. so i guess everyone is happy and tired and sad and many more rite??.. me also tired la.. hehehe.. so ya.. woke up 6.30am.. get ready and go to srikl.. when i arrive.. wahh MR CHEW is waiting for me.. hahahha.. keng leh.. mr chew wait for me ar.. :) then walk with him inside.. then reach the lion dance store room.. i went and organise everything and yea.. get ready for welcoming.. :) then waited there for 30 minutes i guess.. so chit chat and walk around.. :) then suddenly yea.. the TAN SRI came.. so welcome him with the lion.. then got some mistake la.. ken seng make mistake.. hahha.. u ar.. :S after that.. we all faster keep everything and go cc..

they all wanna play dota.. so.. ya.. went and play and then after 1 and a half hour.. my team members win.. my team members are, ken seng, hong yi and me.. :) after that we all went to 7 ELEVEN to buy drinks and food.. hahaha.. u all regret leh.. the mee hoon nice rite?? see syok.. ask u buy more dun wan listen.. then at school ask me to give u eat.. i also not enuf la.. so sorry.. :) so.. went back to school.. eat and drink and rest awhile.. then we all went to the basketball court.. get ready for the second performance.. this time is lion stilts.. ppl call it 'mui fa jong' :) so okie.. we reach there early.. so we need to wait for the stage band to finish their performance.. jeannie and dunno who is singing.. they did okie.. not bad.. at least they dare to sing on stage.. if i were them i think i'll dunno hide where d.. heheh.. okie.. after their band is our lion dance turn.. so went and set up everything.. :)

so. there.. start already the lion dance performance.. everyone was nervous except the musicians and tess yap.. so i guess malvin is snervous.. hahahah.. definately.. then then.. after eveything setttle.. they all did something that make me very pissed.. they all left everything there and go back to the store room to change and rest.. where as me and malvin there carrying and keeping every single thing.. lucky while we were carrying.. yap liang and maxtor came and help.. THANKS YAP LIANG & MAX... :) after that.. when i scolded them.. they only started to go and carry the remaining things.. when everything is packed.. i question each on of them.. so.. do u think u all did wrong?? or i am wrong? just say if u all feel u all no wrong.. okie?? then i'll say sorry.. just feel free to say if i'm wrong ok.. voice out..

after that.. ask chung gene buy me ice kacang.. chung gene went and came back.. he say the queue very long.. then i tell him to tell ppl there.. andrew wan to eat.. then he dun dare.. i went and buy myself lor.. i reach there.. i told livia i wanna eat.. then imediately i got the ice kacang.. ahahha.. chung gene.. keng mou?? :) :P then after awhile me and chung gene went out to buy drinks.. cause there's no more drinks left in srikl.. guess everyone is too thirsty la.. hahah...

after that.. came back and we look for syok and malvin and tess.. saw tess playing the games.. then look around and saw malvin and syok.. they were lining up for a game that there's no ppl serving them.. hahaahh funny la they all.. no ppl there they still wan line up.. lolx.. then after that we all play some games and had fun.. then i got to go home.. go to HEONG KONG.. hahah.. not HONG KONG okie?? :P cha dou leh?? hahahah.. anyway.. i sms someone today.. hehehe.. someone busy so i dun wan disturb first.. then at 8pm i sms someone again.. then chat chat awhile.. then around 9 something i reach home.. still chatting with someone.. oh ya.. today i saw LINDA CHUNG.. so pretty oh.. sure many guys looking at her de lor.. :) ok ok.. back to smsing part.. i sms then i told someone i not happy.. someone noe why la.. but seriously i cannot take it.. :S haih.. well.. then someone wan to sleep d.. so i dun wan disturb lu.. :) nite nite.. sweet dreams someone.. must have nice nice dreams ar.. okiee?? :) glad to hear u have fun and happy today.. :) may everyday is like this for u.. :)

okie okie.. then i play dota again at home.. play halfway boring so i listen to music.. then after awhile i play dota again.. simply play.. ahha.. then malvin chat with me.. chat awhile then he say wan sleep.. wat la.. then he offline i also offline... then now i am here.. blogging.. hehhe.. someone got read my blog or not?? :) hehehe.. must read oh.. okie?? :)

okie la.. i guess i wan to sleep d.. it's late d... hehe.. i'll stop here la.. :) nite nite ppeeepszz.. sweet dreams.. have a great day tomorrrow.. :) take care.. :)

and i love you for you
there is no need to bend to my expections
i started off looking for something
and to my surprise
i found you
you
someone who is so extraordinary
someone who is so special
that you have exceeded my initial expections
of that something :)
hi goddess
:)

i need you tonight..

2008-07-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

harloo everyone.. everything went well today?? hahha.. i went class today.. again accounts class.. seriously.. who is good in accounts?? help me la.. HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need help in accounts.. :( how?? :S

after that.. went to srikl and touch up every single thing for tomorrow charity fiesta.. heehhee.. i think almost everything done la.. just the i hope and pray that the lion will have perfect show tomorrow.. the musician are GREAT!!!! keep up the good work.. but ken seng must hit harder.. your drum no sound la.. :) so tomorrow show me your best.. hit the drum till got hole okie?? then can buy new one.. hahahah.. so ya.. today after training went chit chat awhile and go for lunch.. went to sweet cafe for lunch.. :) hehe.. i ate japanese garlic fried rice.. sedap.. YUMMY!!!! :) then walk back to srikl.. then walk to the canteen and sit..

SUDDENLY!!!! huixin shouted.. WAI HOONG!!!!! i suddenly got schocked and scared.. thought who call.. ehhehe.. then she ask me few things and i sit at samantha tham's table.. chit chat awhile and then hear hanif merican play guitar.. damn he's good.. but still not as good as me la.. hahahhah :P but for his age.. he's good la.. hehe.. then hear sindy corsette's mom sang.. hahha.. no bad also.. good good.. hehehe.. then went to syok's class.. chit chat there.. in the class was me, syok, kean yong and hong yi.. chit chat and chit chat while relaxing.. :) then suddenly.. my gawd.. syok start talking about pms.. ai yo.. come on la.. Pms also wan say who having it now and who dun have.. hahah.. and kean dunno wat is that.. so they all explain.. then i sms someone.. someone was at home watching tv oh.. then someone kinda pissed.. i noe why.. but i not gonna write it here.. hehhe.. then went eat maggi with syok cause feeling abit hungry.. then went to pyramid.. i went bowling and then came home.. after that i go shower.. after shower lie on the bed to wait my hair dry and suddenly all i noe is i am sleeping.. when i woke up is 8pm.. hahahaah.. so nice sleep rite?? hahaha.. okiee

then i sms someone.. someone just finish tuition and going eat.. then i dun disturb someone la.. i watch tv and listen to music.. then around 8.45.. i ate my dinner.. :) after that wash plate and everything.. then i sms someone again.. while waiting for someone reply me.. i listen to music.. i listen to HURT SO BAD.. waa.. sad weih.. everytime i hear this song i feel emo.. :S then suddenly 'GRING" my phone message came.. hahahha.. is someone.. sms a while.. chit chat on who we dun like.. muahahha.. then then someone wanna sleep d.. cause tired.. so okie la.. i also wanna sleep d.. but promise someone i update my blog so tomorrow someone can read ma.. :)

so here i am.. updating lorr.. ehehhe.. tomorrow i need to wake up at 6.. going srikl at 7 something.. need to get ready b4 8am.. haih.. so early.. saturday morning la.. so sad.. so someone gonna teman daddy go breakfast?? :) hehehe.. okie.. guess i have to sleep la..

sleepy d.. :) nite nite.. sweet dreams ya.. someone must have sweet sweet sweet dreams k? hehe.. have a nice day tomorrow.. :) heheh.. take carezz :)

hope it will not be too late
in my world
there was once the presence of your face

just when i needed u most..

2008-07-10T23:15:00.005+08:00

hi.. how r u peepss?? good rite sure good lu.. hehe :) i'm okie.. went class today.. then i told teacher i got things to do and left at 9.. go to srikl and get ready for the rehearsal thingy on saturday.. went there.. then oraganise and start to carry things to the zebra crossing line there and wait.. so we chit chat a bit and i told them wat to do.. then they were like okie okie.. then first round.. we all do.. no one told us wat to do.. so we did and lead the VIP to the basketball court.. then suddenly a man came.. i dunno who.. say dun have to lead the VIP to so far.. nearby then can d.. then we did again. then dunno la.. they not satisfied cause our lions bless the VIP.. so they dun allow that.. so ya.. basically.. our lion just bow and play and end.. weird huh? nvm nvm

then after that.. all pack things and go back to the store room.. there i started to collect money.. collect from them who said badword.. omg.. i kena RM4 la.. haih.. i won't swear again.. then then i went back home.. sleep awhile and then 1 something went back to srikl to train them.. as usual la.. did many things.. train lion, warm up, painting, operation with lion, han yean and penny paint.. THANK U.. :) hehehe..

then finish everything and pack.. so yea.. syok owe me RM4.. malvin owe me RM3.. seng owe me RM2.. tess owe me RM3.. that's for saying bad words.. hehehe.. after that.. while walking to the canteen.. meet huixin near the toilet posing.. nice post huixin.. :) hahaha.. then i thought she going to the canteen.. waited there and guess wat? she disappear.. dunno go where... nvm.hen after that i sms someone.. chat and chat.. make someone happy.. :) sms and after that i busy so i say i sms someone later.. then just now i sms someone.. make sure someone's doing good.. then suddenly.. no reply.. :) so i guess someone sui jiao liao.. :) then me listen to music.. and lie on the bed..

today i dun feel happy.. i didn't eat dinner.. maybe i'm mad at my dad.. who dun listen to me.. dun let me explain,.. so i mad at him.. he dun even wanna listen to my explanation.. :s so yea.. whole time i was in my room.. listening to music and moodless.. guess i'll not be talking to him for quiet sometime.. this is when i need caring.. i need people to talk to me.. i need someone to be there for me.. someone who really care about me.. where are u??? WHERE????????? somewhere??? JUST WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST.. u are not here for me.. i can be the great wall for u.. but when i fall i need a wall to hang on too.. but i couldn't fine any wall.. i cried.. cried for why my dad dun wanna listen to my explanations.. cry cause i got no one to turn to.. oh well.. guess i need to stand back on my feet and start walking.. :( okie okie.. enuf of the sad things..

charity fiesta is near. 2 days.. tomorrow i will be having whole day training at srikl.. so hope they will train hard. and yea.. last day of training... then got another performance.. that is at KOTA KEMUNING GOLF CLUB.. the chariday dinner.. we lion dance member will have a table free for us to eat.. nice rite?? yea.. not bad la.. we can have free dinner.. so that one is not difficult.. it's kinda normal performance.. so okie.. no biggie.. :)

guess i have to sleep now.. my eyes very pain la.. :S so i will be off to bed now.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. someone must have goood good dreams.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CARESZ... may angels bless u tonight.. :)

Your eyes aren't just beautiful,
they are a gateway to a world that I want to be part of..

just when i needed u most..

2008-07-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

she mean the world to me..

2008-07-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

harlo people.. how are u today?? how's school?? hahha.. good? well.. today i went to class.. 10 to 12.. hmm.. it's accounts class.. so.. went in class half and hour late.. lecturer was teaching marginal costing.. so.. when i sat down.. lecturer straight give me question and do.. waaa.. i just come in only la.. :S oh well.. i have to do i guess.. so i look at the example on the white board.. then i try to do.. hehe.. at first was hard a.. but after that okie.. i manage to answer.. hahaha.. smart rite?? hahaha.. self praising.. :P

okiee.. so ya.. after that went for lunch and go to srikl again.. for the lion dance practise.. last minute is like that la.. everyday practise.. hehehe.. :) so reach there.. then started training and everything.. train train train.. so tiring.. and the sun is so hot.. my gawd.. can die weih.. can become roasted chicken.. lol. nvm.. then i drank alot alot water.. :) hehehe.. han yean and penny help to do painting.. :) but u noe i let han yean and penny laugh at me.. :( they laugh cause i speak mandarin very funny..:( really so funny meh?? huh???

after that.. went to the canteen and lepak.. lepak and chat with malvin.. then i sms someone.. ask her how someone feeling today.. someone reply okay lor.. :( means like yesterday.. haih.. and i still think that someone is having hard time to solve the problem.. please let me help u.. many ppl would wanna be your sun.. but i wanna be your mooon... so i can shine on your darkest hour.. can ar?? allow me.. i promise i'll do my best to shine on u.. so just let me noe anytime okie??

so.. after that went home and sleep.. ahahah.. and i wake up at 6.. then drive out and come home.. so boring at home.. then then online.. hahhhaa.. no one online one.. so sien.. :s after that went downstair watch DAVID BLAINE.. wah lau eh.. his magic ar.. i wanna learn la.. damn freaking cool... i wanna learn like him.. but i think cannot gua.. :s nvm nvm.. noe abit can la. hehehe.. then sms someone awhile.. then someone ask me to eat dinner.. dinner was okie.. nothing special la.. then after dinner.. continue smsing someone... then try to confort someone.. try to make someone feel better.. but i think i failed.. :S haih.. but i'll keep trying.. i dun believe i cannot make u feel better.. i'll KEEEP Tryinggg...

so.. i have to pray hard.. pray very very hard

DEAR GOD... please help someone to get rid of the problems.. dun let the problems bother someone.. someone had enuf... someone got so many things to handle.. so please help someone.. lighten up the problems so someone won't feel so heavy.. i pray to u.. because i noe u can help me.. and god.. dun let me down.. i never ask for any help b4.. so please help my fren someone wh is having problem now... AMEN

thank u god.. please help me.. okie la.. so now.. chatting awhile then wanna sleep d.. hehehe.. so.. peeoplee.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite k?? have a nice day tomorrow.. hehe.. enjoy.. and TAKE CAREZZZ... :)

i am missing you at this instant
at this moment
are you missing me too?
if i cant shake off this feeling
i will rather not live
i will rather not
you can never imagine how i am feeling now
my heart aches every breathing moment
it does
and it hurts more every moment

boring day and i injured my hand.. :(

2008-07-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. how's today?? raining heavy this morning.. so i slept till 10.30.. hahahah.. so lazy pig rite?? hehehe.. okiee.. so then went to modify my car.. hahah.. okie la.. tried to make it look special.. but hm.. something cannot function.. so nvm.. i'll keep trying until it succceedd.. :)

okie la.. then went for lunch and like yesterday.. went to srikl at 2pm again.. hahaha.. then did everything same la.. i repair the lion's mouth.. then i do some explaining to the 2 JUMPERS.. that always make mistake.. tess.. i dunno wat in the world is he laughing at.. we left not much times but he still can laugh when he falls.. funny meh?? dunno why.. well.. chong gene is okie.. but sometimes off balance la.. but cannot blame him la... his job is to jump.. wanna jump ngam ngam on the spot.. very hard one la.. when inside lion head some more.. then then han yen and yidan is combing the lion's fur.. hahahah

waaa.. han yen say something that made me and SYOK laugh.. hahha.. then when at 3pm.. waa... suddenly got many people come d.. come chit chat and talk abit.. :) oh ya.. i saw someone.. :) then when bell rang.. all pack up and go home.. and when i carry the heavy base.. shit.. my arm dislocated.. :S nvm la. use to it d la.. but still pain.. :S oh.. then went canteen buy drink.. then i sms someone.. someone dunno wat to eat oh.. :) hehehe. okie la.. then after a while someone busy d i think.. then i went my bowling.. i play like shit la.. lolx.. no mood to play.. heheh.. so ya.. my score is like 170+ for every game..

then when go home i sms someone again.. hahahaha.. someone must be busy.. if not.. someone must be having problems.. as usual someone always got problem one.. i wish i can help her.. i just wanna help her.. wanna do anything that can make someone happy.. so.. someone.. if u reading this.. please let me noe.. please let me help u.. i dun wanna see u sad and moody everyday.. make everyday a happy day okie?? :) so okie la.. then went to grandma's place to have dinner.. then went home.. after that.. before watching CSI.. i sms someone again.. greet her to have swwweeetttt dreaaaammmmsss.... :) then i watch CSI.. waa.. very gan jeong la.. hehehhe.. nice nice.. i like.. :) okie.. then now i online lu. wanna sleep soon d.. after i blog then chat a while.. then go tidur.. hahaha..

so people.. nite nite.. sweet dreams ya.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a nice day tomorrow k?? TAKE CAREZZ... may angels keep u warm tonight..

p.s. someone must have good dreamssss.. angel please help me.. :)

after all this
i realised
you are the only one who knows me best
when i think of you
thinking of me
i feel a rush of warmth in my heart
despite it all
you still know that i am still who i am
i have never changed
do you still think of me?
do you hate me??
or do you still love me?
why do i think of you even more
when i am weak?
i am surrounded with people
but i feel even more lonely
my happiness needs approval
but i cant speak to anyone about my woes

keep smiling.. keep shining... :)

2008-07-08T01:28:00.003+08:00

harlo everyone.. hmm.. today is a boring day as usual la.. went to college in the morning.. then during lunch went to srikl to talk with pn indra about safety precaution.. =.=.. wat de.. she wan me to put rubber on the stilts.. come on la. where can.. put d then not use to it la.. our performance is this saturday la.. ok ok.. skip that.. after talking to her.. went to look for lion's stuff.. wanna repair the lion so it will look nice.. :)

went searching for it.. and finally at 1pm i got everything.. so i went for lunch.. then rest awhile.. then at 2pm.. i reach srikl.. there i was cleaning up the store room a little la.. cause it looks so messy.. then bell rang.. oooh.. guess wat?? i saw someone.. and someone saw me too.. :) hehehe.. okiee.. someone look ok la.. cause from far i couldn't see her mood.. okiee.. then training starts.. tess came down and start planning wat to do.. first time in my life tess wanna do all this wei.. ahhah.. after that slowly one by one coming down.. then when everyone is there.. i told them wat to do and they say okie..

i counted.. 1.. 2..... 3.... go.. then 5 of them carry everything out and set it up.. lolz.. guess how long they take to set up the stilts?? hahah.. 5 minutes 33 seconds.. hmm.. still too slow la.. must be before 5 minutes.. then second time.. ask them to do... waaa
they did it at 4 minutes and 49 seconds.. so i told them if they need to decorate the stilts and everything.. not enuf time.. so third time.. waaaa.. they become superhuman..
3 minute and 38 seconds.. damn fast rite?? hahha.. give them 5 a big hand.. they deserve it.. and then.. we all need girls help ler.. hahah.. so siew hock went and call han yen come to help.. lolx.. yea.. we need her to paint our lions la.. :) so thank u ya..?? :) okie.. after that school end we went makan la.. show pearly my phone.. hahaha.. she now damn jealous d.. :P

after that.. went makan with kean yong and malvin.. ahhaha.. makan and makan.. then 3 of us come back.. when we reach school guard house.. kean yong's sister came @.@.. malvin and i was like.. omg... soo chun.. and then we try to make fun of kean yong saying that we nose bleeding.. hahah.. he started laughing.. so ya.. then walk malvin to the canteen.. and u noe waT?? malvin.. our wonderful good fren.. he scared of girls.. his bag he put on the table.. where beside the table there's CYRENS member.. all the girls la.. so.. malvin dun dare to go take his bag.. my gawd la.. just go take only la.. girls also so scared meh?? then i help him to take.. then after a while he went swimming and i go to pyramid.. while i was eating.. i sms someone.. someone say today was okie.. but tireed.. :) sure tired lor.. sleep so late.. :S nvm nvm.. today hope u can sleep well and rest more k?? :)

okie.. went to pyramid and check out my phone shop.. then went home.. sien ler.. lolx.. when i reach home.. i took shower.. after that rest on my bed and and i fall asleep.. when i wake up it's 8pm.. hahhaa.. so after that lepak awhile in my room.. then went online.. chat awhile.. listening to music.. then go down eat dinner.. after that came up again and chat again.. cannot sms someone la.. someone is busy.. so i do my stuff lu.. then then around 9 something.. i sms someone.. chat awhile then someone wanna sleep d.. then i also wanna sleep.. but yea.. i cannot sleep.. ehehe.. so i went online and listen to music.. then now i am here.. blogging.. :) so sad leh.. hehhe.. oh ya.. have u all buy charity coupon or not?? if not yet can buy from me..

RM60 for 2 booklet free 1 booklet.. come.. buy buy.. wan? :) hehhehe

okie la.. guess i have to sleep d.. :) tired.. :) nite nite peeps. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya. :) have a nice day tomorrow k?? :) take carezz.. hehehe.. someone must have sweet sweet sweet dreams ya... :)

"i've have fear in losing you cause you mean the world to me and you are part of me.."
i dont want to lose anyone in my life anymore because i have already lost people i have loved before..

smile and be happy..!!

2008-07-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY.....

hahhaa.. boring day.. stay at home the whole day.. and of couse sms la.. if i dun sms i think i'll probably die la.. damn boring u noee.. so wat i did.. hmm yea.. woke up in the morning.. then play with my tamagotchi awhile then went brush teeth and go downstairs.. go downstairs look for food.. the first thing i say.. momm!!!!! morning.. got any food for me?? my mom say.. no... u wan then we go out and eat.. omg.. go out again?? with my car.. :S petrol habis lorr.. expensive la mummy.. :S okie.. went out eat 'chap fan' i'm sure u all noe wat is that rite?? then sms someone at the same time.. lolz.. sms and sms.. then told someone about my dreams that came true.. funny rite someone?? my dream.. i also dun believe u noe.. it's like having sixth sense.. heheheh...

and then went with mummy to the saloon.. reach there.. the lady there look at me.. then tell my mom.. your son's hair so little.. u mind me doing some changes on his hair??? my mum say.. sure.. if it's free.. then i look at my mom.. mom!!!!!!!!!!! it's my hair la.. :S u agree to her? my mum say.. try la.. no harm wat.. maybe u look better.. then got more girls to go after.. =.=" mom.. i dun wanna go after girls like a player la.. i already have someone in my heart.. and i am fine with it now.. :( mum say.. but just try la.. maybe i will like the new hair style? well.. okie la.. sincve she wanted it so much... went and do.. hahha.. the lady say not fully perm la.. just little little that no one can notice la.. phew.. i was so glad.. hahah.. took me 3 hours.. sitting at that chair.. my gawd.. my ass also flat d la.. :( nvm nvm.. after that went walk walk so i guess muscle grow back and now big again.. lolx..

that time someone was busy.. eh.. not someone anymore.. it's LINDA CHUNG... so ya.. i couldn't sms someone la.. cause someone is busy.. :S nvm.. so i just listen to music la.. hehhe.. then then after that went for dinner with my family.. then go to my grandma's house.. hehehe.. on the way there i sms someone again.. then chat chat.. then i reach there just sit and sms la.. big ppl talking i just listen lu.. :) hehehe.. oh.. and u noe or not that someone damn chun.. can do 4 things in one time.. 'pui fuk -pui fuk' :) then after a while my cousin brother came back from his gf's house.. then chit chat with him awhile. he taught me how to put OWN RINGTONES to the IPHONE..!!! hahahha.. who wan can ask me.. i do for u.. :) okie.. after awhile then go home la.. on the way home i was dreaming.. dreaming of her.. hehehe.. when i reach home i shower and go online lu.. and then u noe blog is being naughty.. dun wan let me blog.. everytime say error.. so i gave up and went to sleep.. so ya.. sorry people for not blogging.. :S so sorry k?? and off to bed.. zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzz

SUNDAY...

woke up at 7.30... need to go breakfast with grandma.. :S so ya.. i was half awake la.. so i dunno wat i did and i ended up in the car.. lol.. hahaha.. then i went to taman desa to eat.. lol.. u all noe where?? waa... i like the houses there lor.. especially DANAU VILLA.. omg.. superb la.. damn nice.. when i can have those house?? not for me.. for my love ones.. :) maybe sooon?? maybe not so soon?? i dunno.. depands la... nobody likes me also.. :S sob. sob.. :(

after that.. went home and i slept again.. ahhaha.. before i sleep.. i sms someone again.. but no reply.. so i sleep while waiting for someone to reply.. :) then then around 4 something went to pyramid for bowling training.. haha.. lazy to train but i have to train la.. so.. no decision for me also..:S nvm.. good for me in a way.. after that chit chat with my fren and listen to music...and i sms someone again.. someone reply and saying was going for dinner d.. so dun disturb someone first.. then i go work awhile.. hahah.. then dad call and go home.. this time.. dinner at home.. so dinner was fried rice la.. b4 going for dinner.. sms someone again.. then i eat while waiting for someone to reply.. so ya.. after dinner i watch tv awhile and when i wanna listen to music.. someone reply me.. so after someone reply.. i noe something's not right.. something is bothering someone.. something is making someone not happy.. so i ask someone... how r u?? u okie? someone say ya.. okie lor.. why?? no la. i think there's something bothering u.. bla bla bla.. then someone reply ya.. u smart.. but i'm okie.. oh... so guess she's okie.. if not okie can tell me k?? dun keep inside you so u won't feel so heavy ar.. :) me will try to help u.. and make u happy.. okie??

and u stupid bad bad problems that always bothering someone.. LEAVE SOMEONE ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... dun disturb SOMEONE ANYMORE.... just leave her and find other ppl to disturb la.. DUN DISTURB HER!!!!!!!! GET ME?? DUN DISTURB HER.. bad bad problems.. I BURN U AWAY AND BLOW U AWAY... GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun wan to see u (problems) anymore... i order u to go!!!!...

okie.. so erm.. ya.. someone.. be happy ya?? dun be so sad la.. EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!!!!.. smile more ya.. :) anything just sms la.. i will give my best to help u.. and your secret's is always safe in me.. well. okie la.. guess i have to sleep d.. if not tomorrow i'll be like pig again.. so.. nite nite peepsz.. sweet dreams.. someone sweet sweeet dreams k? sleep tite.. have a nice day tomorrow.. :) take care ya.. :)

"we were strangers starting out on a journey, never dreamt of what we have to go through.."
"no one told me i was going to find you, unexpected what you did to my heart.."
"when i lost hope,you were there to remind me this is a start."
"i'll be there when the world stops turning,i'll be there when the storm is through, in the end i want to be standing at the beginning with you."
"never dreamt that our dreams will come true but i knew that there was somebody somewhere"
"i began wondering if whatever you said was true"
"because you live and breathe,you made me believe in myself when nobody else can help"
"cause of you,i made it through every storm"
"i am so glad i found an angel, someone who was there when all my hopes fell"
"anyone can hurt someone they love,hearts will break"
"say that you will believe me"
"i will take another chance,another shot for you"
"i know when someone has been on your mind, that distant look is in your eyes"
"are we just friends, is this how it ends,leaving me here with nothing at all?"
"then there were times you look at me, as though i am all you can see"
"dont make me promises,baby you never did know how to keep them well"

used to.... :(

2008-07-05T00:45:00.005+08:00

harloo.. my day was fine.. nothing much to say about myself at college.. cause always also study study and study.. boring rite?? yea.. so after class my sports manager of inti came look for me.. asking me whether i had go for training or not... like DUHH!!! of course i did la.. without u telling me also i will la.. then went to srikl and waited for them to finish school.. then walk to look for ken seng, kean yong, malvin and syok.. :) before that i was talking to someone near BBC... then someone was there.. someone told me saw me at BBC.. ya.. i was there.. ehhhee.. then we plan to go out to eat.. there we go start to choose places to eat.. we started by selecting places...

malvin = subway
syok = salmon steak
kean yong = asia cafe
me = mc d..

so we all 'lat' after lat they 'jus' hahaha.. so in the end malvin won.. so we go subway... then then when we reach there.. lol.. FULL HOUSE WEI.. so many ppl man.. then we all suddenly just make up our mind and eat at LITTLE TAIWAN.. hahaha.. i order the spicy chicken chop rice i think.. and i order BLUE CORAL.. waaa.. taste like medicine la.. but okiee.. alot alot of pearl bubble.. hahahah then the rest order thier own food.. after that we all started eating and sudden we heard (burst sound) the worker in there dunno do wat then the electricity trip.. haha.. then all black out.. not black out la.. u noe no electricity.. but still got light cause it's afternoon ma.. hehe.. so then after awhile they fix back and got electricity d.. after that while eating halfway.. got girl sms syok.. u all noe who la.. okie?? dun need say.. heheh.. then the funny part is.. syok took the chicken up instead of the handphone cause the hand phone is beside the plate of chicken.. he took the chicken up awhile and then put it back down and get his phonbe.. lolz.. damn funny.. we all laugh.. he also laugh.. :P so siew hock.. hahaha.. your new handphone very 'yeng' leh.. :) after that suddenly the girl came..

excuse me.. erm.. the fried wantan u order just now can change to soup wan tan.. then i was like er.... why??? then she say.. because cannot fried cause no electricity.. then i was like huh?? u need electricity to fry meh?? then i say ai ya.. okie la. anything la.. then faster finish and go back to srikl.. lol.. guess wat??? go back srikl kl.. as usual la.. syok busy sms ppl.. then then i sms someone.. someone is going to shopping wor.. so nice.. then i dun wan disturb someone lu.. after that we chat a while and syok started to ask me many many things.. hahaha.. skip skip

then i went to pyramid and then back home.. then i sms someone again.. see whether reach home d or still shopping.. somoen say just reach home.. hehehe.. okiee... then after awhile someone not free d.. so i do my things and then sms someone again at 9 something.. hehhe.. me keng leh?? i noe malay song.. hahahha. :) remember ar.. tell me when u hear is nice or not ok?? heheheh okiee.. then i surf the net awhile and watch tv.. heheh.. someone is sleeping d la.. so i go watch tv lu.. :) nothing nice.. then that's why i came here to blog.. :) now i'm here.. typing and typing and typing.. hahahha.. soo.. now i gonna end this blog.. hahaha.. tomorrow going anywheere?? boring la.. haih... okie la.. sms someone tomorrow la.. :) before i go..

nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. have a nice day tomorrow.. TAKE CAREZZZ:)

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like we had nowhere we needed to go,nice and slow, to no place in particular.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought we used to know.At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I used to reach for you when I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.Never really cared where we would go,Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.
I look around me,And I want you to be there 'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.It's empty, and you're sad 'Cause you miss the love that we had.
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

the sky represent your feeling today..

2008-07-04T00:04:00.003+08:00

harlo.. how is everyone? today no sun the whole day.. so it is good or bad?? some ppl like it.. some ppl dun like it.. lolz.. so anyway.. today i over slept.. so i didn't go class.. hahha.. so bad rite?? so naughty rite?? hmm.. nvm la.. i think i can catch up gua.. so after that went to eat lunch again.. this time my college lecturer belanja.. hahahah.. i eat SUBWAY.. hehehe.. eat alot alot.. LOL.. she say next time dun wan bring me go eat d.. muahahhaha. sorry la.. i was hungry wat.. :)

hehe.. soo.. ya.. then i went to srikl today.. go EAT RAMLY BURGER again.. lol.. see.. we get ADICTED TO IT D LA.. cham cham.. tomorrow dun wan eat d. :P hehehe.. okiee.. nothing much special happen la.. then i sms someone.. someone is like the sky today oh.. no sun.. no shine.. means someone also no smile.. no happy.. haih.. why la..?? dun think so much la someone.. u see today the whole day u like that.. the whole day the sky also like this.. the sky represent your heart when it shows a streak of grey...:( cheer up k?? hmm someone say getting better d la.. but dunno real or not lor. but i still will help u one la.. try my very very best to make u happy.. :) hhehehhe..

so stupid la.. those guys.. omg.. if i am those guys.. i think i am more that good and lucky to have u.. someone that is so good and kawaii and kind... i think i would die for U lor.. stupid guy who dunno how to appreciate U.. stupid.. nvm.. over liao.. so now. u must make sure u find the correct guy okie?? no matter wat dun do same mistake again oh.. :) someone must be smart d..

you may have someone in your mind.. someone with u. someone beside u. someone in your dream.. but i promise i'll be the someone when u have no one..

so ya.. :) make your day not boring okie?? :) enjoy your day... :) if u have everyday RM86,400 everyday... wat will u do with it?? how will u use it?? how will u spend it?? everyday u will get that amount of money... so... i'm sure u all will spend it rite?? buy watever u wan.. buy as much ask u can.. and try to finish up the money rite or not?? so.. ya.. same like your life.. everyday GOD give u 24 hours.. so fullfill your life. make use of the 24 hours.. okie? dun keep it for tomorrow. cause tomorrow u'll have another 24 hours.. so no point.. make sure you are satisfied with the day.. :) someone must ya.. :) hehehe...

okie.. so i am here.. goonnna sleep soon la.. quiet tired d.. :) so everyone musst try to make use of the 24 hours k?? HAVE A NICE DAY TOMORROW.. NITESS.. SWEET DREAMS... SLEEP TITE K??

TAKE CAREZZ :)

sometimes,
i hate myself for being so useless..
why cant i live without you by my side?
why cant my mind stop wondering what are you doing now?
why cant my mind stop thinking of your smile?
why cant i stop thinking that i am going to lost you?
why cant i just believe you, the promises you made and the words you wrote to me?
why does my heart keeps running back to you no matter how far i try to run from you?
why do i love you so much?
why are you so important in my life?
why does your smile matter so much to me?
why does my heart seems to hurt when you are hurting?
why do i feel so safe and at ease when i am with you?
why do i feel relief when i see you even if my day is crappy?
why does your words mean so much to me?
why do i want to share my world with you?
why do i want to hear your voice so badly?
why do i want to spend the rest of my life with you?
why do i always run to you?
why do i long to see your face once more?
why do i long to spend time with you?
why do i always want you to be the first to share my joy?
why do i want to know about your life so badly?
i cant seem to find an answer...
can you give me a reason?
What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go, when will that night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And girl there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
the most painful thing is seeing the one you love
love somebody else...

SOMEONE's IN DILEMMA........

2008-07-03T00:44:00.002+08:00

hey ya... lolz.. everyone great?? ya.. shud be la.. lolz.. malvin is great.. syok is even greater.. ken seng.. as usual.. funny... hahaha.. kean yong also same.. i POISON him with RAMLY BURGER... hahahhaa.. okie okiee.. wait.. start with my day first.. ya.. went to class in the morning today.. 10 to 12 ler.. sien.. accounts class.. my god.. who is good in accounts?? can help me ma?? i damn suck wei... just got back test papers today.. i got 11.6 over 15... :( i shud have score 15 over 15... cause stupid calculation.. make me get 11.6.. hahah,.. nvm la.. ok ok i guess.. i didn't go for many classes la.. stupid bowling competition and stuff make me skip class alot alot.. anyway.. it's okie i guess.. i can catch up gua.. *cross my fingers*

next i went lunch.. i ate alot la.. lol... then rest till 2pm go to srikl for KOKO.. teach lion dance.. ya.. boring rite?? but i have to la.. wan them to perform like pros.. need to give them as much encouragement as possible.. ya.. malvin and syok.. remember wat u all did.. i dun wanna say it.. if u guys think it correct then u tell me.. i won't scold u.. u all big enuf to think.. okie?? i dun wan to mumble u guys like sii nen did which i think u all hated it.. rite?? so ya.. make sure u noe when to play and when not to play..

after that.. went to eat ramly burger again.. kean yong wanted to eat again.. see i told u.. I POISON HIM WITH RAMLY BURGER.. always wanna eat.. hhaaha.. so we went eat with malvin and ken seng.. now.. if next 10 years.. u see 4 fat fat guys.. u noe why la.. the result of eating ramly burger.. hehehe.. well.. after that walk back to srikl and waited for samantha tham to go home.. she waited there all alone.. POOR THING.. then when her dad came.. the big merz blocking.. sam cannot see her dad's car.. so i told her.. sam. your dad come d.. beside the merz.. :) hahah.. then she went home with smiley face.. :) hahah.. then we went to the basketball court.. then malvin help with his swimming coach.. THE FAT FAT ONE>.... then we all went to buy drinks at primary canteen.. u noe ar.. our wonderful fren.. malvin.. he buy excel i think.. he pay money and left the bottle there.. he dun wan to take.. so good rite?? then he left with me and ken seng.. then after awhile he realize his drink.. haha.. he run back to take.. lol.. so funny.. so next time if anyone of u no money.. u can ask from him la.. he's so kind.. buy the drink and leave it there.. hahahahhahaha.. and and... malvin is busy smsing someone... u noe who and anyone of u wanna noe can ask me.. ahahahhaa:)

so so i went to pyramid.. sibuk at my shop for awhile.. then go back home.. sms someone b4 that.. then someone say wanna sleep.. so let her sleep la.. poor someone la.. someone is not happy today lor.. dunno why.. but roughly can noe la.. oh ya.. SOMEONE PROMISE ME ALOT OF THINGS!!!!!.. forget d ar?? heheh.. no hurry la.. slowly tell me k?? :) then someone wanted to sleep but still cannot.. haih.. i wish i noe how to sing SLEEPING SONG.. so i sing then someone can sleep peacefully.. :( well.. guess she sleeping now.. :) sleep tite ya..

then i went to pyramid again.. play bowling.. but just play for fun la.. ahhaha.. then then went back home and now i am here.. lolz.. actually i wan to sleep d la. but i reach home.. wah.. bertapa bertenaganya aku.. tidak letih dan tidak rasa mahu tidur.. hebat kan?? hahahha.. so.. i now here lor.. listening to music and blog.. :)

okie la.. i wanna sleep d now.. actually no la.. just surf the net awhile then sleep la..:) ok.. have a nice day tomorrow everyone.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. sleep well.. hahahah

take carezzz..
p.s. hey.. make sure u have a nice day tomorrow someone..
p.s. dun be naughty.. study hard huixin.. :P hhahhaha

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise,
I promise
I promise
I will
Will i take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
I promise

this song belongs to you and only you.it is my eternal promise to you.

BUSINESS BUSINESS..

2008-07-02T00:12:00.003+08:00

harloo.. how r u?? hahaha.. sure fine lu.. how's your day?? sure good lu rite?? hmm but i noe someone's day not very good wor.. someone keep thinking and thinking..:( well.. today i no class.. so i stay at home till 1 something.. then went out for lunch and chit chat awhile with frens.. then go to srikl meet with MASTER Q (lou fu ji) they are.. ken seng, malvin and syok..!!! SYOK is siew hock FYI.... :) hehehe.. nice name la.. hahaha..

when school ends.. met malvin and huixin walking to the canteen.. hahah.. poor huixin.. go to school without the tongkat and guess wat.?? wearing the GREEN CROCS sandals.. hahaha.. so greenn.. hehehehe.. nice nice... and went talk with her awhile.. told her about the story ken seng and me we talking that involve her.. haha.. then she also keep saying about it.. haha.. sorry huixin.. not playing your name okie?? i RESPECT your name.. :) buy the way how to write your name in mandarin?? hmm.. okiee.. then went eat with kenseng and kean yong.. order ramly burger.. hhehe.. nice rite?? delicious.. DUN BELIEVE CAN ASK KEAN YONG.. hahhaa.. then i left them there cause i rushing to pyramid for bowling.. lolz..

after bowling.. lepak awhile at pyramid.. then sms someone.. someone wanted to sleep but cannot sleep.. heehehe.. busy thinking and thinking again... :( think so much meh u?? dun think so much okiee?? u need help can always ask me la.. i will help u de.. think till head wanna burst also will help u de.. :) when u wan cook for me eat ar???? not nice also i wan to eat wor.. :) i'm sure will be nice one la.. won't be very bad rite someone??? hehehe.. then sms someone till i reach home.. then someone is busy awhile so someone reply later.. then reply before she do homework.. then after awhile someone wanna sleep wor.. so someone sleep lu.. but i only give her permission to think and think for awhile only.. if u think alot alot leh.. then next time i dun wan give u think and think liao .. okie?? promise??

okiee lu. then i listen to music.. and music.. then i now here.. blogging.. hahaha.. cause someone wanna read.. i must blogg. lolz.. and and remember ar.. find me if u need someone to lend a ear.. :) okie la.. till then.. i think i wan sleep also.. tired d.. :) nite nite.. sweeet dreamss.. sleep well ya.. dun FALL FROM BED... :P tata.. have a nice day tomorrow k?? see ya..

TAKE CAREZZ!!!!!

its as though i have been reborn
i never felt as beautiful as i have now
i am so so so freaking loved! :)
its contentment
its happiness
its bliss
its love
there's a name for it
its..
love relationship :)
and it is not just any type of relationship
its the soul connection
between us
how comfortable we are in each other's presence
how we can always make each other laugh on a bad day
how we always stand side by side to help each other
just in case we fall
how we know there will be someone there to catch you when you fall
how we know if you feel broken, they will be there to make you whole again
how i always make you right
how we always laugh till our stomach hurts
how we always make fun of each other
how we always never fail to have fun
how we always know the clouds will be chased away
the truth is
we just know
because we experienced it
because we have it
can anything be more perfect than this?
for me
nothing
for me
this is the best i can ever have
i have the love from
you
you
you
you
you
you
thank you
thank you for giving breath to my life once again :)

hahahha.. same routine.. lolz..

2008-07-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

harlo.. peeps.. how's first day of the week in school?? ahhaha.. good ar? me good la of course.. class at 2pm to 4pm but lecturer end my class at 3pm.. hahha.. she's getting lazy.. well.. dun care la.. we fail we sue her.. lolz.. okiee.. then walk to srikl meet with frens and eat lu.. hahaha..

so now.. saw sher and jo at primary canteen.. then chit chat awhile.. then teerachel came.. she shouted.. ANDREW!!!!!!!!!!!! dun move.... i stop like wat she say.. then she ask me take out my hand.. i took out and she gave me rubbish.. =.=' i thought wat ask me dun move.. give me rubbish.. HUMPHHH!!!!.. dun wan fren u.. hahaha.. kidding la.. then next saw min.. talk to her about my tamagochi.. she taught me how to play la.. but i still kinda blur cause u noe.. NOOB ma..!!!! hehhee.. okiee.. then went to eat at salmon steak and then go back to srikl.. lolz..

back at srikl.. malvin need to go swimming training.. so left me and ken seng.. and this wat happen.. i say wanna go toilet.. then he also wanted to go.. so we went to the toilet above secondary canteen.. then after that.. came down. chat chat.. and i saw livia's bag.. then i told ken seng.. livia's rite.. then he went and check.. ya it is.. then ken seng wan to lok for livia.. while walking to the courtyard.. we terserempak dengan dia.. haha.. ken seng first to run.. i just say hi and continue walking.. then we walk back to canteen.. after that.. this is the word that make me BLURR and LAUGH for quiet sometime.. :)

[in cantonese la k?]

me: ngo yiu hui pyramid la..
ken seng: mm moi hui xin....
[stop and think... why is he telling me mm moi huixin (dun wan huixin) when i told him i wan go pyramid]
me: har?? meh mm moi huixin?? huixin mm tuck mm moi la..
kenseng: mm moi hui pyramid xin..
me:oh.. mm moi hui sin...
ken seng: hhahhahaa.. (laughing)
me: laugh and laugh...

so this ken seng.. always say things not clear.. make me misunderstand... ehe.. okie.. then i went to pyramid.. sms someone.. someone reply.. then chat for along time until at nite.. 8 something.. still sms.. then then someone went home at 10 something say very hungry wor.. wan make things eat.. but someone at tau foo fa... yummy.. i also wan eat d.. u ar.. make me 'lau hau sui' :) hehehe.. nvm la.. u hungry ma.. i not.. hehhee.. someone cannot read my blog today ler.. :( so sad.. stupid MAXIS BROADBAND.. useless one.. cannot go online one.. :( then after a while.. someone wan to find the bed.. so.. end there lu.. then i continue listening to music and check on my emails and chat a bit.. then try to play with my tamagochi while waiting for her to reply.. but until now.. 1 something. no reply i guess she sleeping d la.. ehehe.. that's all lu.. then now i wanna sleep liao.. lolz.. nite nite... sweet dreams ya.. sleep tite.. have a wonderful day tomorrow.. tata.. take good carez..:) see ya..

its always people who i have never expected to betray me
betray me.
and once you betray me
you will never ever earn my trust again
never ever again will you have my trust once more
i will tell you the trival things in my life
but never never never
my private matters
now i regretted telling you one of my private matters
but its ok
it doesnt matter
because from now on
i wil stop having any more regrets.........

YEAH!! RM500.... fourth placing

2008-06-30T01:36:00.002+08:00

harlo peeps... how's today?? hahaha.. got go anywhere?? lolz.. boring day?? some people went for volleyball competition.. some one went for bowling competition.. someone went to grandma's house.. someone went to srikl with tongkat.. hahha.. :)

okie okie.. first la.. today morning.. i went to mines shopping centre for bowling competition held by dunno who.. haha.. kena send there and play.. so i was nervous la.. as usual.. hahaha.. and i was bowling and the stupid lane damn dry.. my bowling ball is like curving like whoa.. who noes wat.. well.. anyway.. i change abit and manage to get 4th position la.. hard tho.. 4th got rm500 u noe.. hahaha..:P well during the competition.. got this girl.. omg.. always stand behind my lane and cheer for me.. then everytime after my throw.. she will smile... then wan me to high 5 her hand.. lolz.. just do only lor.. heheh.. anyway.. ya.. so finish at 12.30pm.. then while waiting for price presentation.. i sms someone.. someone who went to grandma's house.. haah.. on the way home worr.. hehhee.. someone ate goreng pisang.. eh.. pisang goreng or goreng pisang? which one?? tell me k?? anyway.. ask someone to drink alot alot of water... if not later sore throat ler.. :) hope she did.. hehehe.. ya.. after that suddenly someone no reply d.. i guess someone busy watching tv la..:( or doing homework.. so.. your homework finish ar??

haha.. after that.. i went to pyramid.. buy socks and buy other stufff.. then buy my LCD monitor.. spoil d la.. so buy new one.. hehehe.. so happy with my new LCD monitor.. haha.. then then went to parade.. i went to buy the TAMAGOCHI... all my bowling mate has one.. hahaha.. so i go buy.. and then huixin and huimin got one also.. hehhe.. yay.. got ppl play.. eh.. dun laugh okie?? it's not stated for wat age to wat age.. so it's okie.. :) heheh.. ya. very hard la.. dun really noe how to play.. HUIXIN.. teach me...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahah.. today very short blog huh?? lolz.. sorry la.. today nothing much happen ma.. so like that lu.. someone busy watching tv and then take 2 hours finish homework.. then someone slept dunno till wat time i forgot.. hahah.. sleepy head..:P nvm.. i also sleep la.. but i slept for 1 hour only.. hehhe.. i not pigg..

after that.. reach home.. and now i am here.. so boring rite? my whole day just did think kinda things.. sad sad.. and i think someone is asleep d.. so i blog now then wan sleep also la.. kinda tired d.. hehe.. well.. everyone.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well ya.. have a nice day tomorrow ar.. :)

take carezz... see ya...:D

so how do you expect me
to live alone with just me?
cause my world revolves around you
it’s so hard for me to breathe

boring day.. but OK.. not that bad...

2008-06-28T23:41:00.002+08:00

harlo.. everyone.. how's your day today? went shopping?? hehhahha.. i noe someone cannot go shopping cause of her leg.. hahaha.. someone got tuition also.. so this two person cannot go shopping.. hahah.. others leh??

anyway.. i went pyramid at 11.30am.. until 4pm.. so at 11.30.. i start walking and talking to my frens around pyramid.. hahah.. then suddenly kenseng call..

ken seng: lei hai pin dou
me: pyramid lor..
ken seng: yao lane mou???
me: mm ji or.. ngo dou mou hui thai...
ken seng: lei hui check la. yue gor mou lane ngo mm sai hui..
me: ok ok.. check jor sms lei...

(went and check and didn't sms but call)

me: yao lane ar.. fai deed lei la..
ken seng: ok ok. yi gar lei gan..

hahaha.. then he came.. then while waiting for him at 1.40pm.. someone reply my sms.. hehehe. so we chat awhile and then she not free.. so i dun disturb her.. then then play bowling d.. then i went home.. then shower time... hahaha

i went and shower first.. then my brother's turn.. i came out from the shower.. my brother went in... this is wat happen..

brother: kor kor.. how u shower???
me: HAR?? ( cannot hear cause it's block by 2 doors..)
brother: how u shower la...
me: shower only la.
brother: how?? no water also..
me: (laugh and laugh) sure la.. no water.. so must use tangki water..
brother: stupid.. say la.. i thought how u shower when no water..
me:(none stop laughing)

hhhahahha.. then we went pyramid.. went pyramid i bowl again.. this time serious one la.. lolz.. after that went eat dinner.. after that got home.. now i am here.. hahaha.. smsing with someone.. someone say listening to music.. and then suddenly i think that someone tertidur la.. no reply me.. i waited so long.. haha.. i guess that someone sleep d lor.. :) anyway

i going sleep also.. need to wake up early la.. got bowling competition tomorrow at 9am.. hahaha.. wish me luck ya.. :) well.. nite nite ppl.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. eehhee.. oh.. sms me tomorrow when u free ya?? take carez...

p.s... HUIXIN... get well soon.. dun wan use tongkat la.. hahaha.. tak ngam la.. lolz.. take carezz

the most painful thing is seeing the one you love
love somebody else...

SING..... sing.. and sing.. not ken seng!!!

2008-06-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

heyyaa people.. lolz.. how's everybody?? good?? friday d.. saturday and sunday can rest.. hehehe.. so.. didn't do anything much la.. hep with hehe.. just went for class and meet up with SYOK and MALVIN and KENSENG and KEAN YONG.. hehehe.. then went play dota awhile.. then go pyramid.. reach there around 3.15pm.. then walk to red box. hahahahahha

then i went it ask whether got room or not.. the girl which i noe but dunno her name.. say no more room la.. 4pm only got.. so i book for 4pm one la.. then we go eat first at KIM GARY.. after that.. we order alot alot of food.. imagine... 4 ppl eating.. but but... got 13 dishes including drinks.. hahahha.. after eating.. we all decided not to go redbox.. we plan to play bowling.. then.. i have to run all the way to redbox to cancel the room.. wat la.. potong stim only.. :(

hehe.. went to bowling alley.. then no lane to bowl cause got competition.. hahah.. next time ken seng say go 'cheong k' we all agreed and went.. lolz.. while walking there.. everyone say.. ' i dun wan sing ar..'' i dunn how to sing la..'' so i just sit only ar.. then went to red box.. the girl look at me.. then smile cause i cancel the room and i came back.. hahah.. then then.. do everything and settle all the things.. then go into the room.. went inside.. everyone saay wanna sleep la.. wanna rest la.. very tired la.. then i started to take the remote and select the first song.. it's a malay song la.. 'MUNGKIN NANTI'.. then i started singing it.. when i start only.. my gawd.. ken seng (can sing) really become ken sing weih.. he started selecting song and sing.. hahah.. so we all sing and sing and sing.. laughing alot.. sing alot.. then then i only sang 3 chinese song.. sad huh/? hahaha.. dun care la.. i sing the most.. siew hock second and kean yong and ken seng same same.. hheehhe.....

the funny thing is.. when we sing.. we all so brave.. then got waiter open the door.. we all keep quiet.. like dunno how to sing like that.. the door close only.. there goes.. we all.. sing again.. hahaah.. funny rite??? then went to walk around with SYOK.. hehe.. then he chit chat with me about someone.. keep asking me alot alot of questions.. hehehe.. i also dunno how to explain la.. anyway.. then eat dinner and went home..

after shower.. i sms someone.. hehehe.. sms alot.. then i told her something la.. something important.. wait wait.. important for her to noe i guess.. anyway.. after telling her.. i feel bad.. bad cause i think i made her sad.. made her think alot again.. :S I'M SORRY SOMEONE... i dun mean to make u sad... SORRY SORRY k?? u promise me to tell me oh.. i remember.. and and.. dun worry ya.. i'll always support u.. and stand on your side.. so u can just tell me every thing so u dun feel so heavy cause those problems is in U... i promise i would keep my mouth SHUT.. very very TITE.. if i ever open my mouth and tell.. i'll lose all my teeth.. okie?? and.. smile ar..??? i sms u tomorrow ok?? hehe.. oh ya.. someone.. next time i go sing k.. i ask u go okie?? we all go together.. hahah.. then can have fun..

oh ya.. HUIXIN... how's your leg? pain pain?? hehhe.. dun walk so much la.. later got darah again ler.. dun walk so much ya.. hehehe.. and and.. GET WELL SOON... :) hehehe..

lastly. i will always update my blog.. so i won't disappoint my blog fan.. hehehe.. anyway.. soo.. ya. it's 2am now.. i'm sleepy d.. i gtg sleep now.. nite nite peep.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. hehe.. sleep well.. take carezz..

P.S... i'm sorry ar...

dont walk in front of me
for i fear i may not catch up in your life
dont walk behind me
for i want to be the first to catch you when you fall
walk beside me instead
this way
i know you are always there
and you know
i am always there too....

happy day... but hot la.. :(

2008-06-26T20:35:00.002+08:00

harlo people.. how's today?? i noe.. today very hot.. hehehe.. okiee.. so today went to college early in the morning.. 8am.. my gawd.. wanna wake up also susah.. maybe i lazy la.. like someone lazay do homeworkk :P.. heheh.. anyway.. class got test.. so i went and do.. finish in 1 hour 30 minutes.. hhee.. remaining time i try to sleep.. but u noe.. cannot sleep la.. use my brain too much.. so my brain that time not sleepy.. haha..

after that.. nothing much to do from 10am to 2 pm.. just busy playing with my car stuff.. hhahha.. then 2pm went eat lunch.. alone weih.. so sad.. after makan then i continue playing with my car.. then around 3pm.. drove to srikl.. haha.. on the way to srikl.. means in front of srikl back gate.. got one squirel run accross the road.. and.. and.. OOPSS!!!! i killeedd it.. omg... :S i dunno.. not my fault la.. okie?? i'm innocent.. dun blame me la.. the squirel mummy didn't teach him look left and look right only cross the road.. soo.. blame who???? :S

anyway.. reach srikl.. park my car then start to walk in.. walking in then i saw this car.. a lady.. inside the car.. digging her nose.. eeeeww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. excuse me auntie.. please do that in toilet la.. not public.. yuck!!! she some more after digging go rub rub her finger.. eeewww!!!!!!!!!! disgusting.. dun wan say d..

anyway.. after that teman huixin go to sjmc with ken seng.. then eat there and go back home.. lolz.. sms with someone.. then told her alot of things.. hahaha.. and that someone wan me to blog now so she can read.. yea.. so here i am.. blogging.. haha.. eh.. wait.. i eat dinner first.. then continue sms.. then that someone wanna read my blog.. so i blog now lu.. hehe.. thank u for reading my blog.. :) oh ya!!!!!!!!!!!.. DUN SCARED OF PMR la.. very easy only.. trust me.. if u can score in your school exam.. in PMR u sure and confirm can score.. dun scared ok?? if scared u study harder.. then confirm can la.. :) sure sure.. very sure.. i not lying.. so someone... please dun be scared..

hahhaa.. tomorrow me and siew hock and ken seng going pyramid.. u dunno wat we gonna do.. lolz.. very fun thing i guess.. *ahem ahem* not gay okie?? something that la.. lolz.. go singing la.. haha.. RED BOX.. i wanna sing.. :):)

so ya.. erm.. that's all for now.. ehh.. tonight.. semifinals.. SPAIN vs RUSSIA... how la?? who gonna win?? *cross my fingers* i wan SPAIN to win... okiee.. till then.. see u all.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. have a wonderful day tomorrow ya.. haha.. take carezz..

you are exceptional, just the way you are
there is nothing to change about yourself
you are perfect just the way you are
just the way you are
i told everyday
i told you every night and every way
i love you
i cant love you any less
i really cant
because every bit of me is loving you
with all its might
every moment
every second
and when i breathe,its you i breathe
i dont want to forget that i am addicted to you
in fact
i want to be addicted to you forever..

lonely..... tiring... useless......

2008-06-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

harlo.. how's everyone?? good?? hmm... i am okiee.. tiring.. boring.. hehe.. so ya.. today went class.. then nearly fall asleep in class.. cause the lecture was damn boring.. oh well.. skip skip.. anyway.. after that went to srikl to teach lion dance.... there.. i reach early.. then met with tess yap.. then while i was doing warm up.. suddenly he ask me to bet with him..

tess yap me... ( speak in cantonese)

eh.. wanna bet??

bet wat??

i bet u RM10 ringgit that u cannot do split..

okie.. deal.. take out your ten ringgit first... ( looking at him taking it out)

tadaaa!!! i did.. then

wahh ma hai.. cibai fuck.. diu.. lan pa..

then i laugh and took his 10 ringgit.. then he start to beg me to give him back his ten ringgit.. but too bad.. he bad with me.. so he have to pay me.. ahhaha.. so i got rm10 ringgit.. hehehe.. ^^ smart huh?? he thinkk i cannot split.. lolz. then now he dun dare to bet with me already.. hahah.. so.. after that.. carry things from GREAT HALL to the canteen.. do those setting up and get ready for training.. hehehe.. so ya.. 3 guys still owe e 40 push ups and 1 guy owe me 10 push up i think.. dun need mention name la.. u all noe who.. if mention name then u all no face la.. always late.. na.. late some more la.. kena push up.. hehhe...

okiee.. after training.. everyone left.. left back me and 3 more guys.. bloody hell.. 4 of us carrying the base back.. damn bloody heavy la.. haih.. back bone also can break la.. malvin backbone almost break.. haahaha.. so.. after that went to watch ppl play volleyball.. then i went to pyramid a while and came back home... hahaha.. then eat and chat la.. as usual at nite i do the same thing la.. chat and wait for dinner.. lol.. then chat with siew hock on the phone for 1 hour.. hhahahh.. his bill go damn high.. sure kena marah.. lol.. hope she tak kena marah la.

other than that.. got sad stuff but i dun wan mention here la.. glad u had move on .. and not staying at those bad bad days u have.. glad u noe how to move on.. may haveall the happiness in life and god bless..

well.. nite nite peepsz.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. oh ya.. tomorrow someone going hospital.. dun need scared la k?? technology very keng d.. so no pain one la.. smile and think of volleyball.. hahahha take good care ya.. :)

what is the most important elements in any relationships?
its simple
TRUST
and
HONESTY

sad day!!!! sorry for wat i've done......

2008-06-25T01:28:00.003+08:00

hey.. did everyone have a good day?? i hope u all did have a wonderfull day.. me...??? my day was so so. so so until i feel like giving up of being me, myself, my very ownself... so.. woke up in the morning.. did nothing.. then went to college and search for bowlers to play for college competition.. my gawd.. cannot even find la.. shit.. how to join competition when there's no bowler.. so ya.. after that went to srikl to meet them and talk.. lolz...

so when i'm there.. then siew hock ask me to sit beside him and he starts talking.. talk talk talk talk.. and okiee.. then he told me about few ppl..

firstly.. dun feel bad okiee?? dun have to at all.. cause it's my pleasure.. and promise me not to feel bad... oh ya.. how's your throat?? drink more water la k?? soo.. may god bless her.. hope she get well soon.. no wonder today i see her like so tiring.. hmm not that after training that kinda tiring face.. but another one.. when u fall sick that kinda tiring face.. oh well.. so ya.. get well soon k? :)

then after that school end.. then everyone went home. siew hock wan me to say hi to someone. lolz.. as usual i didn't.. cause she's not looking at me la.. how to say wor?? shout out her name meh?? feel very weird one lorr.. soo anyway.. haha.. HI....... :P say now also same la.. hehehe.. okie okie.. then then..

went to pyramid.. try to get my brother's laptop fixed.. see him every nite try to format his laptop.. every nite b4 sleep he sure try one time.. my gawd la.. seeing him like this.. i feel so pity.. that's why i took it to pyramid to repair.. then u noe how much it cost??? UURRRGGGHH..!!!! RM 80.. wah liao.. expensive man.. but oh well.. he's my brother.. cannot do anything la.. so ya.. then went home .. put the laptop on his bed and continue with my shower and online.. then then went down eat dinner.. after that.. came back to chat.. didn't chat much tho.. just busy listening to music and SMS.. hehehe.. okiee.. theen.. around 10.30pm.. i sms joanne.. and............

and i find out something that not good to hear.. u noe wat?? well.. i dun wanna say la.. i dunno wat i did.. someone ask me to leave her alone.. not joanne but..... someone la.. just someone.. anyway..

since u wan me to leave u alone.. okie.. i'll make it up to u.. leave u alone.. everything i did to u.. i'm sorry.. i'm sorry if i make u angry or anything.. those time u ask me to teman u and all.. i'm happy during those days.. those days at pyramid.. we talk alot and argue alot.. not real argue but.. u noe.. that kinda argues.. okiee.. so now... i say no more sorries to u.. i'll just make sure that u happy and get watever u wan in your life.. i from today this very second.. will not bother u anymore... and leave u alone.. *heartbroken*

well.. i dunno what i did actually.. arrrggghhhh!!!!!!. damn it.... u think there's no one who will support u?? u noe there's no one who gonna stand on your side?? to tell u the truth.. i will.. even i have to crawl, to kneel, to die... i will stand on your side and support u.. support till the very last breath of mine.. i noe i'm abit dramatic.. but seriously.. i am serious.. i swear.. anyway..

I'M SORRY!!!!!!

so okie.. now.. next.. if u reading this.. dun be shy okie?? just talk to him a while and see how it goes.. if u shy then just find excuses and leave lor.. if not u continue talking la.. hehe.. dun so shy ya.. :) if u scared then u find your fren la.. teman u.. :) hehe.. have a nice day tomorrow.. and and..

joanne.. thanks for letting me noe.. thanks for helping me.. if not i think i still dunno anything.. thank u and thank u once again.. :)

well lastly.. i would like to say i'm sorry again... well peepzz.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. have a nice day tomorrow.. take carezz and see u..

and this time
i am taking baby steps
to not rush
and just see how things are going
to be patient
when i am impatient by nature
baby steps
is what i am doing now
cause it still seems so uncertain

HAPPY DAY!!!..:) ehehhe..

2008-06-24T01:08:00.004+08:00

hey peeoplee... how r u all doing? haha doing good?? studying hard?? lolz.. exam coming sooon.. must study hard ar.. hheheh

HUI XIN.... CONGRATS!!!! got first in class weih.. CHUN.. keep it up ya.. keep up the good work.. :) next exam try harder.. i noe u can do it.. :) wat u wan ar?? mc d?? hahha.. i treat u mc d la.. okiee?? :) if wan then sms me ya.. :) eehehhe

so.. today.. my day was okie.. so so ler.. but u noe wat happen?? when i was walking joanne to the admin office.. i saw her cousin.. then say hi to her cousin.. smile.. then 'zeng zeng zeng zeng'... i notice something.. i notice someone is not happy.. i can tell she's sad.. then when they went home.. i sms joanne..

joanne me

hey.. where u now?? at home d?? how r u today?? eh.. your cousin ok or not?? she look sad.. :S
ya.. at my cousin's house.. yup.. she's fine la.. not angry la.. why everytime u sms me to ask about her..??
sorry la.. not i dun wan sms her.. she now so sad or pissed at someone.. i sms her i ma kena lor..
nothing la.. she's okie.. :)

then then.. i went pyramid a while and go home.. reach home faster finish up my home work and go online.. hehe.. chatting at first.. then go dinner.. then came up to the room to continue my chatting.. hehe. and then.. i visit ppl's blog and and.. guess wat i saw?? i saw joanne's cousin's blog..

wah lau.. DAMN HIM MAN.... althought i dunno him.. BUT WTF la.. stupid idoit asshole.. *cencored* i cannot say it here la.. cause it's not my problem.. but.. HEY GIRL.. DUN SO DOWN LA... DUN SPOIL YOUR LIFE WITH THIS KINDA PPL.. U MUST BE HAPPY...... anything or u need to borrow a ear.. can just sms me or call me.. i'm always here.. eh.. wait.. a ear or an ear?? wth.. my english going from bad to worst. :S shit.. anyone can help me??

so.. wait.. i'm sorry for those vulgar words.. sorry.. :) anyway.. ya.. like i said.. just find me anytime ya.. :) dun need to worry cause i am someone who will listen and dun complain.. ppl who noe me will noe wat i'm saying.. okie??? so PROMISE TO BE HAPPY?? i promise joanne to make her happy tomorrow la.. i will do so.. make sure she's happy.. tell her some lame jokes then she will laugh her head off and guess she will forget it gua.. *cross my finger*..

okie.. so ya.. i noe.. it's late d.. so i have to go sleep.. i noe i shud stop blogging d.. if i go on.. hahhaah.. u noe la.. dun need i say also u noe wat gonna happen.. ya.. so.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. have a wonderful day tomorrow.. take carezz. :)

JOI GEEN LA.. bye bye..

cause i have trained to live for you
to breathe for you
for you and only you alone

SOMEONE'S BIG DAY!!!!!

2008-06-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARYN... MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE... HAVE A NICE DAY.. ENJOY YOUR DAY (23 JUNE) MAY GOD BLESS U ABUNDANLY AND MAY ANGELS BE WITH U EVERY SECOND... MAY U BE HAPPY FOR THE REST OF THE DAYS.. KEEP SMILING AND STAY HAPPY.. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARYN.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..

hmm.. so ya.. like u saw on my blog.. it's someone's BIG DAY.. :) hehe.. hope u have fun today ya.. :)

okie.. so.. firstly.. i'm sorry for not updating la.. i feel lazy la.. and then i learn how to change everything and now my blog looks cool.. got jealous or not?? ehhe.. me keng leh??? as usual la.. lolz.. self praise again.. (learn from someone la). okie la.. i promise i will update as often as i can la okie?? :) heheh.. so ya.. lately i'm okie.. and i'm fine.. :)

okie.. next.. i'm sorry.. sorry that u think i'm avoiding u.. but actually i'm not.. i see u that time i wanted to say hi.. but u were looking else where.. when i dun see u.. u think i avoid u.. sorry la.. and i seriously i never even blame u for doing so.. trust me okie?? and I TRUST u.. u and i.. gonna be frens forever.. ONCE A FREN ALWAYS A FREN ok?? no matter how much u hate me.. FRENS OK?? :)

now... who wanna go red box again?? come la.. everytime i ajak nobody wan go one.. :( dun need noe how to sing one.. i also dunno how to sing.. is ing i think those tv and glass will break la.. so no worry.. we all in the same boat.. hahah.. :) so faster.. go REDBOX with me la.. hehe.. ok ok.. so other than that.. okie la.. this and that la..

next.. I MISS U LIKE CRAZY.. a simple touch of your hands can make everything alright.. :) hehe.. and i dunno why u can do this to me.. i noe i cannot be selfish.. but i really cannot take it and accept it when i see u with 'BUSES'.. seriously.. is just something that i cannot take it.. OUCH!! PAIN PAIN... :(

oh well.. lastly.. I HOPE U LIKE THE PRESENT, SHARYN... :)
have a nice day and TAKE CARE PPL... nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. take care ya.. :)

adios..

aku memang pencinta wanita
namun aku bukan buaya
yang setia pada seribu gadis
KU HANYA MENCINTAI DIA....
AKU CINTA PADAMU.........
TI AMO TE QUIERO.. <3

happy father's day!!! :) LOVE U DAD..

2008-06-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

harlo ppeeeepszz... as everyone knows.. it's FATHER'S DAY.. hehe... so wat did u all make for your daddy or get for your daddy?? hehehe.. buy him dinner?? hmm.. ok la.. not bad la..

me.. i wake up then after 12 only i wish him.. cause i busy playing guitar.. hehhe.. cause i wanna dedicate a song to my daddy.. hehehehe.. the lyrics is here...

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure, I was loved.
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again.
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me (ooh)
And finally make me do just what my mother said
Later that night when I fell asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me.
If I could steal one final glance,
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again.

hmm.. this is the song la.. but i think is okie la.. not too good la.. hehhe.. after that.. i went summit buy things.. hehe.. spend almost RM50 bugs just for CDs... waa lau.. cost me alot weih.. wat man.. then i owe many ppl things.. so i guess i have to die.. so they won't come after me to claim from me.. :( oh well.. gonna sleep soon.. hehehhehehe..... cause i dun wan my brain cells to die fast.. so i have to have enuf sleep la.. :)

okiee.. nite nite ppeeppzz.. sweet dreamss ya.. sleep tite.. sleep well.. hehe.. take good carezz..

Now what has gotten over you
You seem to hate your parents too
Do speak out your mind
Why do you find them wrong
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you live

just when i trust u...................

2008-06-12T19:32:00.003+08:00

why..??? why??? why??? this question always appear in my head.. i wonder why.??? actually me myself also dunno why...

first.. i have a fren... who i believe her and trust her and told her all my secret.. and the next time i noe is she todl everyone my secret... and the same girl.... she wanna get fame.. when i start to plan for someone's birthday.. i sms her and ask her who to invite.. she just told me.. 'i plan la.. cancel yours' =.=.. okie.. fine.. my planning sucks.. so i leave it all to her.. and nearing 8th JUNE.. she can tell sher-maine this answer.. 'DUNNO'.. wtf la.. she's the one who say wanna plan.. now she say dunno.. damn freaking pissed.. nvm.. i plan everything.. and and.................. i am eating the cake, the ice cream by myself on that day.. oh well.. nvm.. someone's big day.. so cannot be mad... then that girl who say wanna plan but in the end didn't plan.. she told someone different story.. wtf.. wanna frame me?? wanna blame me?? go ahead and blame me.. mch...

second.. some i trusted.. someone i care for alot.. someone i think can be part of me.. someone i think i can trust the most.. in the end.. *the pieces of my broken heart can pass thru the eye of the needle*... that's how freaking hurt i am.. but oh well.. i have to respect your decision la.. it's your decision and i have to respect it.. that's because i hope u can be part of me.. maybe u dun need me to be part of u.. so no need to be sorry okie..?? dun worry la.. i'll be okie.. just stay happy and do wat u think is correct.. i'll always respect your decision and support u..

third... why someone is treating me cold?? the times we have last time.. the times we sms and talk last time.. all gone with the wind.. how i wish there's no wind.. haih.. someone who is so close to me and just like my small sister.. can suddenly turn to be a stranger.. just because someone who didn't kept her promise.. so is that so?? if i have the chance.. i wouldn't wan u to noe exactly how i feel about u.. i rather u dunno than u treating me like this now.. and my decision is always bad.. u noe why i have to tell u?? because.. if i tell u at least i noe whether there's any chance i could be the one who u can hang on.. the one u can lean on.. the one u need when u are breaking down.. and if i dun tell u .. i dun even noe whether i can have u or not.. but when u noe the answer.. u treated me like i'm a stranger to u.. everything i do i do it for u.. dun u see that?? oh well.. guess she dun.. nvm la.. be happy k?? have the best thing in life....

okie la.. guess i got nothing to say d.. and lastly.. dun be sorry k?? i noe u reading this.. so dun have to say sorry.. i'm okiee.. cheerzzz.. take caree ppl..

a love that is not spoken but we both know well
that this love will always existin yours
in mine
someday
we will look back and savour those memories
when our hearts beat as one
when our laughters were our song
when tears were being kissed dry
you never let me know it
you never let it show because
you loved me and obviously
there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on like"i wish i could talk to you for a while"
"i wish i could find a way try not to cry"as time goes by
and as soon as you reach a better place
still i'll give the whole world to see your face
and i'm right here next to you
it feels like you are gone too soon
the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

BORING LA

2008-06-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

BORING BORING BORING:(

OMG!!!!! i'm BROKE.. hahahhahah.. :P

2008-06-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

harlo peeps.. sorry for not updating la.. i lazy la.. so lazy that i cannot even think.. lolz.. lazy use my brain also.. hahhaha.. anyway.. actually i'm lazy also la.. but i have to force myself to blog today.. cause it's someone's BIG DAY!!! it is.... someone's birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL.. MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE.. dun be devil already.. try to be angel.. muahahahhaa..

and ya.. like my title says.. so i got to owe u present la.. i'm broke.. hehehe.. forgive me ya.. eh.. i wan eat cake.. safe some for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolz.. seng seng.. when wan go bowling?? hahha.. and and... okie.. nothing else to write la.. last but not least..

I MISS U... :)

when acting as loving to someone u dun love.. it's HARD...
BUT IT"S EVEN HARDER when u acting as not loving to someone that u LOVE..

new month.. new life..

2008-06-01T11:28:00.003+08:00

harlooo.. morning.. just woke up tho.. hahaha.. i noe i noe.. i'm a lazyy sleepy piggg... but who carezz.. no one care also.. so ma no bother lor.. hehehe.. after brushing teeth, went downstairs and search for breakfast... now becomng hungry pig... :S okie okie.. skip that la.. boring stuffs...

now.. i'm glad that i noe u and i have found u... guess i am very lucky to find U in the crowded world full of people... i think i must noe u betteer so i can give u want u wan... lately i've been thinking about u... i haven seen u hot tempered a.. maybe when u hot tempered that time i sure become fried pig d. :( but nvm la.. fried pig ma fried pig lor.. in cantonese 'siew yoke'.. hehhhehehe..

and and......

got one day.. i nearly bang into someone from srikl.. she's from blue house...

see.. i was walking to the toilet from the digital centre... so when i was walking, i noe that there's someone in front of me but i dunno who is that.. cause her back is facing me... then nvm la.. sms came.. i type sms while walking.. then SUDDENLY..... the girl in front of me STOP!!!!!!!!!.. wow.. i tell u, my reaction that time can win WORLD RECORD la.. i was just 1 arms lenght away from her.. and i was not looking at her.. i was smsing.. so imagine my reaction to avoid her when she suddenly stop.. hhahaa.. CHUN LEH!?? sure la.. :P lol... self praise again.. like someone always like to do hor??? hor?? if u are reading this blog.. hahaha.. u noe who u are.. :P well well.. come back to the reaction to evade part.. after evade.. i didn't even swear at her.. i think it's a girl so i didn't swear at her? or is it a feeling that i noe her so i didn't swear at her?? hahaha.. well.. u wanna noe who is that?? i tell who is the.. she's WOOI WOAN NI.. with her mummy.. shopping... hahhaha.. they saw nice clothes then suddenly stop... so me at the back with ABS (anti braking system) also can get accident.. but lucky la.. me have been using ABS for 23 years.. sure very 'keng' one.. hehe.. then i went to toilet and do my stuff and went back to digital centre.. :)

hehee.. well.. another thing is.. OOPSS!!!!.. i would like to say sorry... sorry for forgetting to wish someone HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! i'm so sorry.. i didn't noe it's your birthday la.. :S anyway.. i owe u a present k?? :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI MIN...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:) may all your dreams come true ya.. heheheh..

so.. erm.. i have to get ready for lunch la.. so i'll blog again later ya.. :) heheeh...

-EDITED-

lol.. like i promise.. i am back.. hmm... so went to lunch then came back and sleep again.. hahaha.. then go pyramid.. u all noe wat i gonna do.. hehe.. then went home around 9.45pm.. chat.. sms.. missing ppl.. dreaming.. sms leng lui.. then listen to music.. hehehhaha.. then after that went offline awhile cause daddy wanna use the com.. then now come back... chat with 2 people.. hmm.. then i start to give them philosophy.. and one complain head gonna burst.. and another one complain headache d la.. dun ask d la.. lol.. ok ok.. i dun ask.. but u two think about it okie?? then tell me.. lolz.. is it really that hard??? huh??? hehhee.. it's just about about.. bus only ma..

someone is waiting for the bus for long time.. but the bus that have been waiting finally arrive.. so that someone noe it' the right bus.. then that someone board the bus.. but after boarding the bus.. that someone realise that the bus is dunno where its going..

cannot meh??? hard meh??? hehehe... okiee.. i gtg liao.. need to sleep.. sleepy la.. lately cannot sleep well.. keep thinking and thinking.. well.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. sleep well everyone.. tata.. take carezz...

i will love u till i die
when u tell me that u love me...

ya.. i change if u think i am..

2008-05-30T00:43:00.002+08:00

hey.. shirloo.. thanks for changing my backgorund and chatbox.. haha. nice. nice.. :) thank u very much.. nothing much happen la.. just went classes then go pyramid lor.. as usual.. :( boring... soo..

ya.. i changed.. i'm sorry i changed... ever since u told me that u ______________________ me.. i change.. and i can do nothing about it.. if u think i change.. then i change la.. but i can tell u i never change... is just that i dunno how to handleit.. u noe how i feel?? i guess u dun.. this is wat happens... u dun treasure the one in front of u.. when he's gone.. u regret.. isn't it too late.. i mean me.. not u.. so i am actually in damn big big trouble.. i like someone.. but that someone is so happy now.. so i guess i rather she be happy then she having headache on guys that like him.. if she's reading this sms.. i think she noe who it is.. i'm glad that i noe u, be frens with u, gave u everything u wan and like.. comfort u when u are down.. act as ah wong when u are sad.. just to make u smile.. the way u smile is like the heaven with snow.. it's it beautiful/??? :) how i wish i am same age as u .. or older than u 1 year.. then i guess i could have at least a bigger chance to be with u.. :(

okie.. late d la.. i guess i shud sleep la.. if not i'll die of not enuf sleep.. hahaha.. i think there's such thing..

a love that is not spoken but we both know well
that this love will always exist
in yours
in mine
someday
we will look back and savour those memories
when our hearts beat as one
when our laughters were our song
when tears were being kissed dry
you never let me know it
you never let it show because
you loved me and obviously
there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on like"i wish i could talk to you for a while"
"i wish i could find a way try not to cry"as time goes by
and as soon as you reach a better place
still i'll give the whole world to see your face
and i'm right here next to you
it feels like you are gone too soon
the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Shirloo here. :D

2008-05-29T12:20:00.002+08:00

HEYY. this andrew didn't update his blog. ahaha. and i got bored so i changed the layout and got a new cbox. :) looks better than last time right right? :D

let's tell a story, ermmm.

Andrew is a lazy koala. Who's always so lazy and doesn't update his blog. and people are waiting for him to update. cause his day is ALWAYS so INTERESTING. LOL.

so since he's so busy doing GOD-KNOWS-WHAT, Shirloo's here to do rubbish. :) WOOHOO. SUPERLOO. LAWL. waddafcuk.

so Andrew, you better update. or your blog will be all messed up with me blogging in it. AHAH. ok. BYEE!

[ LOOLOO ]

i was here. go figure. ;)

UPDATE AH!

u are different...

2008-05-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

hey ya.. yay.. everyone finish exam d.. hahaha.. can go lepak d.. yess.. wooohooo... anyway.. cut short ya.. today went pyramid with ken seng, malvin they all.. didn't do anything la.. boring as usual.. hhaha.. and and..

u noe wat?? i feel that someone is acting differently.. i dunno why... i wish to why.. but she keep telling me she's okie.. when i noe it's not... well.. great.. bluff me some more... bluff me more.. i am the stupid one who let u blufff.. and u noe u sms me.. every sms i get.. is DEFINATELY less than 20 letterrsss... soo.. i dunnno wat to say...

u dun tell me what happen.. i cannot help u.. i wanna help u.. but i think u dun wan me to help u... soo that's why u keep telling me you are fine.. :S i really dunno la.. it's like u use to sms and talk to someone who it's like damn close to u.. but suddenly she just reply wat u ask.. dun u feel it's weird..?? maybe i am the weird one.. oh welll.. guess i am the weird one.. :S :(....

it's okie la.. sorry peepszz.. thought wanna write about my frens... but no mood la.... i think i'll write it next time k?? sorry again...

i am calling out your name
can you hear me?
i wanna go home
back to your arms

lolz...

2008-05-22T01:51:00.001+08:00

harlo peeps.. how r you?? how's everything?? okiee?? exams okie?? hehhee.. yesterday was sher-maine's birthday.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.. i supposed to pass her present todAY. but couldn't find her.. then i call her.. she say she in the car going home.. dang...!!!!!!!!!!! cannot give her.. but nvm.. i ask someone to pass it to her d.. thank u so much.. :) hehehe... besides that went to pyramid la as usual.. omg... ehhhe. my second home d la.. i think i close my eyes i noe where i'm going.. hahhaha.. sooo.. is iphone a in thing now?? many ppl buy iphone.. dunno la.. my shop there all asking for iphone.. :S weird....

well.. anyway... i dunno why someone is not happy.. but cheer up ya.. is not end of the world yet.. okie?? i'll support u k?? remember if u need a ear.. i'll borrow mine.. :) sooo... another thing is sam!!!!!!! today or yesterday or tomorrow is jun's birthday>??? lol.. u making me blurr la.. i read your blog then u say happy birthday.. but i remember not 21st of may.. hehehe..

i think next post i'll write about my frens... hmm.. hope it'll be nice.. heheh.. who to start with?? just drop by my chat box and tell me who to start first.. heheh.. okie la.. gtg sleep d.. waited for someone to finish studying then go sleep.. hehehe.. she sleeping d la.. well.. GOOD LUCK peepss.. all the best ya.. heheh...

till then.. ciaoz.. nite nite.. sweet dreams. sleep tite. sleep well.. hahah.. have a nice day tomorrow.. take carezz...

can i dedicate you a song
with words just for you?
can i take you out
and squeeze into a crowded train
just so i can hold you close?
can i wear your favourite colours
so just it can match your eyes?

craving to end my day..

2008-05-20T17:08:00.002+08:00

hi... today school was bad.. went to class... and sleep.. dun have the mood to study.. just emoing only i guess.. teacher keep question me about the topic she teaching.. i just answered.. and she say not bad.. u pay attention with your eyes close.. the day passes very very slowly.. guess i dun have that mood to have fun so.. time passes slower.. oh well.. then went to eat lunch.. dunno wat to eat.. so went back to college music room to play around with the instrument...

around 3.. drove to srikl to pass back malvin's walkie talkie.. after that go to eat.. then now i at home.. cannot study.. so i decided to blog.. sooo.. i think i blog again later... nothing to write.. see you ppl..

i know its out there
there got to be something for my soul somewhere
and if i open my heart again
i guess i am hoping you will be there for me in the end
my soul have found its place
in you...

i feel like a knife slicing my skin.... :(

2008-05-20T01:42:00.003+08:00

harlo.. i'm okie.. just disappointed to someone... i didn't noe that, all this while... i've been treating him as my good fren.. but he can do this to me.. well.. i dunn wanna say adi.. cause i've got no tears to cry out.. the tears in me is the blood that is flowing out from my skin that being slice piece by piece... oh well.. sadly.. i forgive him cause i dun wan anymore arguements.. i rather i say sorry that to go on arguing... and also.. i said sorry cause of someone.. without that someone, i would noe how my good fren treat me.. therefore.. i would like to take this opportunity to say.. THANK YOU...

other than that.. i've made someone feel disaoppointed on me.. i dun mean it.. i hope u could understand how i feel.. i am really hurt from the words that u said.. i feel like crying.. but then.. i promise myself not to cry and make my tears roll of my cheek.. suddenly few drops of tears came out and drop into the toilet bowl.. no one could ever replace ur absent if i can't find back my tears.. i dunno what i can do to make u be back to normal before today.. but i guess will be hard.. if i can say sorry and everything will be back to normal.. i would say sorry for every word that come out from my mouth.. if i can make u happy again.. i would just do anything to make u happy.. even if i have to suffer from any problems..

well..

i really dunno how to face u... it's like going a war without a gun.. i'll be hiding.. until the war end.. but i think it's not the good way to win in a war.. but i have no choice.. the 'gun' is with someone.. i hope i can get back the 'gun' from that someone and give me back my life.. my life is totally miserable today.. u make me feel not complete... i guess i can never be complete without u.. i may not be the perfect guy that you are looking for.. not even the best among others.. but surely i'm the guy who will always care for u... today i couldn't get to hear the sweet voice of someone.. i am just like a paralyzed human that lying on the bed..

this song now really suits me... (baby i'm sorry - aleh toh) - mandarin song but chorus is english

i'm so sorry, _______ i'm so sorry...
i never meant, i never meant to hurt u..
feel so lonely, _______ i'm so lonely..
do you noe, i need you to come back.. are u alright..
*qing kuai dian hui lai*

i can only hope u have a nice day tomorrow and GOOD LUCK in your exams and if u are going for ballet.. carefull with you leg.. dun injured it okie? take good care..

and once again.. sorry for letting u down...

I"M SORRY......

it's not a matter of finding the right person
but a matter of being the right person for the one you choose to love
loving you is all I know
and i'm ok with that..
so how do you expect me
to live alone with just me?
cause my world revolves around you
it’s so hard for me to breathe

2008-05-19T02:18:00.000+08:00

`hey ya.. how's everything guys?? been studying hard for exam huh?? college exam no need study one la.. hehehe... tought meh the exam?? huh?? ok well.. i am so bored.. today i did nothing but sms.. sms.. sms.. sms.. hope my phone can take it la.. keep pressing the phone.. i feel the phone is shouting for help.. but i couldn't care.. bad bad owner.. sorry w850i.. i dun mean to presss u all day.. heheh.. but i have too.. thanks for being so kind.. hehehe..

omg.. i am talking to the phone.. lolz.. oh ya.. sam.. dun need thank u la.. heheh.. it's my pleasure.. if really helped u.. i am more than happy... :) hehehe.. oh ya sam.. study hard tomorrow.. and seriously.. got ppl say u damn hardworking lorr hehehe.. i swear....

oh well.. now.. fragile girll.. how u la/??? okiee?? feeling better or not?? hehe.. hope u do ya.. :) ok.. guess i have to go.. it's late d.. i need to sleep.. if not i'll be panda.. and not koala.. hehehe.. ciaoz dude.. bye bye.. nitezz. sweett dreams.. sleep tite.. have a wonderful day tomorrow.. take good carezz :)

maybe i do know
what you want
since you want it so badly
you should have it

SHIT... I DUN WANNA BE THIS WAY!!!!!!!!

2008-05-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

hey peeeple... i am okie.. very boring la.. went bowling training at bukit jalil.. sad sad.. so far.. haih.. so lazy u noe.. wanna drive there... plus alone in the car.. damn loner weih... :) okie la.. soo.. let see wat i did after that.. after that went to pyramid again la.. as usual.. sooo.. hahhaa.. nothing much.. i walk with someone till she go home.. she whack me more that 10 times.. and i am badly injured... nah.. just kidding la... no pain one la.. where can she hurt me rite?? hahaha.. okiee.. after that i went back home..

and and and.. someone make me damn freaking pissed man.. bloody hell.. dunno how to appreciate her then leave her la.. wanna have her but dunno how to treasure her.. u noe u dun trust your gf?? that's the worst thing ever?? omg.. u keep judging her and making her sad.. come one la.. she has feeling too lor.. like everyone else.. cry when sad.. laugh when happy... dun tell me u dunno that okie?? bastard.. if u so scared she will like me.. then treat her better la.. stupid man... damn useless man.. haih.. okieee.. now..

i am damn down.. being emoing.. i dun wan this to happen.. but i guess... i have to tel.. i dun wan it to be this way u see.. but i have no choice.. i really cannot bluff myself.. or u.. so i guess i have to tell u now.. watever the result is, i must folllow.. this might be the last time i can talk to her.. this might make her avoid me.. so.. god... i dunno wat to do.. just give me some guidance if u can.. but if cannot i won;t ask for more...

:(

Dun u noe how much i wan u?? dun u noe how much i need u??
i'll cherish u and i wanna love u forever...

haha... salary out!!

2008-05-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

harloo..... how's exam every one??? ok ar?? hard ar?? i guess ok gua... hehe.. anyway.. i got salary from srikl.. hahaha.... so fun......... hehheeheheh.... oh well.... lazy to blog la.. bloging with one hand.. so hard... :) but i try la k??

so.. i was talking to someone on the phone.. been chatting since?? olike 12? haha.. cause my stupid phone dunno y cannot sms......... wat man???? screw it la.. so that's y i must call her... oh well... hehe... and.. and... hehe... she wan to 'eat' me... oooohhhhhh... i gonna die soon... ppl... bye bye.. haha.. kidding... kiding.. hehe...

hhhehhe.. okie la.. GOOD LUCK again tomorrow k?? all the best.. u can do it.. piece of cake.. rite?? hehehhe... have a nice day.. hhehehe.. :) take good care ya?? hehhee.. see ya.. hhehhee.. i try to blog tomorrow k??? sorry peepz....

pictures of you
pictures of me
hung up on your wall for the world to see
pictures of you
pictures of me
remind us all of what we used to be..

are you the one for me???

2008-05-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

oh well ppl.. boring day again.. waaa.. i wash my car today and it rain after that.. wat la.. wasted all my energy and time.. so oh well.. nothing to blog la.. same old thing i did la.. so nothing special.. hehe.. morning wake up then try to help shirloo find the paint she wanted.. ask around and i finally got it.. drove to his house to take it.. and i smsed shirloo.. suddenly she say her mom will bring for her.. =.= oh well.. never mind.. then i drove all the way back to bukit jalil to give back my fren.. then i came back to class.. this time didn't enter wrong class okie?? i am smart d.. hahahha.. cheh.. praising ownself huh?? hahhaha.. self praise is no praise.. :P

okie.. then went pyramid.. didn's sms her cause i scared i disturb her study for exams.. so i try not so sms her la.. but ended up i type the messages and safe it in the draft.. guess how many message i tried to send to her but i didn't??? damn many lor... more than 30 la.. oh well.. is she the one for me?? arrrgggghhhh.. i dunnnno.. hate this man..

and and.. u noe wat? someone that i use to sms but didn't, today when i smsed her i knew there's something wrong.. well.. she told me nothing la., just tired.. but now, i noe so many things that make her not happy.. make her sad.... I HATE U (stupid things that make her sad) I REALLLLY HATE U..... GO AWAY FROM HER!!!! I ORDER U TO NOT DISTURB HER ANYMORE.... :( PLEASE LA!!!!! GO AWAY OKIE? oh well.. hope god will help me.. :S please be happy k?? tomorrow exam ar.. hehe.. shhhhh... she's sleeping.. hope she can sleep well... :)

anyway ppl.. nite nite.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite ya.. sleep well.. :) GOOD LUCK to ALL who is having EXAMss... heheh.. have a nice day.. TAKE CARESS.. :)

when choice are placed right in front of me,
i have a headache
cause i need to pick one
when i dont have a choice i have a headache
cause i cant choose anything
life is simply imperfect
i tell you
so ironic

bleh!!!! boring...

2008-05-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

hey everyone.. :) boring ler.. oh well.. hahhaha.. today nothing special.. just got RM 50 from shirloo and suddenly samantha came and ask me something.. i told her.. hahah.. so now she noe who i am and i noe who she is.. but still not close la.. i was so shocked when she came and talk.. :S sorrry. abit stunted that time.. hehehhe.. okie.. today no class.. so nothing to do la.. hehehe..

after that.. went to MC D with hui xin and frens.. lolz.. they were pearly and joanne.. si ching and jin yang.. then while we were walking there.. not even half way from srikl.. my gawd.. huixin is like the garfield show... she say' so far la.. can we turn back.. ' hahaha.. it like garfield trying to resque odie.. hahaha.. anyway.. went there buy and go back.. then pearly and joanne was walking super fast.. wanna win dunno wat marathon la.. ok ok.. i noe.. your parents came.. hahaha.. :) then while si ching and jin yang eating.. dunno wat happen.. this is wat i laugh just now..

si ching jin yang (in cantonese conversation)

jin yang.. lei thow ngo ge fries ar??

mou ar..

lei ngak ngor ar?? mc d bei ge fried sum ma chap jue geh.. let geh fries sum ma fun jue geh..

i was laughing like mad.. lolz... okie.. then i went to pyramid again.. for bowling la.. haih. sad rite?? then while bowling.. hui xin's sister call me.. ask me whether i'm still in school?? then i say no.. then she say nvm.. then of course i wanna noe why she ask la.. after that i noe d.. i told her i will go back to school and help her see.., hehe.. then i found her crocodile pencil box.. at the same time i saw samantha tham.. she haven go back la.. OMG.. so lonely she sit there.. then suddenly 2 smses.. one from hui xin and another one from huimin.. lolz.. hui xin keep saying thank u and sorrry.. lolz.. DUN NEED LA!!!!! hehhee.. okie okie... i beetteeerr stop d.. if i go on.. sure die... hehee..

oh ya... i smsed the same person again.. the one that is lonely.. the one that not being loved by her bf.. haih.. is like kena ditch weih.. nvm nvm.. i'm here.. hehehe.. okiee.. better go sleep d.. tomorrow got class la.. haih.. i think next post i wanna post about my frens.. hahahha.. see ya ppl.. nite. sweeeet dreamms.. sleep titte.. tatataa.. take good care ya.. ;)

if every rose i pick will give u 1 minute of happiness, i would rather spend my entire life in the rose garden.. :)

The most MALU day of my LIFE @@

2008-05-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

hey peeps... how's your day? loll.. not good/?? good?? well.. mine is bored la as usual.. hehehe.. well.. woke up this morning at 9.30am.. then went down stairs to makan breakfast la.. mommy make liao... so must eat.. after that went back to my room and tidur.. hahha.. nothing to do also.. early morning no nice tv show.. so ma go tidur again lor.. lolz.. then wake up at 10.. then go shower.. then hahahhaa.. *toot tooot tooot* then go into the car... play play with my car.. then i reach pyramid for bowling training la.. so lazy la.. my gawd.. always training training.. haih....

after trraining..

now.. i went back to ss15.. srikl.. go check for my salary.. but it seems that haven ready.. wat la.. been asking it for 3 weeks.. and that penguin keep telling me not ready.. haih.. after that waited for malvin to go makan.. lol.... on the way out.. i was making fun of malvin.. lolz.. he's funny la.. the only word he likes to say is ' woooiii arrr'.. ' ok ok ok' hahhahahaha.. malvin.. sorry la.. not only me realisze it. hahahah.. okie.. then go eat at salmon steak.. waaaa.. i makan bbq chicken.. damn fast.. malvin always lose.. he always tak puas one.. muahahahhaa.. now.. after than walk him back la.. then i go class...

walking to college.. and getting ready to go for class.. MARKETING CLASS la.. important weih.. good student ma. wat to do.. must always attend class.. lolz.. sooo when i reach 7th floor.. the new inti building.. i look for this class.. L7-R105.. taaa daaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i found it.. then i go open the door and =.=... where are my frens??????????????????????????? the next thing in my mind.. OOPSS!!!!!!!!!! wrong classs?? then i ask the lecturer inside.. she say it's accounts class.. then got ppl laughing at me. :S then i quickly close the door.. wah lau.. damn malu weih... then i check the time table i got.. OMMMMGGGGG.. the class is at 2 to 4.. sorry la.. i simply look at the time table this morning la... some more i not good with 24 hours format.. so kantoi la.. :S then i walk back to my car and drove to pyramid.. hahaha.. go check out my shop.. okie la.. nothing imteresting.. hahah.. then i took back new samsung phone.. the 2 sim card one.. lol.. wanna sell it la.. who wan to buy???? :) reach home.. sms.. again la.. sms her.. that someone that is so lonely.. that someone that have not been lovedd.. hmm.. why la.. why? why is she not being loved?? her bf dun really care about her la.. haih.. guys guys.. dun ever do this k?? please care for your gf more la.. think of their feelings.. well.. smsed until she tidur.. hahaha./..

now my turn wan to tidur.. she ask me tidur but i dun wan.. now she tidur d must sleep lu.. hehhehe.. okiee... time to go liao.. nite nite ppl.. sweet dreams.. sleep titee... hahaha.. adios... take carexx my frenss!!! :)

remember to always tell me you love me but also show me that you really do love me with your actions and feelingsyou really shouldn't say i love you unless you mean it but if you mean it, you should say it a lot - people forget it's not a matter of finding the right person but a matter of being the right person for the one u choose to love. loving is all i noe and i'm okie with that. i will love u more that u will ever noe. and u love me more that u ever show..

errr.... NEWBIE.. :)

2008-05-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

harloo everyone.. ermm.. welcome to my blogg.. hahha.. erm.. i dunno why i am blogging now.. weird.. althought i love reading ppl's blog.. but i still hahahha.. trying to make my blog.. :) lolz.. anyway.. first of all.. i would like to THANK shirloo for helping me to do this blog.. hahaha.. owh.. btw.. i won't kill u la.. lolz.. thanks alot ya.. *wink wink* XD..

soo.. erm.. wat to write la.. omg.. i'm not good at writing stories.. like everyone noe how to.. lolz.. anyway... wait. wait.. i got to think.. erm... soo.. ya.. basically this blog i can express myself i think cause i saw samantha koay did it.. lol.. so .. hahahhaa.. whoever of u make me pissed.. there goes your name on my blogg.. let the whole world noe u are treating very bad.. :P okie okie.. back to today..... :S

today ar.. it's HAPPY MOTHER's DAY.. :) i woke up early at 7am to bake cake for my mummy.. and it took me 2 hours.. so i finish at 9am.. i wrote a note and put near the cake.. then i thought of waiting my mummy to wake up .. but i think i slept dunno how.. eh.. come on la.. i sleep at 2 am last nite k??? cannot blame me la.. i not sleepy so cannot sleep lor.. so... hmm.. so.. i woke up at erm.. 12pm and i realize that the cake i bake is already eaten by my mommy i think.... haha.. i go up to my mummy and hug her.. while hugging her.. i say 'mom.. happy mother's day.. thank you for being there for me everytime.. you are the on that care for me the most... altho i sometimes let u down.. i'm sorry if i every say things that hurt u.. or say it in a angry tone that makes u think i dun love u.. but i DO LOVE u MOM... is just that i sometimes being a teenager's life.. so i didn't behave.. i'm sorry.. i will promise and try my best not to make u hurt and angry mom'.... then i release my hug from her.. i saw few tears coming down.. :'(.. oh well.. after that went to pyramid.. lepaking there as usual la.. then go see see my shop.. sit there a while.. go play bowling.. then walk walk and wait mummy come.. and and i sms.. sms someone.. someone that being left alone.. someone that is not loved properly by her BF.. someone who always bored.. :) i smsed her.. hahhaa.. ;) soo.. smsed till she sleeps.. hahha.. she dun wan to sleep but she scared i start to nag nag nag so she went to sleep.. zzzz... *snoring* (i think la..) lolz.. after that i am here.. trying to do and upgrade it.. but i think i fail.. shit.. dammit... shirloo.. u got to help me... okie?? promise me ya/?? hahhaa.. erm.. till then i think i wan sleep d la.. if not i kena marah by someone saying i not sleeping early and that someone will laugh at me.. :( okie okie.. better get going peepzz.. nitezz.. sweet dreams.. sleep tite.. take carezz :) hgeheheh.....

closing my eyes
trying to remember the night i became yours

SHIRLOO HERE 8D

2008-05-11T23:28:00.001+08:00

MUAHAHHAHA. i got bored. xD and my finger are itchy. GAHAHAHA. THIS IS ANDREW'S NEW BLOG! WOOHOO. sexy lerh. sexy lerh. i'll make it sexier for him when i have time.

putt songs, c box laah. this laah. that lah. xD ahahah.
okaay. that's all.

SO BYE BYEEE! 8D

-Looloo- andrew don't kill me cause i conteng-ed here 8D